I've hit the end of my road :(

eg214 · August 2014

I am fighting back an all out meltdown.

I cant make my rent this month and I've already not paid my car payment.

I have off for the next two weeks from nannying and the mom said she would pay me for the weeks the kids were gone. Great. I was fully expecting her to give me a check today for this week I worked and the next two. If she had, I'd be able to make my rent no problem. Of course not. She gave me this and next in one check I could deposit and then a post dated check for the last week that I can't cash because it might "bounce." Normally if I mention my plight to my mom, she will offer to help me out...though she has never needed to in the end of it all. I've tried selling e's clothes a million times with no luck. I'm scouring the house trying to find things to sell. I don't buy things for myself. We don't drive much. We don't live beyond our means. I pray so hard I dont end up evicted. We have no where to go. I mean Florida, but my case is still pending here and that would all go to shit...plus moving obviously costs money.

I'm so hurt right now because this wouldn't be happening if ass clown were doing what he's supposed to be doing and paying me CS or arrears. I look around me and see how my life has been taken over by my sweet girl (don't regret that at all) but he gets to live his life like normal and I get to wonder how we're going to make it.

I'd talk to my apt complex but I'm on a special housing program that you have to make a minimum to be on...well I no longer make that minimum and haven't since I left my job last year. If they find out, I risk being forced out anyway. I spent SO MUCH TIME trying to find a place for us...its just not possible to find something else. I'm racking my brain trying to come up with a story to tell them, but I can't find one. I'm just hoping they let me pay a portion...even then I will have a $120 late fee to attempt to come up with. As it stands, I'd be about $20 short but that's completely draining my account with no money for gas and not paying any of my other bills.

My dad flips shits when he loans me money so I don't know if he will help or not, but it's my only way. I have $600 in social benefits at some point coming but who knows when? Next week? The week after? Just sucks really really bad when you have money coming but not fast enough.

Please say a prayer, send juju, whatever for me. This kind of stuff gets me really really down.

Thanks.

freeatlast2014 · August 2014

@eg214‌ that all sucks major big time.
If you can ask your mom, why not? Just to bridge the gap.

I know what you mean with the guy being able to just live their normal life. But they are missing out on a real special person and one day they will come to realize they missed out.

eg214 · August 2014

I already did and mom can't. She doesn't have the money. Its always been the shit because my dad has money although his wife would say otherwise...and my mom doesn't. Mom always tries to help and dad flips shits and usually doesn't.

MinnesotaMomma91 · August 2014

Call your case worker find out when you get that six hundred. Talk to your boss and explain the situation. See if you can get paid early. I know its rough, i know you hate it but worst come to worst ask your dad for help.

I think if i remember correctly you belong to a church, talk to your pastor see if there is any way the church could help you out this month.

Its hard going through this stuff and ill keep you in my prayers but remember even though your ex is unaffected hes the one missing out on a wonderful beautiful child

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tig594 · August 2014

Does the red cross help with stuff like.this? Sorry you're going through it. I know it's really hard.

eg214 · August 2014

Thanks ladies. I appreciate the love and warm thoughts.

The social security thing isn't with a social worker, just a "worker" so there isn't anything I can do about getting the payment faster. I just have to wait for them to process the PPW, but she said it shouldn't take but a week or two maybe...so...soon I hope.

I'm not really "active" with any Church here so I don't know any Church people to really ask. I know where to get clothes and food and diapers but I don't know about cash assistance. I'll start looking into that though in case I need it again.

My boss won't help any more because she's already paying me for the weeks I'm not working and the last check she asked me to hold. So, it's not really her fault and obviously if she asks me to hold a check, that means she doesn't have the full money right now. So frustrating but it is what it is.

I still haven't been able to sell anything but a breastfeeding pillow for $5 yesterday but at this point...literally every dollar counts since I'm like $16 short. I wish I had big ticket items to sell but I don't. She's still using everything.

I did remember E had a few dollars in her savings, so I pulled from that but it won't get there until the 5th...so I'm just praying my complex doesn't cash their check before then because I will owe over $200 in fees between being late and returned checks on both sides. If I don't have $16, I certainly don't have $200. I hate taking from my daughter but she's so young and it's more important we keep a roof over our head and I'll pay it back eventually when I am not struggling so much.

The family I nanny for now, the job ends when school goes back in after Labor Day so I have another interview with a different family next week. I hope to God it pans out. This should be a little more money...not much but a little...and I'd have all day to myself with E which will be great. I'll be running errands and cooking and cleaning and all that but having a kid break is so exciting.

freeatlast2014 · August 2014

My mom cashed in every bond I had long before it matured cause she needed the cash. It did help with that whole roof thing. While it bugs me that I had no savings whatsoever when I got older, I understand why she did it and lord knows she has paid me back tenfold in many many other ways.

jellybean529 · August 2014

I'm sorry you're going through this. I think it's probably okay to just ask dad for help, even if he's an ass about it...let him, you've got to feed and keep a roof over E's head and that's most important. And whenever you can, I'd probably take the Florida option. IDK if your parents are able to watch E during the day, but then you could possibly work outside the home and earn more than you can nannying. I don't know the details of your situation to know if that's possible. Money is so stressful

eg214 · August 2014

Thanks jelly. My parents both work and since my mom is going for retirement and my dad's been with his company for like a billion years, I don't have the option of them watching her. I tell my mom all the time we could go in together on renting a place or buying a house or whatever and she could stay home and watch E while I work but she can't....like i tell her ALL THE TIME. I just did earlier today. My dad's wife offered to watch her during the day here and there but not permanently...just to help me while I interview and stuff. She's a real estate agent and also has been for a billion years so she won't quit either.

I got some good news yesterday so I should be okay for the rest of the year with my loans and aid and all that....hopefully.

jellybean529 · August 2014

Happy for your good news

I feel your pain though. My rent check just bounced too. So...yay.

eg214 · August 2014

Oh man

I'm sorry. I hate this.

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