Bi-Weekly Wine and Cheese Party

buggirl72 · August 2014

Good evening ladies!

It's that time again. This is our bi-weekly check in. Feel free to let us know how life is; you can b!tch, you can moan, you can brag, you can cry, whatever you want. Enjoy!

This weeks wine and cheese is sponsored by Liz Lemon

buggirl72 · August 2014

Hi all!

My update - I posted separately on the board about my test results. I have an appointment with my OB tomorrow where he will go over the results. He was planning on doing an u/s also to rule out polyps, fibroids, or anything else causing the bleeding. Since I have been having symptoms that feel like a cyst on my right ovary, I'm keeping my fingers crossed that he does not decide to skip the u/s based on the test results.

On the non-TTCAL front - I've applied for a few more jobs and have not heard back from any of them. It's disheartening. I was contacted by a former supervisor who wanted to let me know that the firm she works for is hiring and she really, really wanted me to put in for the position. Unfortunately, that is 1800 miles from where we now live. Just confirmed what I already suspected: if we had not moved, I would have a job. Instead, I have a lot of debt and no job. I feel like I screwed over my family by going to law school.

MyFirstRaspberry · August 2014

@buggirl7 - Oh Bug, I am sending you ((hugs)). I am so sorry you are feeling discouraged about the job situation. I am holding on to some hope that a bigger, better job opportunity is right around the corner. I can imagine that it is tough to stay positive. I am thinking of you and your family. I am also sending you positive vibes for your appt tomorrow.

@HoldingOutHope - It was wonderful to see you today. It is a big comfort to me knowing that you will be at the RE's office at the same time as me. Even if you aren't in the room with me, I know you have my back - and you know I have yours. I hope you feel better really soon. If it makes you feel any better, you looked great today in that adorable sun dress.

AFM: I had some good news last week. My last HCG test post molar was negative. Next Friday I have my final RE test: An HSG. And as HOH, mentioned we have a date at the RE's office next Monday for the official follow-up appt where we will learn what the next steps are for TTC. I am so glad we are finally moving forward.

After I got home from the GTG today, I had a heart to heart phone chat with my grandmother. It turns out she and my sister have not understood why I haven't been supportive of my sisters pregnancy. I explained that I am not ok and I still have a very difficult time with all pregnancies. Apparently, I put on a good front because they had no idea that I am still struggling. It was all a huge misunderstanding and a failure on my part of not opening up to them. Unfortunately, I ended up crying my eyes out the entire evening in the arms of my husband who just got back from a business trip. Not the best welcome home.

Rachaeleigh · August 2014

Good morning, ladies

@buggirl7‌ thanks for the check in. (((Hugs))) about the job situation. That has to be so frustrating. I look forward to your next update

@HoldingOutHope‌ I have a prescription of flagyl waiting for bv. I can't take it until this cycle is over, in case I get pregnant. Here's hoping for continued bv for me!

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@MyFirstRaspberry‌ I'm glad you were able to talk to your grandmother ((hugs))

Right now, DH and I are at the RE waiting for IUI #3!

Smootiepie · August 2014

@buggirl7 - ((hugs)) all around. GL at the appt, hoping you get the u/s. Give us an update when you can.

@HoldingOutHope - ugh, I HATE BV. ((hugs)) GL w/ the RE, let us know how it goes. Praying for answers for you, but don't let yourself get too down if there aren't any, love.

@MyFirstRaspberry - Great news! GL at the HSG - remember to take your ibuprofen and keep in mind that, even though it sucks, it's super quick

@Rachaeleigh - GL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AFM: nothing new on the TTCAL front. Hoping DH will get his butt in gear soon w/ the last SA so we can start weighing our decisions.

Non-TTCAL: broke my finger, which sucked

Oh, and pretty sure my arch-enemy (I know it sounds over-dramatic, but this woman is seriously the devil) is KU.

KMW08 · August 2014

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((((((HUGS)))))) all around to you ladies. Just know that I lurk a lot and anytime I "love" your post, even if it seems weird to love it, it's because I've read it and am sending you love :-)

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buggirl72 · August 2014

@HoldingOutHope - I hope you are feeling better soon (if not already). I'm so jealous of your GTG and glad that you and Ras have an RE date

@MyFirstRaspberry - ((((Hugs)))) Yay for a negative! I'm glad you had a talk with your grandmother and let her know just where you were at. Hopefully your family will be easier on you now.

@Rachaeleigh - Good luck! I'm assuming your DH was "occupied" when you posted your update

@Smootiepie - oh no! I'm sorry about your finger ((((hugs)))).

@KMW08 - high lady!!!!! You can love-tit me anytime!

