Happy Tuesday one and all!
Please share with us any 10 things that are on your mind today.
Ready, set....LET'S GO!
Me - 30, My wife - 31 , Together for 10 yrs - Married August 2012
5 medicated IUIs w/ RE (March - July 2013) = BFN
Fresh IVF Cycle in September 2013 resulted in 18 mature eggs, 16 fertilized, 12 made it to day 5. Transfer of 2 Grade A blastocysts on 9/15/13, and 10 embryos in the freezer! *****BFP on 9/25/13 - betas: @10dp5dt = 232; @12dp5dt = 465; @15dp5dt = 1,581 *********William George born June 4, 2014*********
Re: Ten Things Tuesday!
2. I have a strong urge to watch Little Women (the Elizabeth Taylor/Janet Leigh version) all of the sudden.
3. It's been raining all day, so it looks like I won't be heading to the pool!
4. I went over to work on my classroom today (I teach k-2 special education) but they were waxing the floors so I couldn't get in...bummer!
5. Eye appointment at 1 and then who knows since the weather is crappy.
6. I am excited for fall to come! I love the weather, the smells, the cooking, the IUI we have scheduled
7. I just scheduled a weekend vacation with my sister in law in October. We're going to take our niece and nephews to a water resort. Should be...interesting!
8. It's POURING rain now...GREAT.
9. TTT was a little more difficult than I thought, haha. Maybe ill have my wife do it with me next time.
10. @CrazyAunt84 I feel the same way about Robin Williams. Maybe it's because he was such a funny guy? It's hard to believe someone who can make you laugh that much could be that sad on the inside. I guess you just never know what is going on inside.
Have a great day, everyone!
Work has been busy, but I still find myself bored. Even when I am busy, I no longer feel challenged. I think I am just feeling restless. I am seriously contemplating looking for something new in January (not before b/c I want to keep the end of year vaca time I have planned out and I want to get my end of year bonus)… any change in employment would make TTC#2 more complicated. My current office is located literally next door to my RE’s office. I used to run next door for a blood draw or an u/s and be back at my desk in 5 mins. My current is also mega flexible, and I can come and go as I need to and no one would ever question it. I am not sure a new gig would be as flexible. I have also been here for 5 yrs, and therefore just have more flexibility built in for that reason. I don’t know. Is it worth staying at a job I am kind of “over” out of convenience for several years?!?!... Because once I get pregnant I am not going to want to leave then. And then I will be on mat leave, and then I will be back and in the same position I am in now. It feels like it will never be the “right time” to look for something new, but I am feeling just “eh” about my job and that makes me miss my little family at home even more. Hmmm….
My new addiction (which is really an old addiction that I have found again) is my vanilla caramel chai tea at work! I take one vanilla chai tea bag and one vanilla caramel tea bag and brew them together in a super large mug. Then I add in skim milk and 2 Equal. It is delicious and it is my new “snack” at work to make me feel a bit more full and make me feel like I am having a sweet treat!
Soooo…. Weight loss… I did finally step on a scale last week to check my progress. The weight is coming off, but it is coming off slowly. I was down 5 lbs since my post-partum OB visit (3 weeks prior), which means that I am down a total of 29 lbs since the day I delivered. My wife thinks that is great, but I am a little disappointed that it is not coming off more quickly. I could be stricter with my dieting I suppose, but really then things would feel pretty extreme, and I would really like to avoid that right now. Tomorrow I will be 10 weeks post-partum. In one breath I think to myself “That’s a great start for 10 wks pp, cut yourself some slack!”… but in the next breath I think “Seriously, you should be losing way faster, and you will never be at your goal weight by Christmas at this rate!” … I saw a picture of myself next to my skinny mini sister from this past weekend, and it just made me sad. I don’t know why this has to feel so hard to me, I should just relax a little… yeah right!
Speaking of my skinny mini sister… I am still so happy about how well our visit went this weekend. She and her boyfriend came to visit and meet Will for the first time. She and I have had difficulty in the past (ex: I asked her to be a bridesmaid in my wedding and she said no), but things have been better lately. Coming to visit was totally her idea, and she seemed very taken with Will (she is the sister who says she never wants kids and that she “doesn’t like babies”). At any rate, everyone had a good time, and it felt really nice to share a piece of my life with her (she had never been to my house before either).
