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Re: Friday Throat Punch
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I was having a bad day yesterday, everything was going wrong. Then, last night I told my oldest friend about the start of our fertility testing and issues and the frustration with insurance. She already knew about our miscarriage and asked how things were going. After an hour of texting back and forth about life I asked if they had a wedding date picked yet (she got engaged last Saturday). Her reply was, "late next fall. I've waited to tell you this because I know everything you've gone through. I'm having a baby in March so we obviously have to wait. Lol"
I couldn't breath. I appreciated finding out from her personally, but the timing was crap. I called my mother in law bawling. This girl was engaged to a different guy this time last year, dating another different guy at Christmas, and she's only been with this guy for 6 months. It all seemed overwhelmingly unfair. I sat and counted, I know 26 pregnant women. It's just getting harder to handle.
Sorry for the book, I feel like you ladies are the only people who understand! Thank you for being awesome.
@jj32 ((hugs)) I'm sorry you had announcements too. TTCAL emotions suck ass. The jealously mixed with knowing you're supposed to be happy and deep down you are. The sadness it's not you mixed with the anger it's so easy for seemingly everyone else, even when your rational self knows others struggle too. It's all so much!
YorkieLove83 - So, so sorry. It's so hard. (((HUGS))). And also to you @jj32 - I felt guilty hiding friends on FB but I just can't look.
I guess my Friday TP would be to, I don't know, my anxiety I guess? This week I was put on two antibiotics for BV and an infection following my miscarriage a week and a half ago. Doctor said we were good for "intimacy" once bleeding stopped, so we did, once, and I'm convinced that caused the infection. Lots of tenderness in my lower right uterus so now of course I'm telling myself this infection will cause permanent damage and blah, blah, blah and I'm an idiot. Can't see the doctor til next Friday so of course until then I'll be analyzing every single ache or pain I have. I'm anxious by nature and this isn't helping.
But on a happy note, it's a long weekend - enjoy as best you can ladies!
***Siggy Warning - loss mentioned***
*S15 Siggy January Siggy Challenge - Happy Dance*
ME: 32 DH: 38
BFP#1 - 7/18/14; EDD 3/23/14; MMC 8/11/14 (passed naturally on 8/17/14)
BFP#2 - 12/29/14; EDD 9/10/15 *PLEASE BE OUR RAINBOW!*
@jms627 I'm sorry about the infection. I know it's easier said but try not to analyze everything. If your dr was concerned they would squeeze you on sooner.
PgAL welcome
Married 6/11/2011
Me & Hubby: 34
TTC journey started 12/2012
BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks
BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)
Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.
Also have hypothyroidism
Started TTC again 12/2013
IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN
IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN
Current plan: IVF with PGD. Antagonist - Vivelle Protocal. Stim start 12/1. ER 12/14.
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/502498
@jj32 Sorry for the FB announcements. I had quite a few that just about killed me.
@jms627Hope things are cleared up soon!
@cfearsy What a crock! I hope you get your holiday pay.
@ashtog Nightmares are the worst. They can really mess with your head. Big hugs, lady.
AFM, TP to insomnia. I was awake from 3am-5am last night then woken up at 6:15 by DH's alarm. I am like a zombie today. The only semi-potential maybe good part of all of this is that with my last pregnancy (my loss) I had insomnia in the beginning so *maybe* (wishful thinking). I test tomorrow, 12DPO.
DS2 born 2/22/13
MMC 5/16/14@8w2d
DD due 5/9/15 Please be our RAINBOW
TP to one of my CLOSEST friends for telling me our losses were the universe's way of teaching me patience...
((Hugs)) to everyone having a shitty day!
@jms627 sorry about the anxiety. I know it probably doesn't help, but the chance of permanent damage is low! Try to stay calm until you can see the doctor. Take it day by day and keep yourself distracted!
@CFearsy TP to her. What a bitchy thing to try. Make sure you get paid and get your vaca!
@ashtog I'm sorry your having nightmares! I hope they go away soon!
@KS0510 What the FUCK! I'd slap that bitch. Why the hell would anyone say that to a loss mom?! So sorry!!!
@mpiemont insomnia sucks but I've got everything crossed you get a BFP. I'm mobile for the next week can you link your chart? I'd like to chart stalk you
@EurydiceNymph fx everything is ok. I hate when doctors do that shit!
Thank you for the hugs @furrypaws @CreechMommy @ashtog @Km380 @CFearsy @medic7979
That just really pissed me off!
