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IF-Obsessed Today *** Preg/child mentioned - not mine***

***Warning - Preg/child mentioned, not mine***


Hey everyone,

Sorry I've been kind of MIA the past month, but with all the waiting for apts I tried to take a little break and focus on other things for a while. And it kind of worked, however my mind has decided that the only thing I'm allowed to think about today is IF. I'm stressing out about my RE apt (18 days away!) and freaking out about how we're going to pay for the treatments OOP, then reading up on all the posts I've missed, dreading seeing my family since one cousin just had her baby boy 2 weeks ago and my other cousin is about ready to pop, hoping my mom hasn't already told EVERYONE about my IF since I finally broke down and told her about it, and blah blah blah blah BLAH. I feel like this is all I can do today! Emotionally exhausted from all this stressing. I can't even focus long enough to get a load of laundry done... And that's sad because there's just the two of us! Just the two of us... I'm gonna go cry now. Why does my brain do this to me????

Sorry - bad day.

Me: 24  DH: 26

Sept 2012 - Married Love of My Life

AO, possible PCOS

TTC for 15 months - Success!!!

Due Date: May 6, 2015

DS induced April 27, 2015 - Hypertension


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Re: IF-Obsessed Today *** Preg/child mentioned - not mine***

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    I'm sorry. I understand how much this sucks right now though (bad week here too). It's okay to have a bad day. I think Grumpy Cat's expression kind of says it all.
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    "Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less."

    Marie Curie

    Married 2010, together since 2006. TTC for #1 since March 2012, actively charting since November 2013
    March 2014 - HSG left tube blocked, right tube partially blocked bilaterial partial obstruction; onward to the RE in April
    May 1, 2014 - Lap surgery and chromopertubation; Dr removed a bit of endo, but everything looks healthy & tubes are clear!
    May 2014- First medicated cycle, 2.5mg femara+TI; BFN
    June 2014- 2.5mg femara + hCG + IUI
    on 6/18= BFP on 6/28!; C/P on 7/3
    July 2014- 2.5mg femara + IUI #2 on 7/18. Starting progesterone 7/23, bfn
    August 2014- 2.5mg femara + hCG + IUI # 3 on 8/15. BFN
    Tx break
    IVF #1 -
    12/1 - TOT & SIS- RE found a polyp
    12/15 - Hysterscopic surgery to remove the polyp; additional polyps found and removed

    12/29- Good baseline u/s, 12 antral follies
    12/30- Started stimming
    1/10 - ER: 17 retrieved, 14 fertilized!
      My Ovulation Chart - No data,  just meds
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  • I'm sorry you're feeling this way.everyone has bad days. I get really depressed when I realize that there's no kids in my house. :( like it's so quiet in here and when H is gone it's just me and the pup. I can't wait to hear the sound my precious little one playing and running around
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  • I'm sorry you're having a rough day! Family stuff is always hard for me too. I'm also tempted to tell my mom about our IF but I have a feeling she would blab it so I'm trying not to. Hope you feel better soon!
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    Me: 26 DH: 27
    TTC #1 Since Aug. 2013
    Cycle 1: O CD 25=bfn
    Cycle 2: O CD 48=bfn
    Cycle 3: Anovulatory/Provera =120 days!
    Cycle 4: Anovulatory/Prometrium=127 days! RE consult 6/16
    Me: Anov/poss. pcos?  HSG=normal/SA= Normal 
    July/Aug. 2014= Femara+trigger+TI=BFP!!
    Beta #1@ 16dpo=626!! Beta #2=1510
    Ultrasound @ 5w6d=heartbeat at 110!
    Ultrasound @ 6w6d =heartbeat at 131!


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  • Right in the same boat on shits creak with ya sister! Let's bail and 'just keep swimming' til that RE appointment :) BIG hugs to you!
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    Me:26 DH:27
    Married Oct 2011
    NTNP for about a year before actively 
    TTC since April 2013
    Currently testing for infertility cause and hormone imbalance.
    Infertility & ovarian cyst diagnosis: May '14
    B/W: 'good', more ordered to check antibodies & progesterone
    SA: Normal :)
    U/Ss for cyst: who the f knows
    DH's cat scan: showed encapsulated fatty growth; u/s: didn't really show much more
    Breast Specialist: Most likely a large fibroid, but keeping an eye on it, repeat u/s every 6mos 
    HSG: clear tubes, uterus is A-ok
    WHAT'S NEXT: DH's consult with surgeon to discuss next step for growth, either biopsy or surgery~Big discussion with Dr. before any possibility of starting Clomid, since I'll want another u/s before and to be monitored and he doesn't seem into that. I had to force his hand just to order the AMH test so may be looking for another OB
    ~All welcome :) ~
    Cycle 3 of OPK; Cycle 2 (this time around) of Temping

  • I've been the same way lately.  I totally get it.  I read a "Dealing with Infertility" book and cried several nights in a row.  Hormones.
    *SIGGY WARNING*

    Our journey has been shorter than most, and for that we are thankful.  Hoping that everything continues as it should and that we have a healthy baby coming our way!

    Together since 3/2/2010
    Married 10/2012
    TTC 6/2012
    Stopped Ovulating 11/2013
    DX PCOS 1/2014
    Started Metformin, Provera 1/2014
    Started fertility diet and fertility massage to induce ovulation 1/2014
    Successful Ovulation 2/2014!
    Missed period, BFN 3/2014
    Provera round 2, 3/2014
    New RE 7/2014
    Remove scar tissue 7/2014
    BFP 8/2014!

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  • So sorry! I hope your mom did keep what you trusted her with a secret. :( 

    One thing you might be able to take off the "stressful" list and add to the "exciting" list (not that it would stop the obsessive IF days, lol, I am right there with you!), is the RE appointment. I really hope it will give you lots of confidence and hope. :)
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    Me (29), DH (30) TTC actively 54 55+ cycles | All BFNs
    MFI (low everything) | Endo Stage 1 & Stenotic Cervix (treated) | PCO
    Married - July 2008 | Started TTC - Jan 2009RE Visit #1 - Mar 2014 
    IUI #1 ICI #1 - June | IUI #1.1 Laparoscopy - Aug
    IUIs #1.2, 2, 3 - Sept, Oct, Nov (Letrozole) - BFNs 
    IUI #4 - Dec (Bravelle) | IUI #5 - Dec/Jan (Bravelle) - 5 follies + TI - BFNs
    IUI #5.1 - Jan (Bravelle) Cancelled 
    Planning to start IVF in March!
    ***All Welcome***
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