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Weekend Throat Punch

blackbird818blackbird818 member
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TTC since Sept 2012
M/C on 5/01/13 at 8 wks
AF finally appeared 11 wks later per Provera
Diagnosed with PCOS on 7/29/13
Three Failed Medicated Cycles, NTNP Indefinitely
BFP #2 9/14/14, EDD 5/23/14...MMC discovered @ 9w2d; D&C 10/23/14

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Re: Weekend Throat Punch

  • FeeganFeegan member
    TP once again to my cousin, who spent the entire limo drive from the bachelorette's house to downtown Chicago last night complaining about how hard it is to be a new mom. I was choking back tears the entire time. Thankfully the bars were nice and loud so I was spared having to listen to more of it. I am going to have a talk with her today and ask her to please do me the kindness of thinking about how her words are upsetting to me when I look at what she has as a blessing after everything I've been through. (Those are my wonderful DH's words, not mine. He coached me through what to say because what I was going to say was way more graphic and hurtful. Thank goodness one of us is not an emotional wreck)

    Sending hugs to all that need them this weekend, and thank you @blackbird818‌ for letting me vent.
    TTC #1: 3/2013
    02/2014: Clomid = BFN
    03/2014: Femara + Menopur + Ovidrel + IUI = BFP! - 3/17/14
    EDD: 11/29/14 - MMC @ 9 wks: 4/25/14 
    Misoprostol 4/28 & 4/29 - D&C after misoprostol failure 5/2/14
    07/2014: Spontaneous IUI, no meds = BFN
    08/2014: Spontaneous IUI, no meds = BFN
    08/2014 v2.0: Final spontaneous IUI, no meds = BFN
    09/2014: BCP cycle in prep for injectable cycle in Oct.
    10/2014: Gonal-F + Cetrotide + Ovidrel + IUI  = BFP!
    TWINS! 
    "Top Bunk" & "Bottom Bunk" due June/July 2015
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  • blackbird818blackbird818 member
    edited July 2014
    @RedheadRunning I'm sorry you had to listen to that. But I'm glad you've decided to speak to her about it. Hopefully she takes your words to heart. Big ((((hugs))))

    And pat on the back to YH with his on-point suggestion. Just know lady that no matter how your cousin reacts you are well within your right to express how her words affect you. GL!

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    TTC since Sept 2012
    M/C on 5/01/13 at 8 wks
    AF finally appeared 11 wks later per Provera
    Diagnosed with PCOS on 7/29/13
    Three Failed Medicated Cycles, NTNP Indefinitely
    BFP #2 9/14/14, EDD 5/23/14...MMC discovered @ 9w2d; D&C 10/23/14

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  • mpiemontmpiemont member
    @RedheadRunning‌ I'm sorry her words are so hurtful. I can just imagine. I hope she realizes how difficult that can be to hear. Hugs. Hope you had fun otherwise.

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    DS2 born 2/22/13
    MMC 5/16/14@8w2d
    DD due 5/9/15 Please be our     RAINBOW

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  • rslh10rslh10 member
    @redheadrunning I am so very sorry about her thoughtless words. I hope that when you talk with her, that she understands.

    Today, I want to TP (SO HARD) my low AMH. I am having a very bad day with everything ttc related. I am due to start my Clomid tomorrow night, and I can't help but feeling, I don't know, angry? I feel like maybe i'm being misinformed by my Dr's office. I've never really had anyone explain to me what the diagnosis of low AMH means. I know that it means low egg reserve but I feel like that's all I know. I've googled but, we all know the dark, crazy, rabbit hole that Google can be...

    Sorry for the ramblings, Ladies. Here is a token of my appreciation :)
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    Hubs & I -29 • Met 5/18/04 • Married 5/8/10
    BFP #1 DS 2/7/11 (Born @ 34 wks via ECS due to Pre-e) TTC #2 since Aug '13
    DX Low AMH (.58) March '14 • FSH-7.5 • E2-35.5 (Nov '14)
    SA- Great numbers • SIS- Clear (Nov '14)
     Cycle 1- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-BFP • EDD 1/12/15 
    Ectopic @ 5w6d • Methotrexate Shot 5/18/14
    Cycle 2,3,4- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-- BFN
    Cycle 5- Letrozole CD3-7 & Trigger BFFN
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  • KS0510KS0510 member
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    TP to our choice of restaurants today. I have never seen so many babies in one room AND at least 2 very pregnant women. I was in the middle of an arguement with mh by the time we got there....needless to say seeing all of that only made me more upset.
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  • rslh10rslh10 member
    KS0510 said:

    ***other ppls living children and pregnancies mentioned*****






    TP to our choice of restaurants today. I have never seen so many babies in one room AND at least 2 very pregnant women. I was in the middle of an arguement with mh by the time we got there....needless to say seeing all of that only made me more upset.

