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I am lost (Bad News mentioned)

Its so hard to write this and know it to be true. I had my HSG ultrasound on Monday and found out that at the young age of 24, both of my fallopian tubes are blocked and that IUI will probably not work for me..Financially IVF isn't an option and I am just so defeated right now. Its been two days and I think I am still in shock. I've always been relatively healthy, I come from a super fertile family and I just never thought this would even be a possibility. In addition to blocked tubes, I have a protein S defiency so even if we decide to still try the IUI, I may develop blood clots from any medications I take.

I just feel like there's nowhere to go from here....

Re: I am lost (Bad News mentioned)

  • Oh no. I had the same results and had to have my tubes removed before pursuing IVF, apparently blocked, swollen tubes are a miscarriage driver (not to add more bad news). Give yourself some time with this. You may find a way once you're over the shock and disappointment of this happening at such a young age. Hugs.
    Lil'mamaz was born on Aug 21, 2014! She's PERFECT!

    It's been a long road to here...
    Me (43) and J (45) - same sex couple. And we don't feel 40+!
    June'12 - First RE Visit
    Sept. '12 - Tubes removed
    Dec. '12 - Donor Egg/Donor Sperm IVF Cycle - 4 good embies!
    Dec. '12 - Fresh transfer, BFP! EDD 8/29/13
    Mar. '13 - Missed m/c at 16w1d, baby boy stopped growing at 15w4d
    Loss due to umbilical cord clot...baby was perfect. :(
    Jul '13 - FET#1 - c/p
    Sept. '13 - FET#2 - BFN
    Dec.' 2, 2013 - FET#3 with our last chance embie - BFP!!!
    Dec' 26, 2013 - hb!!
    EDD 8/20/14 with a baby girl!
    Little S was born on 8/21/14 - 8lb, 14 oz and 20 inches long.
    We live in Seattle and used SRM for our donor egg IVF cycle


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  • I'm so sorry you are going through this.  It certainly is a lot of news to take in and process all at once.  We're here to support/listen, so please feel free to vent, be frustrated, and let it out.  I'm so sorry!
    I want to scream, and cry to my eyes are swollen. I feel hopeless and defeated and less of a woman. This was the one thing I was supposed to naturally excel at and to have that taken away from me..I feel blindsided. Its all I ever wanted, I've dreamed about what our baby will look like, the kind of mothers we would be, how it would feel to have life grow inside of me and now its like someone invaded my dreams and erased them all away. How can I reconcile this, how can I keep going knowing that everything has been snatched away...
  • JGYJGY member
    I'm so sorry.  That news is totally overwhelming and I don't blame you for wanting to scream.  @TwoMomsInTX is wise ... get it out.  And then, get it out again.  And eventually you will begin to find your path forward, in your time.  We're all here to listen to you. 

    Married to my amazing wife 6/12/10 
    TTC since 6/11
    Unmedicated IUI #1 - 6/28/11 - BFN
    Unmedicated IUI #2 - 7/25/11 - BFN
    Robotic Myomectomy (Fibroid Surgery) - 11/15/11
    Unmedicated IUI #3 - 4/24/12 - BFN 
    Progesterone Supported Leuteal Phase IUI #4 - 6/21/12 - BFP!!
    Baby Boy G Born 3/24/13

    On to #2, are we crazy?
    IUI #1 - 11/28/14 - BFP!  Beta #1 (11DPO) 34, Beta #2 (13DPO) 101, Beta #3 (20DPO) 3043
    Ultrasound at 6w4d shows a single, fluttering heartbeat.  Say hello to Sticky Ricki!

     

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  • I'm so sorry.  I agree that sometimes the only way out is through.  I hope that other options to grow your family open up to you.

    Big HuGs!!

