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Intro, got the diagnosis, now waiting for the specialist appointment

LoveKissLoveKiss member
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Hi, I'm Mrs. LK, I want to create a nifty little human being with my husband, and that's not possible without significant medical intervention. I have been lurking for about a year now, and figured it was time to introduce myself because the "fun" is just getting started for us. My wonderful husband has a dx of azoospermia. I have a son from a previous relationship. He's 16. Yes, you read that correctly. I never saw myself "starting over". And yet, here I am, 34, and wanting nothing more that to begin the journey once again. 17 year old me got knocked up without wanting to and felt it was the end of the world. 34 year old me can't get knocked up no matter what she does. Fate sure does have a sick sense of humor.

Anyway, I'm wrapping up my first cycle of temping because the specialist wants to ask me all sorts of questions and know all about me as part of evaluating our situation and helping us figure out our options.  Our first appointment with someone who specializes in MFI is in 2 weeks. Our insurance covers a whole lot of nothing, so any treatment/procedures we do will be out of pocket. We have college tuition coming up in 2 short years for our teenager, and we don't have a money tree in our backyard, so I'm nervous that we'll spend our reserves on option 1, fail, and be left empty handed. My husband keeps telling me that, one way or another, we will succeed in adding to our family. I'm glad he is so assured because I'm downright scared. What if the specialist gives us bad odds? What if the money runs out before we succeed? What if.... You name it; I fear it. I'm usually a fairly optimistic person, but I'm finding optimism to be just out of reach right now.

Hopefully 2 weeks from now I will be singing a more positive tune. Two friends told me last week that they are pregnant and another friend is due in early fall. I am truly happy for them, and I am looking forward to meeting the little ones. I'm just ready for it to be our turn.  Let's get this show on the road, and all that jazz. In the mean time, I hope to be around here some, learn from those who have BTDT, and be supportive as we all fight out own battles.

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Re: Intro, got the diagnosis, now waiting for the specialist appointment

  • PGwithNo3PGwithNo3 member
    Hi!  I hope that yu have some positive news, soon!
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  • sailorgalsailorgal member
    Sorry to hear about your journey so far. I hope you get a solid plan soon for moving forward.
    Me: 32, DH: 33
    DS #1: April 2010
    DS #2: July 2015 (preemie born at 31 weeks) - our little miracle conceived through ART - unexplained secondary infertility/adenomyosis
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  • KRSimmons3KRSimmons3 member
    GL! IF is hard to deal with but its great to have people to talk to who are going through something similar.
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  • LoveKissLoveKiss member

    Thanks for the welcome. I was having a "woe is me" moment in that post. Sorry for the emotional dump.

    We are hanging out with friends, their pregnant bellies, and their little ones this weekend. I'm really looking forward to watching DH interact with the kids. Nothing warms my heart more than to watch him with our teenager and with the kids of our friends. 10 days + 1 wake-up before our appointment with the specialist. I can do this. In the scheme of things, 10 more days is an itty bitty blip on the radar.

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