Hormonal rage monster?

Laura&Austin2013 · June 2014

Today marks two weeks since my second miscarriage. This one was natural as opposed to a missed m/c and D&C last time, so I've handled it completely differently emotionally and mentally, and I don't know what to do with myself right now. Is it normal to be a complete hormonal wreck at this point? I usually get a little bit dramatic during PMS, but not uncontrollably so. I have yelled at my poor husband twice in the last week and spontaneously burst into tears while trying to cook dinner a few times. I'm in this constant state of volcano-about-to-erupt, when I'm generally a calm and cheerful person. I definitely distanced myself emotionally from this baby after losing the last one, and so I don't really know how to grieve this time. I just want to get through it and not be such an irritable crazy woman, but I don't know what's wrong with me. Blood work indicated extremely low progesterone levels, and they wanted me to come in for more blood work soon to make sure everything went back to normal, but would that cause this crazy monsterness?

Yaz14 · June 2014

I think you're allowed to be a crazy hormonal monster at this point. I still am a little bit. I spent the first few weeks after my loss crying almost constantly. After that I got a bit better but I still cry a bit. I got my second period after my loss last night and I lay in bed just sobbing for a good hour or so. I'm still incredibly upset about my mc but I think hormones probably have a fair bit to do with it all this point too. One of the best lessons I learned after my mc was to just allow myself to feel any emotions that came with it whether thats sadness, anger, bitterness, craziness, whatever! Don't feel bad for feeling the way you do.

CreechMommy · June 2014

I think it's perfectly okay to be a hormonal rage monster right now. I've had some pretty intense mood swings since my m/c. Normally I'm pretty calm, but I have had rage at random moments that comes out of nowhere. I just keep reminding myself that it's only been 4 weeks since mine and I'm doing good considering the circumstances. Eventually things will even out and my hormones will go back to normal. Until then just take it one day at a time or moment to moment. I keep reminding my DH that I love him and he has been wonderful through this whole thing, but at the same time my hormones are crazy right now and my body has gone crazy so to please bear with me and not take it personally!