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Pregnant after a Loss
dragonfly1809
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Intro, infant loss and trying again..
dragonfly1809
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Hello Ladies,
It's been a long time since I've been on these boards. I started in 2010, due in October when I found myself on the loss boards. Another loss in 2012 had me convinced that was it. To our surprise, in 2013 I found myself pregnant again and finally was able to enjoy a healthy and exciting pregnancy. Our son, Finn, was born on September 18th perfect and healthy, and we couldn't have been happier. The unimaginable happened just ten days later when we lost Finn unexpectedly, so heartbreakingly ...it's been a nightmare of grief ever since.
I'm 41, my husband is 45... He's a wonderful father to my 16 year old daughter, but we've longed for a child together. Finn was so special, he gave me so much hope.
Well, I'm here again, now eight weeks along with all our hopes and dreams wrapped up inside me. I'm scared - not just about pregnancy loss, but of infant loss...all the milestones now seem so small compared to what lies ahead. My finish line isn't in the delivery room - it goes on so much further, a lifetime. All I ask is for my child to outlive me. Is that too much to ask?
I'm due February 5th, but this baby is likely to be born around 37/38 weeks, being my third c-section, so I'll be a January mom 
I hope I can find a place to belong, a group to confide in..., I feel very alone in the world of infant loss. Without any disrespect, and as one who's suffered through miscarriage, the loss of a living, healthy infant is a weight like no other. My Bump ladies from the old days have been so supportive (via Facebook) and I'm so grateful to them for letting me cry to them. I hope I can find more of the same connections as I walk the path through this pregnancy and beyond.
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Re: Intro, infant loss and trying again..
Me 32 (Stage IV Endometriosis, short luteal phase) DH 38
Married 5/2010
January 2014- DS born healthy at 35.4 weeks
February 2014- DS passed away due to complications from adenovirus
February 2015- Rainbow baby DD born at 36.3 weeks
My chart: http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/42fd32
January PAL siggie challenge; Good advice:
Ava's Story
BFP#2 10/18/13 Blighted ovum 11/25/13
BFP #3 1/31/14 EDD 10/18/14 -- It's a GIRL!
BFP#1 4/17/2013 EDD 12/25/2013, MC 5/17/2013 8 weeks 3 days D&C 5/18/2013
BFP#2 1/20/2014 EDD 9/28/2014, Baby Evie born on 9/23/2014 at 8:50pm. 6 lbs 15 oz!
BFP 6/29/2013 - EDD 3/16/14 - MMC 9/5/2013
April 2014 - - 1st ICI Cycle - BFP 5/15/14 EDD: 1/20/15
A/S 8-22-14 - Its a BOY!!
12/15 Checkup & heard his beautiful heartbeat
ALL WELCOME -
Married August 2003
BFP #1, 3/12, EDD 11/9/12, MMC 3/27/12, D&C 4/10/12
BFP #2: 11/16/12, EDD 7/25/13, MMC 12/5/12, D&C 12/6/12, Complete molar pregnancy confirmed 2/9/13, benched for 6 months until August 2013
IUI #1, 8/16/13 Femara + Menopur, 3 mature follicles, BFN
IUI #3, 10/8/13 Femara + Menopur, six mature follicles, BFN
BFP #3, 12/9/2013, while on treatment break, EDD: 8/22/2014 Please stick and grow, LO!
Additional Dx: hypothyroidism, TgAb positive & anti-TPO positive, POR/DOR (2/2013), and suspected endometriosis
******All AL always welcome******
My Ovulation Chart Fruit
TTC since 11/2009; Lap/HSG/Hysteroscopy: 5/2011 (endometriosis - removed; endocervical polyp - removed; high pressure in bilateral tubes - cleared)
BFP #1: 8/4/11; DS1 born sleeping on 11/16/11 at 19w1d
BFP # 2: 5/7/12, EDD 1/10/13, DS2 born 1/4/13
BFP # 3: 11/8/13, EDD 7/17/14, mmc 10wks
BFP # 4: 5/16/14, EDD 1/15/15, praying for our 2nd rainbow baby
BFP #2: EDD 9/3/13~~Slow HB at 1st U/S~~MMC -Loss on 2/13/13
TTC since Sept 2011, Unexplained IF
Oct 12 - Jan 14: 3 clomid/TI cycles, 2 hysteroscopies, 2 IUIs, 1 BFP (MMC @ 12w), 2 more IUIs
Feb 14: Gonal-f + IUI #5 = BFP! (EDD 11/4/14)
Baby boy arrived 11/13/14!
BFP #2 11/3/10; BO at u/s 10w6d 12/16/10; Natural MC 1/7/11; D&C 4/21/11
BFP #3 10/27/11 Please stick, LO!! 2/6/12 It's a Girl! Alexis Grace born 6/29/12
BFP#4 4/27/14 Stick, stick, stick!! 8/11/14 It's a Boy! Evan Wesley born 1/8/15
"Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting. That is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow, that is patience." Let it Be (blog) ♥ My BFP Charts
This time I'm not leaving without you.
BFP #2: m/c at 7w, February, 2014
BFP #3: It's a BOY! Please be our rainbow! Due February, 2015
*everyone always welcome*
Femara + Gonal F + Ovidrel 3/6/14 IUI #3 (plus 2x acupuncture)
Team Pink!!
ALL ARE WELCOME
Welcome to the board again. As you move along in your pregnancy, I hope you find support and joy here.
TTC Since 04/01/13
BFP #1 04/28/13 Its twins! EDD 01/08/2014 MMC confirmed 06/27/13 D&C 07/17/13
BFP#2 05/19/14 EDD 01/30/2015 Please be our rainbow!
My Ovulation Chart
*~*~* All AL Welcome*~*~*
BFP #2 6/12/14, DD born 2/21/15