I'm going through my first IVF cycle and I'm feeling rather discouraged. I have stage IV endo, and everyone said that IVF would be our golden ticket, and I feel sort of cheated now that things are going well, not so well.
Before starting this cycle I was on femara (to suppress the endo) for three months continuously. I am 30, have a great AMH (4.6 at last measure) and a decent AFC (ranging from 15-17, I have an endometrioma on my left ovary which means I have less eggs on that side).
Anyways I monitored yesterday after 8 days of stimming. I started on 150 menopur and 150 bravelle, but I'm now at 300 menopur and 300 bravely, because I am responding so poorly. My E2 is still low (400 something), and my follicles (yesterday, Monday) measured
L:18, 18, 6, 8, 6
R: 16, 11, 11, 11, 11, 7, 7
They think that maybe I will have ER on Thursday Feeling so conflicted, thinking we should maybe cancel this cycle? Eugh...I'm so scared we will only get 2 or 3 eggs, what do you lady's think. I just think that given my numbers I could do better, but maybe not?
This is so hard, I feel constantly on edge. I keep on catastrophizing "We will never have kids". Any and all imput is appreciated!
Me: 31 DH:35 Married: 2010.
FSH: 5.7, AMH: 4.7
Found 2.6 cm Endometrioma in March 2013: decided we should TTC
2 rounds of Femara+ TI Nov-Dec 2013: BFN
Lap Jan. 2014: removed endometrioma Dx: Stage 4 Endo
Feb 2014: another round of Femara+TI: BFN, endometrioma is back!
March 2014- July 2014: continous Lupron to shrink endo
July 2014: IVF 1: 9R, 7M, 5F, 5 beautiful day 5 blasts! eSET, 4 snowbabies! Beta: #1 2936 Beta # 2 7684 1st ultrasound 5w6d: saw yolk and sac, 2nd ultrasound 6w6d: heartbeat!! 112 bpm 7w6d heartbeat!! 148 bpm 9w 2d measuring right on track heartbeat! 175 bpm
**Praying for a H&H 9 months**