  • JGY said:
    And eventually you will begin to find your path forward, in your time.  We're all here to listen to you. 
    I'm so sorry to hear this...but I agree with JGY, you may find an alternative path forward.  There are IVF financing options, if you want to pursue them.  Can your partner carry?  You don't need to think about these options now, but know that there are options when you want to investigate them.  I can't guarantee any will work for you, but it's worth researching.
    Married my wife 8/2007 ~ TTC #1 since 7/2011
    9 IUIs = 9 BFNs
    IVF October 2012: 22 eggs retrieved, 17 fertilized, 5 frozen
    ET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Blighted ovum discovered at 7w5d; D&E
    FET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Missed m/c discovered at 9w5d; D&E
    Karyotyping: normal ~ RPL Testing: normal ~ Hysteroscopy: normal
    FET #2: 1 blast transferred 10/25; BFP 10/31!
    EDD 7/13/14 ~ Induced at 37w4d due to pre-eclampsia ~ Born on 6/28/14
    *Everyone welcome*

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  • Agree with ball.and.chain there are options. I think we never stop trying despite the news, just takes a bit to find a new option. I'm so sorry for the bad news.


    10 medicated IUI's (3 with injectables). 
    IUI #1 (medicated) Jan. 2013-BFP!!!!- Beta's didn't double, MTX shot for possible ectopic.
    8 IUI's between April 13-April 14 = BFN 
    IUI #10 and final before IVF, injectables May 2014- BFP!!!!  TWINS!!!!

    7 week ultrasound showed 2 wonderful heartbeats!
    8 weeks to the ER with vaginal bleeding while on vacations!  Diagnosed SubChorionic Hemorrhage.  Babies are both great.
    9 week ultrasound showed both babies are still great.
  • I'm so sorry to hear you received such bad news. I cannot fathom what you are feeling, but I do recommend seeking counseling to process everything. I believe everyone needs therapy in their lives at different times. Much love to you during this very difficult time.
    T & G My wife and I married 9/10/11 in Niagara Falls, NY
    HSG 12/12/12        
    #1 ICI 12/15/12              BFN on 12/29/12
    #2 ICI  1/11/13                BFN 1/28/13                       
    #3 ICI 2/11/13                 BFN
                   
    #4 ICI August 2013,  Clomid 100mg    BFN on 8/30/13 
    #5 ICI September-Clomid 100,  mg ICI 8/15 and 8/16,  BFN on 9/3
    #6 ICI October-Clomid 150 mg for 5 days   BFN 10/27
    uterine laparoscopy on 11/14-no endo or cysts
    #7 IUI December-Clomid 150mg    BFP 12/21
    12/23 Beta 51     12/26 Beta 209!
    First ultrasound on January 8th 2014-great healthy heartbeat
    Second Ultrasound January 23 (8 weeks) we got to see and hear the heartbeat
    Third Ultrasound Feb 4th(10 weeks), then will  released to OBGYN'
    It's a GIRL!
    We welcomed Adalyn Cooper Elizabeth on 8/29/14
    She was 7lbs 11oz and 19.6 inches long

    Proud foster parents to two little girls ages 2.5 yrs old, M,  and 1 year old, K



  • KarlamoKarlamo member
    edited August 2014
    What hard news to hear. My heart goes out to you. Take the time you need to grieve and process.
    My wife went through 12 iui's and 2 failed ivf cycles before they found out what was wrong. She has low egg reserve at the age of 32!
    Insurance paid for me to be her " egg donor". Maybe your insurance will pay for your wife to be the " surrogate". It's worth checking your coverage when you're ready. Until then if you want to be moms never lose hope!
  • I am so sorry to hear this. Please take care of yourself and we are here if you need anything!