    So sorry you had to be around that and we're fighting which always makes it worse! I went to the zoo yesterday and I swear to god I never knew super pregnant people felt like walking around the zoo in the heat was a good idea. They were everywhere. I'm so sorry :(
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    Hubs & I -29 • Met 5/18/04 • Married 5/8/10
    BFP #1 DS 2/7/11 (Born @ 34 wks via ECS due to Pre-e) TTC #2 since Aug '13
    DX Low AMH (.58) March '14 • FSH-7.5 • E2-35.5 (Nov '14)
    SA- Great numbers • SIS- Clear (Nov '14)
     Cycle 1- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-BFP • EDD 1/12/15 
    Ectopic @ 5w6d • Methotrexate Shot 5/18/14
    Cycle 2,3,4- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-- BFN
    Cycle 5- Letrozole CD3-7 & Trigger BFFN
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  • KS0510KS0510 member
    Oh yeah, we're fine now. It was a stupid arguement (as so many of them are!). Seeing all those happy families was just not what I needed at that moment at ALL.

    Also, I wouldn't have thought pregnant women would wanna walk around a hot zoo either. Sorry to everyone who can't get away from triggers!!!! Blah.
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  • FeeganFeegan member
    Thanks for all the love ladies and sorry for the radio silence after posting. Right after I posted I discovered AF arrived a few days earlier than expected and it pushed me over the edge. I never had the conversation with my cousin because I ended up packing up my stuff and driving home. I just couldn't pull myself together and home is my safe place when I'm feeling that beat up. It was a long, tear-filled drive but I'm happily snuggled up in my bed now and feeling better reading all your kind words. Thanks for having my back!
    TTC #1: 3/2013
    02/2014: Clomid = BFN
    03/2014: Femara + Menopur + Ovidrel + IUI = BFP! - 3/17/14
    EDD: 11/29/14 - MMC @ 9 wks: 4/25/14 
    Misoprostol 4/28 & 4/29 - D&C after misoprostol failure 5/2/14
    07/2014: Spontaneous IUI, no meds = BFN
    08/2014: Spontaneous IUI, no meds = BFN
    08/2014 v2.0: Final spontaneous IUI, no meds = BFN
    09/2014: BCP cycle in prep for injectable cycle in Oct.
    10/2014: Gonal-F + Cetrotide + Ovidrel + IUI  = BFP!
    TWINS! 
    "Top Bunk" & "Bottom Bunk" due June/July 2015
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  • meredithcarolemeredithcarole member
    @RedheadRunning‌ sorry you are having a tough weekend. Maybe you should just snuggle up under a blanket, watch one of the shameless chick flicks from the other thread and have some takeout for dinner. ((Hugs)).
    TTCAL January Siggy Challenge: Animals in the Snow

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    AMA 35 :  DH 33
    BFP#1 1/26/14 (EDD: 10/7/14).  MMC 3/10/14 D&C 3/14/14
    RE Consult 11/3/14 - AMH 2.25 "great" . FSH 7.10 . Low Vitamin D
    Myomectomy 12/17/14.  Benched until March.

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  • tlc35tlc35 member
    I'm so sorry @redheadrunning about CD1 and your annoying cousin.

    @puplove80 do you know when you ovulated?  Progesterone bloodwork should be done 7 days after ovulation so if you ovulated CD 16 then tomorrow will be the right day.  I'm not sure how much it matters if you are a day or two off.
    Me: 37                                               
    DH: 45
    BFP #1 3/19/14  EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
    BFP #2  12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
    Saw heartbeat 12/29.  Please be a rainbow.
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  • tlc35tlc35 member
    @puplove80 I see, at least you know you are in the ballpark from your OPK.  Hopefully doing the labs tomorrow AM will be fine but I know it is frustrating.
    Me: 37                                               
    DH: 45
    BFP #1 3/19/14  EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
    BFP #2  12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
    Saw heartbeat 12/29.  Please be a rainbow.
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