I have searched high and low for how someone has handled this re pregnancy and birth and the best I find is that it wasn't really handled or addressed and the person got pregnant or was trying and then concerned but ended up facing the it head on.
I don't want to even try getting pregnant before I address this.
I pass out going to a hospital. I pass out at the mere discussion of needles and anatomy. Recently we have had to visit a specialist re my husband's health and I had to step out of the office or I would have passed out.
I'm looking for if anyone has or knows someone who has done anything leading up to conception re these phobias, what they did, and if it helped.
Right now I have been looking into therapists that specialize in phobias which is the only thing I can think of doing.
Re: Needle, Blood, Hospital Phobia
A big part is I don't want to sacrifice the health of the baby for my "comfort" but it is true that me passing out while in labor isn't good for the baby either.
A birthing center is a very good idea though!
I'm at the point where even the thought of having blood drawn and typing this makes me faint so I've got some things to address before I can even do the birthing center/midwife route.
I think looking up a cognitive behavior therapist who specialize in phobias is a good thing. You never know where life is going to take you, so it's good to have those coping strategies under your belt. Also, once you have kids, the needles and hospitals don't really go away for a while. It's part of why I finally decided to seek therapy, because I don't want to pass my fears along.
The first time I sat to have blood drawn last year I was a mess. Shaking, crying, hyperventilating. But I was really honest with the tech who drew my blood that I am not good at this and need someone who knows what they're doing. I'm fortunate that I have really good veins, but if you don't, I think it's fine to ask for the best person there and be willing to wait. Or, tell the nurse/tech if they have to stick you twice that you have a limit of twice per person. It's not bitchy, it's being really honest. I'm also really honest with my doctor about the whole needle thing, and she was really understanding. I just admit it freely and that helps because then we all know what we're dealing with.
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I plan on doing the therapy but even the idea of therapy and gradual exposure has been giving me anxiety.
I didn't mean to allude that natural birth isn't safe. I'm saying that where I am at right now I would throttle someone who attempted to draw blood from me. I get dizzy wearing the cuff for blood pressure. I don't want to avoid any basic check ups just because they make me uncomfortable.
I know that I can talk all I want since I'm not even pregnant and haven't had a child but it has always been part of my plan to avoid the hospital setting as much as possible relative to mine and the baby's health.
Off to find someone covered by our insurance.
I was able to work through my fears with time and approach my second pregnancy more willing to adapt to whatever medical situation I found myself in. It really does help so much to get to a better place with medical-related fears before pregnancy, if you can. I hope you get all the help you need to handle pregnancy and birth in a way that doesn't totally stress you out.
I have a list of psychiatrists and psychologists covered by my insurance. I am assuming they will encourage gradual exposure with possible med aids. I'm excited but incredibly anxious.