    Queer coupled and having a BABY with the love of my life! Love my life and wouldn't have it any other way!
    First IUI 1/22/2013 BFN: 2/7/2013, Second IUI 2/21/2013 BFN: 3/9/2013, Third IUI 4/23/2013 BFN: 5/8/2013, Fourth IUI 5/24/2013 BFN: 6/7/2013, Fifth IUI 6/24/2013 BFN: 7/8/2013

    C began IUI's
    7/23/2013 C's first IUI BFN, 8/21/2013 C's second IUI BFN , Took a break in September and October, 11/05/2013 C's 3rd IUI (TWW...we meet again...) BFN, Took off the month to switch to an RE. 01/01/2014 C's 4th IUI...BFP!!!!!!!! Beta #1- 17, Beta #2- 34, Beta #3-140....  6W Ultra-Sound Reveals nothing in Gestation Sack... Natural M/C at 7W, 2/3/2014

    03/21/2014 IUI #10...BFP!!! Beta #1- 48, Beta #2- 416, Beta #3- 1018. GROW BABY GROW!!!

    1st Ultrasound 4/22/2014 Baby Squints is PERFECT! Measuring at 6w2d with a heartbeat of 129. EDD: 12/12/14.

    Ultrasound at 18 weeks on 7/14/2014. Baby is healthy and growing just as she should!

     

    Check out my blog at: http://journeytoparenthoodandmakingmilk.blogspot.com/

     

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  • I'm so sorry. I hope after the initial shock wears off that you and your spouse can make a plan to move forward - even if it doesn't happen as quickly as you wanted and were planning.
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  • I am so very sorry to hear this. I imagine it must be very difficult to imagine a path forward right now. Once you have been given time to process this information, I hope that you are able to find a path that (if not ideal) will provide you with the family that you so crave. I never thought that I would be able to afford IVF, but we made it work. I know you have other challenges as well, but my point is that we end up doing things we never thought possible sometimes. Sometimes it just takes a longer more round-about path to get us to where we are ultimately meant to be. Sending lots of support your way!

    Me - 30, My wife - 31 , Together for 10 yrs - Married August 2012

    5 medicated IUIs w/ RE (March - July 2013) = BFN

    Fresh IVF Cycle in September 2013 resulted in 18 mature eggs, 16 fertilized, 12 made it to day 5. Transfer of 2 Grade A blastocysts on 9/15/13, and 10 embryos in the freezer!      *****BFP on 9/25/13 - betas: @10dp5dt = 232; @12dp5dt = 465; @15dp5dt = 1,581   *********William George born June 4, 2014*********
  • I am so sorry for you! We went through a similar situation. My wife had a botched appendectomy that left her with fallopian tubes that are all scar tissue. We never thought we would be able to afford IVF, but we didn't realize that MA insurance is required to offer infertility coverage. 

    Every state and policy differs but it is worth looking into. Also, depending on your life situation you may consider moving to a "pro-fertility" state.  We still ended up spending about 5k for meds, sperm and deductible, but that was a lot less than we would have spent on an endless cycle of IUIs. We ended up with our son and 2 embryos from that round of IVF.

    Just trying to offer perspective from the other side. You will find a path that works for your family!
    Same-sex couple- In love with my awesome wife, A, since 2007
    Our son M was born 6.2013 

    M was conceived via IVF using donor sperm and my wife's eggs. My wife carried. 

    Now I am starting my second FET with embryos from A's IVF cycle...this is our last shot.

    ET 9/15- BFN

  • I am so sorry to hear this. listen to all the experience present here

    Give yourself time to grieve. Hold dear to those you love and allow them to comfort you.

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  • Wow, I do not have any personal experience to speak of and can only imagine how you are feeling but wanted to say that I wish you the very best.
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    Married: 10/4/2013
    TTC Since September 2014
    BFP 11/30/2014 ~ EDD 8/13/2015 ~ CP 12/5/2014
    BFP #2 12/30/2014 ~ EDD 9/13/2015 Stick bean stick!
  • I am so sorry, mama.  We did go through IVF and learned that there are programs, like insurance, that will help pay for IVF, depending on a few factors.  We didn't qualify because one factor was age (must be under 38, I was 39... so close yet so far) but I've heard it's a great program.  Maybe worth checking into?

    I'm sorry again.  Many hugs. 

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  • Sorry to hear this and hope that when you feel ready, the options that are right for you (because there will be options) are available. *hugs*
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