Trouble TTC

AW: I am my mother! N3TR

I remember when I was young, if she could not get a hold of me or my brothers, and had no idea where we were, she would FREAK OUT, full on panic attack mode. She'd assume the absolute worst possible thing happened (which usually amounted to "someone must have pushed them onto the subway tracks").

Here I am typing this, absolutely relieved that my DH finally answered his cell phone. He drove to Niagara Falls (about an hour and a half away) to go see his mom and do an oil change on my car (because she has a huge property, and we don't have a garage or a driveway). I was working nights so I did not go. I woke up around 4pm, 8 hours after he left, and called him to see where he was and he didn't answer. Instead of thinking "oh, he's driving home, and doesn't want to answer while driving" my mind started freaking out that he got into a car accident either on the way there, or on the way back. Should I call his mom, should I not? What am I supposed to do with the rest of my life if he's gone?? I can't live here in our house alone, I'd die. The babies, the life we planned, all gone. All the while not sure if I should call again (because you know, that call just might confirm my worst fears!).

He answered the second time I called about 45 minutes later and is currently at Best Buy returning something he bought last week. Oh thank goodness. 

Not the first time I've done this either with him. Hell, I've even done it with our cats. Once DH had accidentally locked one of them in the closet over night (but he still didn't know he had done it), which she was fine with because she never cried for us to let her out even when we were looking for her everywhere the next morning, me panicking the WHOLE TIME. When I opened that door and she ran out, I cried!! DH looked at me and said what the heck am I going to do when we have kids? (this was before the whole IF thing, which in and of itself probably adds a whole other layer to my craziness)

I just needed to vent my crazy anxieties... thanks for listening!


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Re: AW: I am my mother! N3TR

  • I've always been that way. It was SO much worse before cell phones. I've been known to call the police and ask about recent accidents...shameful.


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  • glad to know I'm not alone!
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  • Hehe I can totally relate! And it does scare me a little how bad I imagine it will be if we ever have kids!

    Me: 32  DH: 33  Married: March 2004

    July 2006: started TTC
    2008: HSG (normal), couple rounds of clomid through gyno
    2008 - 2010: dragging my feet out of fear and procrastination
    October 2010: first consultation with RE, dx PCOS and fibroids (DH slightly low count/motility)
    Oct. 2010 - Dec. 2012:  In DENIAL! avoided the issue because I was scared of surgery
    January 2013: returned to RE, fibroids grew significantly
    February 2013: second HSG, fibroids pushed on tubes which blocked them somewhat
    March 2013: MRI to determine what type of surgery may be necessary

    July 29, 2013: fibroids (5) removed via robotic laparascopy
    August 2013 - Nov 2013 : benched due to recent surgery

    IUI #1, Dec. 24, 2013, BFN 
    IUI #2, Jan. 25, 2014, BFN
    IUI #3, Feb. 25, 2014  BFN
    IUI #4 canceled due to lack of response to letrozole
    IUI #4.1 April 28, 2014, BFN

    May 16, 2014: wtf consult, start prepping for IVF in June and add injects for one last IUI in the meantime
    IUI #5 started letrozole and bravelle but canceled after HSG led to new diagnosis

    May 21, 2014: third HSG, tubes blocked, one at the beginning, one hydrosalpinx??
    June 11, 2014: consult, approved to move on to IVF because the hydro is not completely blocked therefore allowing fluid to move through slowly rather than backwards
    IVF #1 August 8, 2014 - 3dt of 2 embryos, BFN
    September 17, 2014 - 4th HSG, the right tube is very patent (open!!) dye went straight through this time. Weird!
    October 2, 2014 - started metformin treatment
    November 14, 2014 - blood work, brought A1C down from 5.8 to 5.5

    November 26, 2014 - RE finally back from vaca and reviewed my chart, no more IVFs for rest of calendar year
    December 1, 2014 - Right after Thanksgiving, I called a new clinic and got in right away! Plan for IVF
    December 17, 2014 - ER! 29 retrieved (!!), 16 mature, all 16 fertilized (ICSI)

    IVF #2 December 20, 2014 - 3dt of 3 embryos, BFN

    We are done with treatment unsuccessfully. :(


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  • I can definitely relate. DH is really bad about answering/ forgetting his phone and I have little freak out sometimes if he's traveling and I can't get a hold of him for an extended amount of time. I've also realized, that I am more like my mother than I thought I'd ever be :/.
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    ALL WELCOME!

    TTC since 04/12
    Me- 26 PCOS
    DH- 28 MFI
    10/13 IUI #1 (1 follie)- BFP!
    11/13 M/C @9 wk due to tetraploidy, one little boy in heaven
    01/14 IUI#2 (1 follie) BFN
    02/14 IUI #3 (3 follies) BFN
    03/14 IUI #4 (2 follies) BFN
    05/14 IVF/ICSI #1 CXL
    07/14 IVF/ICSI #1.2 6R, 6M, 5F, 2T, 2 frosties!
    Transferred 2-5dt  CP
    09/14 FET #1 BFP! Beta #1 52 Beta #2 152!
    10/20/14- It's TWINS!

    1/15- TEAM PURPLE!
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