@wickedsugar- Is this your memorial tattoo? Please share pics!

My updated update -

I saw the doctor yesterday to go over my endometrial biopsy. They did bring me right in to do my u/s so that ended up being a non-issue.

I'm going to preface this by saying I've had a lot of u/s and have a good idea what my normal ute and my normal ovary looks like - so, I had a good idea that I was not going to like the outcome of what the tech told the doc.

In the past year, since my last u/s, I have developed fibroids. Lots of them. The tech measured three of them but I could see little spots all over my ute. My lining was a whopping 1.14. And then she checked out my ovary. Besides noticing a distinct lack of follicles (I remember someone describing their ovary as a chocolate chip cookie - mines now a sugar cookie) but she was measuring away at something else on the ovary. I do have a cyst.

This is what the doctor said: I have a lot of fibroids. At this time he does not want to do a D&C or other procedure to remove them. Follow-up u/s in 8 weeks to check on them and the cyst and I'm to track my bleeding until then - but he is hopeful that the provera will someone how reset things so the bleeding stops. Since he through out the words "menopause" I'm thinking he thinks it will stop it all together if we get a proper re-set.

About the cyst - he started that it was possible that my ovary tried to do one last hurrah and kick out a follicle and that this was a left over cyst, but based on my history of fertility treatments and the bleeding and that my blood work at a minimum indicates that I'm in pre-menopause at least, he is not going to forget about the cyst. He drew blood yesterday to check for cancer markers. I figure those should come back in a week.

Rachaeleigh · August 2014

@buggirl7‌ I hope that provera gives you the reset that the dr is looking for

@Smootiepie‌ ouch! Sorry to hear about your finger

@wickedsugar‌ GL with the walk and tattoo!

@KMW08‌ hi

Smootiepie · August 2014

@wickedsugar Pics, pics pics!!!!! Once it's done, obviously

@buggirl7 Glad you got the u/s - sounds like it was certainly necessary. Hoping the provera does some magic.

BookishMomma · August 2014

@buggirl72 Geez, girl. What a rollercoaster you've been on with all this testing. I'm sorry about the fibroids and the doc throwing out the M word. I hope that these findings and the prescribed treatment can get your body in line so you're feeling more normal soon... if you can even remember what 'normal' feels like. Sheesh. Big ((hugs)) to you.

@holdingouthope Flagyl is a bitch. I was so glad my doc did not prescribe it after this surgery. I remember it making me feel nauseated and just generally run-down. Regarding the BV, I always think about the Sex & the City episode where Charlotte was diagnosed with it and the doctor told her, "Your vagina is depressed."

@myfirstraspberry Hooray for a negative HCG test! I really hope you can put all of this behind you soon.

@Rachaelleigh crossing everything for you with this IUI cycle!

@smootiepie broken finger- ouchie! Hope it heals quickly for you.

@wickedsugar Can't wait to see your tattoo if you're willing to show us pics!

As for me, I had my surgery on Monday to remove the retained tissue that was leftover from my May 1 D&C. It was an operative hysteroscopy. The surgery ended up being less complicated than the doctor anticipated, which is always a good thing. He said the tissue was "softer" than he thought it would be, given the amount of time it was in there. He sent me home with before and after pictures of my ute, and you really can see how large the tissue was that was in there. It was almost taking up the whole cavity. I'm so glad the RE caught this and took care of it before it caused further problems.

So now I'm hanging out with a balloon catheter in my ute for 5 days. I get it removed tomorrow. Woo-hoo! It's not painful, but just generally uncomfortable and a little crampy. The cramping was so bad when I woke up from surgery that the doc gave me some vicodin before I went home. That was the only heavy-duty painkiller I needed, though. By the time I woke up from my very long, very drugged sleep, I was feeling a lot better and have been able to just take Tylenol (and Ambien at night to get me past the discomfort).

I'll be on Premarin (estrogen) for 25 days, with Progesterone from CD16-25 (the RE is counting my surgery as CD1). I will then have an induced period, hopefully, and then have to wait out one natural cycle before we can move on to IUI in October. It seems like a long way off, but I know it will be here before we know it.

If anyone has any tips/warnings about the estrogen supplementation, I'd love to hear it. I already have been told to expect loads of EWCM. I also am feeling a little emotional/weepy and anxious, but I'm not sure if it's the estrogen doing that or just general moodiness.

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luciddreamer106 · August 2014

Hugs for everyone!

@bookishmomma I took estrogen during my cycles to build up my lining. The only side effect that I really noticed was headaches. I hope that you don't get them. Abundance of EWCM is much, much better than having a headache.

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