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Late Term and Child Loss
hsabyan
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Intro
hsabyan
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Hello, my name is Heather and I've been told this board was a good place to start healing.
My husband and I recently said goodbye to our only child. Georgia Jeanne was born on April 1st and she left us on May 10th. We had 40 amazingly beautiful, stressful, painful, and glorious days with her. She was born with a rare heart defect that was diagnosed at my 20 week ultrasound. We continued the pregnancy with stress and uncertainty. The doctors monitored us more and really couldn't give us a clear outlook of what would happen once she was born and my body wasn't working for her anymore. She fought hard for the time she was here, but in the end her liver and heart were both not working and we had to make the decision to end her suffering. She took her last breaths in our arms and we were finally able to see her without her breathing tube.
We never got to bring her home. She never got to see her beautifully decorated and fully stocked nursery. I can count on two hands how many times I was able to hold her.
It's been 18 days since we said goodbye and for whatever reason, today was particularly rough on me. I feel lost in my own home. I don't know what to do with myself. I find myself looking at pictures of her (we took hundreds in her short time here) and crying often.
I don't know etiquette for this board or if it's appropriate to show pictures- but I attached some pictures of my angel baby. I have also attached a link to a site that my husband updated daily while we were in the hospital. It gives a glimpse of the roller coaster we were on.
Thank you in advance for the safe haven. I'm sorry that anyone would have to go through the pain that we are feeling, but it's comforting to know we're not alone.
Georgia's Story: https://www.giveforward.com/fundraiser/grb4/georgia-s-healing-help
Original Loss Post on BMB: https://forums.thebump.com/discussion/12354330/a-delayed-goodbye/p1
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Re: Intro
I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Georgia. Thank you for sharing her pictures, she's beautiful. It's so very unfair, my heart hurts for you. I'm sorry you have to be here, but glad you found us. I hope you find some peace here, and remember that it's ok to not be ok. Big hugs to you.
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I'm so very sorry for the loss of your precious daughter, Georgia.
I'm from your BMB and we hate to welcome new moms to this board, but I'm glad you found us - this board is here to support you, listen to you, whenever you need it. Please be gentle with yourself and do what you need to get through the day.
Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
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I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Georgia. She is beautiful!!!! Sending prayers and thoughts your way.
Brooke Elizabeth born Feb 17, 2013 grew wings May 9, 2013 @ 11 weeks & 4 days old from SIDS
My story is similar to yours in some ways. We lost our daughter to a rare heart condition also detected at my 20 week ultrasound, but we chose to end the pregnancy. Feel free to pm me if you ever need to talk. Welcome to the board.
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So sorry for the loss of your precious girl. She was beautiful.
first son stillborn 7/20/13 at 39 weeks due to Acute Fatty Liver of Pregnancy
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Such a beautiful baby. My son also had both liver and heart problems and it sounds like you and your husband had to make the same decision my husband and I had to make. I'm so sorry.
She really is just beautiful.
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