Time to come out of lurking

BookishMomma · June 2014

I’ve been lurking here for a few weeks in a state of denial about needing to be here. But as the EDD for my first loss approaches next month, it’s a brutal reminder of the passage of time. I feel like I'm ready to be a part of this smaller community of support.

About me: my loss info is in my siggy, so I'll be brief. To summarize, we had our first loss on the aptly-named Black Friday last year at 5w3d, followed directly by another loss at 4w6d. I had a 3rd loss, via D&C, on May 1 after an ultrasound showed no heartbeat at 8w5d, where we’d previously seen one at 6 weeks. Genetic testing of the POC came back positive for Turner’s Syndrome which, from what the genetics counselor told us, is usually just a "fluke" unrelated to the parents' genotypes.

I’ve had RPL testing as well as karyotyping for DH and me. All came back normal. We’ve started seeing an RE, who wants me to come in for a hysteroscopy early in my next cycle to check for any structural defects. Other than that, I’m just waiting for AF, who seems to be taking her sweet-ass time after this last loss. I’ll turn 35 in July and am feeling frustrated by the fact that I feel like we're still at square one. Or not even at square one.

In non-uterus-related facts: I’m a lawyer, novelist, and thrift store junkie. I also love wine—my next book is set in the wine country of Spain. For anyone who’s read this far, please have a glass on me. It's never too early, right?

((Hugs)) and a refill for anyone who needs it.

buggirl72 · June 2014

Welcome and I'm so sorry you find yourself over on this side.

MyFirstRaspberry · June 2014

Welcome. ((hugs))

jap618 · June 2014

Welcome & I'm sorry you have to be here.

LaRomana09 · June 2014

Welcome. (((HUGS)))

YorkieLove4 · June 2014

Sorry you have to be here. I actually need to post my intro as well, as this is my first post here, which is long overdue. What can I say, I'm a rebel;) Many hugs and I hope through your journey you find refuge here. Also, novelist?? Love that. I consider myself a writer although I've never quite finished any of my projects, and not sure I ever will, LOL. It's fun and therapeutic as least:) All the best!

jap618 · June 2014

YorkieLove4 said:

Sorry you have to be here. I actually need to post my intro as well, as this is my first post here, which is long overdue. What can I say, I'm a rebel;) Many hugs and I hope through your journey you find refuge here. Also, novelist?? Love that. I consider myself a writer although I've never quite finished any of my projects, and not sure I ever will, LOL. It's fun and therapeutic as least:) All the best!

@YorkieLove4 I'm sorry for everything you've been through. Just an FYI though this board is for ladies who have been active on the main TTCAL for 6+ months, not just those trying for 6+ months. I see that you've done some posting over there but it seems like before recently you haven't done much posting in September. I would recommend spending more time on the main board and becoming more active. I hope you never have to find yourself here.

YorkieLove4 · June 2014

@jap618. Oops, just saw this after my intro. Yes I was active on TTCAL, just not for some time. Felt this was the best place for me. There's not many places we can venture to on here, and TTCAL isn't really where I want to be right now. I feel like I'm at a different place than the majority and I'm hoping to connect with people who are in a much similar place as me. Also, this board seems to move at a slower pace, which I really like. But, hey, rules are rules.