So, I haven’t talked about my brother on here in a pretty long while. For those who have been around a while, you already know the story there… but for those who don’t know, my brother has severe special needs and is medically fragile. He will be 16 yrs old in October. A year and a half ago he went to live at a hospital grade long term care facility because my mother could no longer care for him at home. At that time, the doctors gave him a prognosis of about a year maybe less. Well, it has been about 18 months and he is still with us. His condition seems to be like a roller coaster, and some weeks and months are very “touch and go” and sometimes he is stable for a decent stretch of time. Honestly, no one ever expected him to live this long. I absolutely do not say that in a callous way – those who know me, know that is not at all how I mean that, but I am just trying to put the situation into perspective…. Anyway, the whole time I was TTC he was in very bad shape, and a few time my mother even started making arrangements for him. My time TTC was very much tied to my brother’s illness, and I often felt much of the time like “this could be the month I get pregnant… and this could be the month I lose my brother”… I have always felt like our baby was connected to my brother for that reason. The fact that the baby we thought was going to be a girl turned out to be a boy only compounded that (my brother is the only boy in my family). Well, the reason I am mentioning all of this is that the first opportunity I am going to have to take Will to Boston is going to be Thanksgiving. We have plans to go visit my brother and for Will to meet his Uncle. I feel very emotional about it. I truly never imagined that they would ever be able to meet. Anyway… I have been thinking about it a lot lately, and just wanted to mention it. I often tell my mom to tell my brother when she sees him that he isn’t allowed to pull and funny business before Thanksgiving because he has to meet his nephew.
OK, my first 5 things have been really long – sorry about that! Let’s see if I can breeze through the rest…
Sorry @CrazyAunt84, but we are in disagreement about Fall! I can’t wait for Fall! I am literally counting down the days. I can’t wait to take Will apple picking, and carve pumpkins, and take him on his first hayride, and dress him in cozy little sweaters. Fall is my favorite, so I am pumped about this! I know he will be too young to appreciate most of what I am looking forward to, but I will know! HAHA… and we will take lots of pictures!
We are supposed to have downpours and strong thunderstorms this afternoon. I am not looking forward to driving home in that.
I am having a difficult time keeping up with things on the board as much as I would like to. There is just a lot of activity lately (which is fantastic!), but I feel like I miss a lot, and there is often so much that I want to comment on or respond to and I just don’t have time. I usually make mental notes of all the things I want to respond to later at night when I have time, and then I get in bed with my iPad and my head hits the pillow and I am just exhausted and can’t bring myself to stay awake.
To all of our pregnant friends here who will be delivering in the next couple of days, weeks and months… I am SOOOO excited to “meet” all of your little ones and see pictures. @2mamazinseattle, I am looking at you!!! Can’t wait to see little Miss Simone on the outside so very soon! And then so many more babies to follow. Yay! J
Me - 30, My wife - 31 , Together for 10 yrs - Married August 2012
5 medicated IUIs w/ RE (March - July 2013) = BFN
Fresh IVF Cycle in September 2013 resulted in 18 mature eggs, 16 fertilized, 12 made it to day 5. Transfer of 2 Grade A blastocysts on 9/15/13, and 10 embryos in the freezer! *****BFP on 9/25/13 - betas: @10dp5dt = 232; @12dp5dt = 465; @15dp5dt = 1,581 *********William George born June 4, 2014*********1. We had our MW appointment this morning and the little bug hopped right up to the fetal heart rate monitor. The MW said everything looked perfect.
2. We also had the conversation with her that I don't identify as female. It went really well. She actually brought it up, which made it even easier. She was very comforting and understanding. It was a huge weight lifted off of my heart.
3. Flip side of the same coin: as @firstcomeslove2013 mentioned yesterday, my Mom said some not so supportive things to me yesterday about my facial hair... how she doesn't approve and it makes her sad, but I am not going to listen to her feelings anyway. It has really upset me. I have babied my Mom for years about my trans-identity (just because I knew she wouldn't get it...) but I am about to have a child, and finally decided I was going to be proud of who I was, because I want my little baby to always feel proud of who they are... Of course all of that is good in theory, but I am still really upset that my Mom can still be so hurtful to me.
4. Today, I stayed home in the morning, because we had our MW appointment, and then some other errands to run. A made my niece and I some mac and cheese. She is so silly! By the end of lunch, she was covered in noodles and giggling. It made me think, if I love this little girl this much... I can't even imagine who much I will love our full-time kid! My heart is just going to keep on growing.
5. We went to A's parent's house this weekend and had an amazing time. I did some super nerdy stream studying with my FIL and then we all went to a winery and ate fancy cheeses. They all sipped sangria and I had fancy pomegranate sparkling water. I felt so spoiled!
6. Friday was our last day of camp for the summer... and I am having trouble concentrating this week, because I have to much less to do. Even though I still have a bunch to get done, I am being a total slacker!
