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August 2011 Moms
Duffgurl
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Hi everyone..somewhat of an update
Duffgurl
member
Well it been such a difficult time in my life.
I don't know what it is I am feeling but I am trying to get through this. I am grateful for my DH who has been so supportive. Also my loving family and friends.
The wake was a total nightmare. I had gotten a call from the owner of the mortuary stating that my DH was not to attend. Which hurt him so bad since my father was like a dad to him as well. That information had infuriated me but I sucked it up voiced my opinions to the owner and I even contacted the police department on how to handle the situation. In the end my DH came with me he waited outside the facility and I went in to see my father.
I can not express how hard it was to go in there and say goodbye. I did not speak to anyone. Except to my nieces and nephews who are becoming so grown. Its amazing how time flies and how we change. Seeing my father it's so hard to describe the feeling of peace that came over me it was like he was with me...really with me. I cried and told him what I had to say and what my DH wanted to say to him. He looked so peaceful. I didn't want to leave but I knew had to. I also wanted to be with my DH who was outside.
Although I met some family I have never met before from my father's side and all they could say was how proud my dad was of me. How he always spoke of me. I was overwhelmed to meet so many important people but what saddens me is it had to happen in such a manner.
They all adored my DH they even where going to march right in there with him so he could say his goodbyes but we explained it would be best not to.
We did attend the church since it is a public place and they can't say anything. As well as the place he was buried.
When we where leaving the church to the burial site. I was crying and telling DH how much I miss him and all of a sudden our song that we danced together at my Quinceañera came on. My DH just explained to me to realize he is in a much better place and that he is with me always.
I miss him so much everyday and my heart is still so very heavy with pain but everyday I am trying harder to move a bit forward.
I thank all of you who have had us in their thoughts. It means a lot to me.
I hope everyone is well and hope to be more apart of our board.
Big Hugs
Carrie
Duffgurl
I don't know what it is I am feeling but I am trying to get through this. I am grateful for my DH who has been so supportive. Also my loving family and friends.
The wake was a total nightmare. I had gotten a call from the owner of the mortuary stating that my DH was not to attend. Which hurt him so bad since my father was like a dad to him as well. That information had infuriated me but I sucked it up voiced my opinions to the owner and I even contacted the police department on how to handle the situation. In the end my DH came with me he waited outside the facility and I went in to see my father.
I can not express how hard it was to go in there and say goodbye. I did not speak to anyone. Except to my nieces and nephews who are becoming so grown. Its amazing how time flies and how we change. Seeing my father it's so hard to describe the feeling of peace that came over me it was like he was with me...really with me. I cried and told him what I had to say and what my DH wanted to say to him. He looked so peaceful. I didn't want to leave but I knew had to. I also wanted to be with my DH who was outside.
Although I met some family I have never met before from my father's side and all they could say was how proud my dad was of me. How he always spoke of me. I was overwhelmed to meet so many important people but what saddens me is it had to happen in such a manner.
They all adored my DH they even where going to march right in there with him so he could say his goodbyes but we explained it would be best not to.
We did attend the church since it is a public place and they can't say anything. As well as the place he was buried.
When we where leaving the church to the burial site. I was crying and telling DH how much I miss him and all of a sudden our song that we danced together at my Quinceañera came on. My DH just explained to me to realize he is in a much better place and that he is with me always.
I miss him so much everyday and my heart is still so very heavy with pain but everyday I am trying harder to move a bit forward.
I thank all of you who have had us in their thoughts. It means a lot to me.
I hope everyone is well and hope to be more apart of our board.
Big Hugs
Carrie
Duffgurl
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