Pregnant after a Loss

Early ultrasounds

I'm only 6w3d, but I've had 3 u/s already (due to previous ectopic) and they're really stressing me out! Sometimes I wish that I could just be blissfully ignorant. Yesterday at 6w2d, we saw a yolk sac, 2mm fetal pole, but no heartbeat. I've read conflicting info about how big the fetal pole should be (some stuff says length in mm+6w, which would put me spot on, but other things say it should be more like 5mm by now). The lack of heartbeat is also super scary. My RE isn't concerned, but I don't think that he believes me on my dates and just thinks I'm not as far along as I really am. I go back next week for another scan. I measured several days behind with my mmc and I'm terrified that that's going to happen again. I hold my breath every time I go to the bathroom for fear of seeing blood and I'm constantly squeezing my boobs to make sure they still hurt. I'm neurotic. Anyway, there's no real point to this post other than for me to vent. I'm trying to focus on the positives...there was growth since last week and it's not ectopic, but after 4 previous losses I kind of just expect another one :(

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Re: Early ultrasounds

  • Try to stay positive. I know it's hard, and I'm sure many here can relate. FX for you for good news going forward! 
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  • I'm so sorry for your losses.  Being PGAL can really suck, especially during those early ultrasounds when there is so much unknown.  (((HUGS))) 
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  • oh sister, i could've written this post. first off, big (((HUGS)))).  having the experiences you have had, there's no way you can avoid the fear and anxiety at each u/s. or each bathroom break. i do the same thing. it's the dreaded PgAL brain. i wish we could all be blissfully ignorant, but we just can't. know you are not alone in this, there are plenty of boob-squishing breath-holders out here with you!

    and FWIW about the u/s measurements, your u/s is only as good as your tech. at this stage, baby is so tiny that the littlest error in measuring can throw off your "dates" big time. just breathe. and vent away.
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    BFP #3 5/30/13.  EDD 2/8/14...  6wk u/s HB 126. 8wk u/s lost HB. D&C 7/12/13.
    BFP #4 2/18/14.  EDD 10/30/14... Ruptured ectopic with L tube removed & D&C 3/7/14.
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  • I hope LO is just freaking you out for nothing. The early weeks really blow and a such a huge mind f*ck even when things are going fine. Big (((hugs))) to you.






     


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  • I'm so sorry you are feeling this way :( I know firsthand how scary it is to be pregnant after ectopic. The great news is it's not another ectopic! And the
    Fact that you have a fetal pole is great too.. You are definitely still in the normal range as a lot of people don't see the heartbeat until around 7wks. I am sending all my thoughts and prayers that your next scan is great and that this is your take home baby! ((((So many hugs)))))

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    BFP #1 Blighted Ovum resulting in D&C on 11/1/13
    BFP #2 Ectopic Pg, lap surgery on 3/12/14, R tube removed

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  • ((hugs)) Today you are pregnant and you love your baby.  You are still early - if your RE doesn't seem concerned, then try not to be concerned (I know, I know - easier said than done).  
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  • ::hugs:: and FX for you.  Try to stay positive as others have said. Listen to some happy music or watch a happy movie to distract your brain. Helps me sometimes at least for a little while.
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  • Yes, ditto everyone. Today you are pregnant :-) It is still early, and if your RE is not concerned then enjoy today. I know the waiting sucks, but repeat. Today you are pregnant :-)

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    edited August 2014
    The HB can start anytime from 6-7 weeks. It may have even started shortly after your u/s. The fact that you saw a fetal pole is a good sign. In these early days just one day can make a huge difference in what you see on an u/s. I know it's so hard not to worry, but as the other ladies have said today you are pregnant. There are lots of great mantras pinned at the top of the board. One of my personal ones is, "Let hope anchor you in the possibility that this not the end of your story."

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  • Sorry about your losses:( welcome and congrats on your pg! Try the mantras top of pg they will help!
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  • ((((Hugs)))) I'm sorry you're having such a terrible time. Try to stay positive, it could be too early for the heartbeat. My RE usually doesn't check for a hb until 7wks. I'm just glad your dr is being proactive due to your tube.

    For the record, I'm a nervous wreck before all appointments & esp before US's! I would like to tell you it gets easier, but I don't think it does. Hang in there sweets. I'm thinking about you.

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  • PGAL brain is the absolute worst. Hang in there and remember today you are pregnant! ((Hugs))
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  • edited August 2014
    Everyone has given great advice so I just want to offer a big squishy ((hug)) & say try to remain positive. Like they all said - early US are tough. FX you have a better scan next week. Keep us updated!

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  • bigs ((((hugs)))) for you. You are not alone.

    Snegde call us the night pee-ers, but I think it may be more accurate to call us the underwear checkers.


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