My ex and I broke up after my son's 1st birthday. We remained apart for 9 months and then he relentlessly tried for us to get back together again. After 2 months of working on things, we have broken up again. I'm confident things will NEVER work with us (from what I can tell, he has narcissistic personality disorder and we are fighting constantly and I refuse to live in that drama all of the time .
Now we are back to a schedule where he has our son (who just turned 2) 3 days a week. 2 overnights during the week and one weekend overnight and full day. During the week, by the time I pick up my son and get home from work, it is 7 pm so we just make dinner, do a few activities and then it is time for bed. We don't have much quality time together except for the one weekend day I have him. I feel so distressed and like I don't see him enough. His father is a great dad (much better dad than boyfriend) and I want him to have time with him, but I feel like I'm barely seeing him between work and him being away from me 3 days a week. I try to keep busy during my time to myself (see friends, do things I enjoy like working out, etc.), but I still feel this awful sadness and like I only have a child "part time." Anyone else feel like this or have any tips for coping?
Thanks in advance!