Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss
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I'm Back...:-( (living child mentioned)
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It's not that I don't love you ladies, but oh how I hate to be back here. I had a loss back in February that was a chemical pregnancy. We found out we were expecting again June sixth. Betas rose appropriately, I was on Progesterone for support, we saw the heartbeat Monday...I felt so different about this time. Unfortunately, right after the ultrasound Monday I began bleeding. After another ultrasound Tuesday that still showed a heartbeat (but slower) and irregularities of the gestational sac, I resigned myself to accept the worst. Sure enough, an exam Thursday concluded my cervix was open, and an ultrasound Friday confirmed the miscarriage was complete. I am devastated. I feel defeated, worthless and hopeless. I know all these feelings are normal, but it's just so much harder this time, especially after seeing that encouraging little thump thump on the screen. I just want to scream. Cry. Pull my hair out. Right now I'm laying in bed, physically and emotionally exhausted. I feel guilty because I can't even bear to look at DD without sobbing, and her big sister shirt is now in a crumpled wad in the top of my closet as I never know if she'll be able to wear it. I had to give the ultrasound pictures of our kidney bean to mom for safekeeping. I know one day I'll want them, but right now I feel like ripping them apart. I am so angry. This is our third miscarriage of our marriage, and our second this year. I don't know if I can so this again...we have an appointment with our RE on July 14th to start some Bloodwork to look for answers. Does anyone have any insight as to what I should ask to be done? I never imagined this would happen to us a third time.
ME: 24 with PCOS and a HX of Endo (rem. 04/12)
DH: 24 with Low Motility
TTC since 11/09
M/C 01/11 at >2w, chemical pregnancy
50mg Clomid 02/12, -OPK
100mg Clomid 03/12, -OPK
Surgery to remove endo. and check tubes 04/04/12
10d Provera & 150mg Clomid 05/12, 1st positive OPK!
BFP 06/12
DD born 01/30/13!!!
TTC #2 since 09/13
Last Normal Cycle 12/16/13
Neg OPKs in 01/14
Neg Prog. in 01/14
10d Provera started 01/21/14
SURPRISE BFP 02/06/14
ER Visit 02/15/14, u/s showed empty uterus, BHCG = 111
M/C 02/16/14, chemical pregnancy...M/C was confirmed 2/18/14, BHCG = 28
05/12/2014 Started 50 mg Clomid
05/16/2014 Ended 50 mg Clomid
05/28/2014 Negative "Day 21" progesterone bloodwork
06/06/2014 BFP!!!
06/09/2014, beta HCG 75
06/12/2014 beta HCG 242!
06/20/2014 beta HCG 2823!
06/26/2014 m/c at 6w1d
07/21/2014 diagnosed with APS (Lupus Anticoagulant), Factor V, and MTHFR mutation in addition to PCOS and HX of Endometriosis
10/27/2014 repeat Lupus Anticoagulant tested negative
DH: 24 with Low Motility
TTC since 11/09
M/C 01/11 at >2w, chemical pregnancy
50mg Clomid 02/12, -OPK
100mg Clomid 03/12, -OPK
Surgery to remove endo. and check tubes 04/04/12
10d Provera & 150mg Clomid 05/12, 1st positive OPK!
BFP 06/12
DD born 01/30/13!!!
TTC #2 since 09/13
Last Normal Cycle 12/16/13
Neg OPKs in 01/14
Neg Prog. in 01/14
10d Provera started 01/21/14
SURPRISE BFP 02/06/14
ER Visit 02/15/14, u/s showed empty uterus, BHCG = 111
M/C 02/16/14, chemical pregnancy...M/C was confirmed 2/18/14, BHCG = 28
05/12/2014 Started 50 mg Clomid
05/16/2014 Ended 50 mg Clomid
05/28/2014 Negative "Day 21" progesterone bloodwork
06/06/2014 BFP!!!
06/09/2014, beta HCG 75
06/12/2014 beta HCG 242!
06/20/2014 beta HCG 2823!
06/26/2014 m/c at 6w1d
07/21/2014 diagnosed with APS (Lupus Anticoagulant), Factor V, and MTHFR mutation in addition to PCOS and HX of Endometriosis
10/27/2014 repeat Lupus Anticoagulant tested negative
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Re: I'm Back...:-( (living child mentioned)
DD: 10 (born August 2004)
Married 03/01/14
TTC#2
BFP: 05/17/2014 EDD: 1/25/15 MMC: 06/30/2014
DH: 24 with Low Motility
TTC since 11/09
M/C 01/11 at >2w, chemical pregnancy
50mg Clomid 02/12, -OPK
100mg Clomid 03/12, -OPK
Surgery to remove endo. and check tubes 04/04/12
10d Provera & 150mg Clomid 05/12, 1st positive OPK!
BFP 06/12
DD born 01/30/13!!!
TTC #2 since 09/13
Last Normal Cycle 12/16/13
Neg OPKs in 01/14
Neg Prog. in 01/14
10d Provera started 01/21/14
SURPRISE BFP 02/06/14
ER Visit 02/15/14, u/s showed empty uterus, BHCG = 111
M/C 02/16/14, chemical pregnancy...M/C was confirmed 2/18/14, BHCG = 28
05/12/2014 Started 50 mg Clomid
05/16/2014 Ended 50 mg Clomid
05/28/2014 Negative "Day 21" progesterone bloodwork
06/06/2014 BFP!!!
06/09/2014, beta HCG 75
06/12/2014 beta HCG 242!
06/20/2014 beta HCG 2823!
06/26/2014 m/c at 6w1d
07/21/2014 diagnosed with APS (Lupus Anticoagulant), Factor V, and MTHFR mutation in addition to PCOS and HX of Endometriosis
10/27/2014 repeat Lupus Anticoagulant tested negative
DS2 born 2/22/13
MMC 5/16/14@8w2d
DD due 5/9/15 Please be our RAINBOW
DH: 45
BFP #1 3/19/14 EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
BFP #2 12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
Saw heartbeat 12/29. Please be a rainbow.
All welcome