I am so sorry she said that! On no level is that okay! Throat Punch to her!
edit because I never finished.
DH & I are both 28 Together: 12 years Married: 09/24/2011
BFP#1: January '12 - DD1 09/16/2012
Preterm labor 31 weeks. Monitored for Hellp and diagnosed with oligohydramnios July '12
BFP #2: 06/25 - EDD 03/05/15 MMC confirmed 8/1 - D&E 8/4 retained tissue discovered 8/20
BFP #3 11/24 - 12/15 Heartbeat detected - DD2 07/29/15
https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/3d6b82
...and thanks for the FX everyone
Edit- link issues
DS2 born 2/22/13
MMC 5/16/14@8w2d
DD due 5/9/15 Please be our RAINBOW
First Child born
5/5/14 and 6/5/14
11/14
Chemical Pregnancy
9/5/15
Second after severe bleeding for 18 weeks due to subchorionic hematoma
Expecting Number 3 due 10/31/2020
@yorkielove83 ((hugs)) I know that hit hard, but like you said I'm glad it came from her. Doesn't make it any easier to handle though. ((hugs)) Hope your weekend gets brighter.
@jj32 ((hugs))
@jms627Hope I hope the antibiotics help soon! I over analyze everything too. Hope you can keep busy this weekend.
@cfearsy That's bull. I really hope she works something out for you!
@ashtog (((HUGS))) I hope you can get some better sleep tonight. Dreams can really mess the whole day up! ((Hugs))
@mpiemont your chart is looking good. FX!
DH & I are both 28 Together: 12 years Married: 09/24/2011
BFP#1: January '12 - DD1 09/16/2012
Preterm labor 31 weeks. Monitored for Hellp and diagnosed with oligohydramnios July '12
BFP #2: 06/25 - EDD 03/05/15 MMC confirmed 8/1 - D&E 8/4 retained tissue discovered 8/20
BFP #3 11/24 - 12/15 Heartbeat detected - DD2 07/29/15
PgAL welcome
Married 6/11/2011
Me & Hubby: 34
TTC journey started 12/2012
BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks
BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)
Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.
Also have hypothyroidism
Started TTC again 12/2013
IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN
IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN
Current plan: IVF with PGD. Antagonist - Vivelle Protocal. Stim start 12/1. ER 12/14.
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/502498
KS0510 - NO! JUST NO! So sorry - what a craptacular friend. TP away!
And thank you ladies - you're helping me step back from the freak out ledge
***Siggy Warning - loss mentioned***
*S15 Siggy January Siggy Challenge - Happy Dance*
ME: 32 DH: 38
BFP#1 - 7/18/14; EDD 3/23/14; MMC 8/11/14 (passed naturally on 8/17/14)
BFP#2 - 12/29/14; EDD 9/10/15 *PLEASE BE OUR RAINBOW!*
@KS0510 I'm so very sorry your friend said that. I don't have the words to express how angry I am for you.
@YorkieLove83 I'm sorry you had such a rough day. Thinking of ya!
@jj32That's too bad about the FB announcements, I've had a few as well... I'm even having dreams of my friends' pregnancy announcements... they are even kind enough not to post them so I dream of them!
@jms627 I don't know if it would make you feel even better to hear the same thing again, but I agree that if it was something they were really worried about they would squeeze you in earlier than next Friday. I hope you get some answers and feel better soon.
@CFearsy I'm sorry you're going through that at work. It sucks for your boss that she has to pay you for 50 hours in one week, but if that's what she agreed to then that's what you should get!
@ashtog I hate hearing that you are having these terrible dreams only to wake up to a milestone. I don't have much advice, but I'm sending Hugs your way!
@mpiemont Good luck tomorrow!! I wouldn't be able to sleep either
AFM, TP to myself for throwing my new Husker shirt I bought yesterday in the trash can! We were on a car trip and I thought it was our trash sack... I will go dumpster diving for it... maybe I can convince my DH to do it for me though...
BFP#1: 8/5/14 EDD: 4/17/15 MC: 8/20/2014
BFP#2: 10/10/14 EDD: 6/23/15 Grow, Baby. Grow!!
J15 January Siggy Challenge: Pinterest Fails
BFP#1: 8/5/14 EDD: 4/17/15 MC: 8/20/2014
BFP#2: 10/10/14 EDD: 6/23/15 Grow, Baby. Grow!!
J15 January Siggy Challenge: Pinterest Fails
