Today I broke down and wept because my 2 1/2 year old told me that she doesn't like the songs I sing to her when I put her to sleep. I've been rotating through the same 9 songs since she was born, so I suppose it's not that strange that she might be bored with them, but it totally broke my heart. I'm crying again now as I write this. I feel like it's our special thing, and it's even more important to me now that I have another child taking up a bunch of my attention.
I know it's crazy, and I can always learn more songs. Post partum hormones strike again.
Anyone else freaking out over silly stuff?
Re: Cue the post partum hormone crazies
4 rounds of clomid, 2 with IUI = BFN
Then randomly I keep thinking about my husband's voice when he announced the baby was born. This time and last, he was choked up and so happy and excited, and he kissed me.
Then I think about how he was my rock during labor. Delivering DS was textbook perfect, but this time it was bumpy and hard. Nothing really worked. I had insane hot spots when the epi failed in one location. I was crying, swearing, frustrated... Then they told me she wasn't descending as I was pushing, and that I had started bleeding hard. They took me into the or alone to get prepped and I was scared and worried about the baby, but when he came in, he sat down and took my hands, rubbed my arm, and said everything would be OK.
And of course, now I'm crying, just writing this out.