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I should be happy. But I'm not.
IselaCid
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I'm so worried about so many things with this pregnancy. Money of course is the main source. Things are so much tighter than ever and I swore to myself that if I had another child I would stay home for a year or two to raise them. The past two years, working and being away from my son has been a challenge I never could have imagined. I'm not cut out to be a working mother, I don't want it all, I don't. I just want my babies. And now, the possibility of it it not happening is throwing me into a horrible depression. When I looked at my baby on the US screen today, I wanted to be happy, but all I could come up with was worry and anxiety. Will we keep our home? Will I have be able to be home with our kids? Will we lose it all? I should be happy...but I'm so so sad and nobody understands. Sorry, if this is all a mess...typing isn't the best between tears.
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Re: I should be happy. But I'm not.
Matthew Kevin
7/31/83-7/20/11
Met 1/8/00
Engaged 4/21/06
Married 9/29/07
Two beautiful legacies: Noah Matthew (2 yrs) and Chloe Marcella (8 mos)
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*hugs* I feel the same way so many days. We're going to be moving next month to a new state, and it's going to be up and down for us in terms of stability for ?a few months. With this harsh economic environment, I always have a lot of questions. This is an unplanned pregnancy - my first - and it's happening during a very uncertain time. My husband is the optimist - thank goodness - and he always tells me to stay positive, because good things will happen, they just take longer. I'm going to be a SAHM not out of choice - not much demand for writers these days!
I some day hope to finish grad school to become a teacher, but at this point, it's one-day-at-a-time.?
Do feel free to vent any time. My heart goes out to you!?
Oh, I'm sorry you have worry clouding your excitement. I can only think this is completely normal. You still have plenty of time to figure things out, and I really hope things work out in your favor.
Girl, don't worry!!! Everything will work out one way or another!!
I'm so sorry you're going through this. A lot of us are in the same boat with having to work. Can you work part-time for a little while? Do you have the option to work from home at all? Do you have relatives close by who can watch your baby, so you feel good knowing a family member is doing it?
Just remember everything happens for a reason, and daycare isn't the worst thing in the world. I've actually read it's good for them in some ways because of the socialization and independence.