7. We are going to Asheville, NC this weekend to see my bestest of all best friends. We haven't seen each other in WAY to long. We are going to get in trouble, I am just sure of it!
8. I draw so much strength from everyone's journey on this board... It is so great to have a place to really feel safe. I have literally never posted on another board because I am too afraid of people being close-minded.
9. @2mamazinseattle .... SIMONE IS COMING SOON! Like soon-soon. Crazy craziness... I think about you all often!
10. Yesterday, when my Mom was being a butthole, A made up a song... and the only words to the song were "I Love Your Beard"... That wife of mine sure does have a way to make my heart feel better...
Baby Hayden Frances born 12/20/14 at 11:11 a.m... Our perfect little miracle. Here's how we got here:
My lovely wife:
5 IUI's January 2013-June 2013- 3 Cycles with Clomid- BFN
Myself: Genderqueer guy who hopped in the driver's seat of the baby making train
IUI #6- 7/23- Monitored and Trigger on Day 12, with one 16mm follicle and one 18mm follicle- BFN
IUI #7- 8/21- Not monitored, 50mg Clomid- BFN
September and October: Missed Cycles due to vacation and a Half Marathon
IUI #8- Monitored and triggered on day 15, with one 23x18mm follicle- BFN on 11/19/2013
December: Moved onto to see an RE to make a good plan.
IUI #9- 1/1/2014 Natural Cycle, BFP on 1/15/2014, 6W Ultra-Sound Reveals nothing in Gestation Sack... Natural M/C at 7W, 2/3/2014
IUI #10 3/21/2014- Natural Cycle- BFP on 4/1/2014 (please don't be an April Fools. Beta #1 13dpiui- 48, Beta #2 16dpiui- 416, Beta #3 1018...
1st Ultrasound- 4/22/2014- 6w4d HB- 134!
Check out my Blog at: http://pregnantboithinksoutloud.blogspot.com/
2. Then I read "OPKs" on a different board and was like "crap! I was supposed to go look at that twenty minutes ago!!"
3. I ejected it and the popped it back in and got a big ole smiley face... We're not even doing an insemination this month and it made my stomach drop seeing that....
4. I think part of me is bummed about it because now I know that I'll be ovulating within the next day or so and we're not doing anything about it this month....
5. Today is CD 12 so it is a little comforting knowing that I do ovulate kinda close to (or on) CD14 (at least this month!) I just have to see what FF says based on my temps....
6. I know I've probably said it before, but I'm ready for October so we can try again.... It's getting hard again seeing everyone around me having babies and getting pregnant...
7. My ten things so far have been lame! Sorry!
8. It's a dreary rainy day today and that is NOT helping my motivation to get up and get ready to go workout. I'd rather lay down in the couch and watch tv under a blanket (and inevitably fall asleep!)
9. My niece started kindergarten yesterday!! I can't believe she's in school! She loves it! And he only complaint was she's a "car rider" and not a "bus rider"
10. I guess I should go put on my workout clothes and go work off that piece of pizza I just ate
doodah1013 I'm always so inspired by your journey, I really love to read your updates. And I'm so sorry that your Mom isn't as supportive as she could be. Good thing A is so awesome. And I'm also really glad that your MW initiated that conversation (and that she was so cool about it). That should not be something weighing on you, you don't need that added stress. You're busy growing a human!
Married to my amazing wife 6/12/10
TTC since 6/11
Unmedicated IUI #1 - 6/28/11 - BFN
Unmedicated IUI #2 - 7/25/11 - BFN
Robotic Myomectomy (Fibroid Surgery) - 11/15/11
Unmedicated IUI #3 - 4/24/12 - BFN
Progesterone Supported Leuteal Phase IUI #4 - 6/21/12 - BFP!!
Baby Boy G Born 3/24/13
On to #2, are we crazy?
IUI #1 - 11/28/14 - BFP! Beta #1 (11DPO) 34, Beta #2 (13DPO) 101, Beta #3 (20DPO) 3043
Ultrasound at 6w4d shows a single, fluttering heartbeat. Say hello to Sticky Ricki!
1. There is a Postpartum Support Group that meets about a mile from my house. I finally went today and it was great! We met another Ben who is 8w.
2. Things were going so well that we stopped on the way home to go to the dry cleaner and the drugstore. I've had a hard time getting out of the house on my own with the baby so this felt like a huge win.
3. One of the moms at the group had her baby 11 days ago. I felt like such an old pro compared to her! And I do NOT feel like an old pro with Ben so that is saying something.
4. Whoever said formula poop smells worse than breastmilk poop was NOT KIDDING. Ben gets 1-2 formula bottles a day and it is obvious which poops came from them...before the diaper even comes off.
5. We are still getting baby presents in the mail. It is kind of crazy!
6. I really want chips and guacamole, which we actually have in the house, but Ben is sleeping on me and I don't want to wake him. Urg.
7. I know @2MamazinSeattle hasn't hit her due date yet, but I am super impatient for Simone to arrive.
8. The cat just ate something on the kitchen counter and I don't know what it was. And I'm not going to find out because see #6.
9. My father gave us a month of daycare for a baby present. Hallelujah.
10. I'm out of things!
9 IUIs = 9 BFNs
IVF October 2012: 22 eggs retrieved, 17 fertilized, 5 frozen
ET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Blighted ovum discovered at 7w5d; D&E
FET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Missed m/c discovered at 9w5d; D&E
Karyotyping: normal ~ RPL Testing: normal ~ Hysteroscopy: normal
FET #2: 1 blast transferred 10/25; BFP 10/31!
EDD 7/13/14 ~ Induced at 37w4d due to pre-eclampsia ~ Born on 6/28/14
*Everyone welcome*
2. I have been very reflective lately and have to say how grateful I am for how this pregnancy is wrapping up. Physically I feel great. I'm still walking and getting to yoga. I'm sleeping, eating and eliminating well. Though on paper I'm high risk, I don't feel high risk!
3. I will do my pregnancy check in later as I was waiting for our doc appt to update...but...Simone is kicking ass in there! Great u/s and NST yesterday.
4. My cervix check was good...I'm 1cm dilated at the internal os against the baby's head, which is what counts. The external os is 3cm. Overall soft, effacing but not like Simone is about to tumble out. He said I'm spot on for 39w.
5. Got that membrane sweep. Ouch. J said my eyelids were shaking. Doc said he'd go til I said stop. I did great and tolerated a lot. He said he was able to do a really good sweep! Will it help? Who knows. Statistically it will put 25% in labor within 48 hours, and doubles your chance of spontaneous labor within a week. No fun but worth a shot.
6. It's hard to think of anything else other than meeting Simone!
7. Our eviction date is my due date, 8/20. We are scheduled for induction due to my GD. I never wanted that, but as I get closer my overall ambivalence toward a lot of earlier ideals has grown.
8. J's mom comes Saturday. These are our last 3 days of "just us." It makes me a wee sad, but we're both also excited to change into a little family.
9. Thanks for all the shout-outs, excitement for Simone, and support. I love this board so much!! It's been a long road to this baby and I'm grateful to have had so many of you on my side.
10. One week (max) to our baby!!! Thanks for indulging my 100% baby TTT.
Me (43) and J (45) - same sex couple. And we don't feel 40+!
June'12 - First RE Visit
Sept. '12 - Tubes removed
Dec. '12 - Donor Egg/Donor Sperm IVF Cycle - 4 good embies!
Dec. '12 - Fresh transfer, BFP! EDD 8/29/13
Mar. '13 - Missed m/c at 16w1d, baby boy stopped growing at 15w4d
Loss due to umbilical cord clot...baby was perfect.
Jul '13 - FET#1 - c/p
Sept. '13 - FET#2 - BFN
Dec.' 2, 2013 - FET#3 with our last chance embie - BFP!!!
Dec' 26, 2013 - hb!!
EDD 8/20/14 with a baby girl!
Little S was born on 8/21/14 - 8lb, 14 oz and 20 inches long.
We live in Seattle and used SRM for our donor egg IVF cycle
Me - 30, My wife - 31 , Together for 10 yrs - Married August 2012
5 medicated IUIs w/ RE (March - July 2013) = BFN
Fresh IVF Cycle in September 2013 resulted in 18 mature eggs, 16 fertilized, 12 made it to day 5. Transfer of 2 Grade A blastocysts on 9/15/13, and 10 embryos in the freezer! *****BFP on 9/25/13 - betas: @10dp5dt = 232; @12dp5dt = 465; @15dp5dt = 1,581 *********William George born June 4, 2014*********9 IUIs = 9 BFNs
IVF October 2012: 22 eggs retrieved, 17 fertilized, 5 frozen
ET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Blighted ovum discovered at 7w5d; D&E
FET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Missed m/c discovered at 9w5d; D&E
Karyotyping: normal ~ RPL Testing: normal ~ Hysteroscopy: normal
FET #2: 1 blast transferred 10/25; BFP 10/31!
EDD 7/13/14 ~ Induced at 37w4d due to pre-eclampsia ~ Born on 6/28/14
*Everyone welcome*