February 2015 Moms

This is the worst feeling in the World...

Had my follow up u/a today, after measuring 2 weeks behind at my dating scan last week. My doctor said it is "inconclusive" at this time. She thinks she sees a fetal pole, and the sac is measuring 5w6d, which is on track from last week. However, I am supposed to be 7w6d. As much as I can hope I O'd and implanted late, it doesn't change the fact that I got my 1st positive pg test at what I thought to be 11 dpo. So the measurements are not within reasonable limits. Doctor ordered betas for Monday morning and another follow up u/s on July 7th. I have such a gut feeling that there is something wrong and I hate having this all dragged out. Such an emotional roller coaster. Why is there a grey area??? I am feeling devastated, but more so, stuck in limbo has me feeling like an empty shell. I literally can't think even a day into the future and feel as if I am on auto pilot, just going through the motions of each day. I feel so bad for DH and DD, that they have to see me so down and out. As much as i would like to think there's is a glimmer of hope, I feel certain I will be leaving you all very soon :(. I just pray it doesn't take as long to get pregant again, as it did this time. I'll update when a definitive situation is clear. FX for happy and healthy little beans at your upcoming ultrasounds (I saw there was a bunch tomorrow!).
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BFP#1: 6.21.11 - DD born 3.6.12
BFP#2: 10.27.13 - Chemical Pregnancy
BFP#3: 5.27.14 - EDD 2.6.15 - MMC diagnosed at 8w3d - D&C 7.7.14
BFP#4: 1.9.15 - EDD 9.21.15 -  Praying for a sticky bean!

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  • ((Hugs)) I'm so sorry you have to go through this. FX you get answers soon.
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    I am so sorry that you are going through this.  I really hope things take a better turn for you.  FX.    
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    Nov/Dec 2013 Cycle 2 with RE 50 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI BFN 
    Jan/Feb 2014 Cycle 3 with RE 50 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI BFN 
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    6/2/14 Beta #1 575!!! :)
    6/4/14 Beta #2 2060!!! :)
    6/11/14 1st Ultrasound...Saw 2 Gestational Sacs!!  Beta #3 34,312!!! 
    6/18/14 2nd Ultrasound...Heartbeats!! Baby A 112bpm Baby B 117bmp <3 Beta #4 172,080!!!
    6/25/14 3rd Ultrasound...Heartbeats!! Baby A 150bpm Baby B 158bpm <3 Beta #5 232,134!!! 
    7/3/14 4th Ultrasound...Heartbeats!! Baby A 173bpm Baby B 162bpm <3 Beta #6 269,228!!!
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  • I'm so sorry you're dealing with this uncertainty, that must be so difficult.  I am keeping my fx for you and sending lots of hugs your way.  (((hugs)))
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  • I've been there. It's very difficult! ((Hugs))
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  • So sorry you have to deal with this - I hope you get some answers soon :(
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  • I am so sorry that you are dealing with this uncertainty :(  FX that you get some answers soon.
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  • I am with you right now - I may also be miscarrying.  I was given a 50-50 chance of miscarriage.  You always hear there is no such thing as being "a little bit pregnant".  But I am.  You don't know how to feel.  You want to be able to move on to something, but can't.  

    Just know that you don't have to act like everything is just fine for your husband or daughter.  You need to be able to experience the feelings that you're having.  It's OK to be down for a bit - accepting and feeling your feelings is the only way you can really move forward.

    That said, it's not over yet.  So, let's hope for good news at your next appt!! :)
  • So sorry its so stressful! fX you ovulated late and everything is okay. T&p
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    So sorry you are dealing with this. Sending positive thoughts your way!

     

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  • Im so sorry you are stuck in limbo. That must be such an awful feeling. Hugs to you!
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  • So sorry you are stuck in the middle. I hope things get better and you get answers.
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  • So sorry you're in limbo, hugs.
  • I'm so sorry you are going through this!! Sending all my thought and prayers!!
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  • I'm so sorry you're going through this and stuck in limbo. FX that baby stays put and continues to grow and you see that fetal pole.
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  • Thinking of you and hoping you know something for certain soon.
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  • FX for you guys. Lots of love
  • High hopes & happy thoughts to you! Hang in there
  • I am thinking of you! This us exactly what happened as I went through my previous miscarriage. Stay strong.
  • I'm so  sorry that you are going through this. I hope that you get answers soon.  ((HUGS))
    Miscarriage in January 2012 at 8 weeks
    Subsequently diagnosed with low P4, LOR. MH DX low motility, varicocele 
    BFP in July 2012 (Gonal-f + trigger + IUI#2 (B2B) + prometrium)
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  • I am so sorry to hear this. Try to keep your chin up. [Hugs]
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  • I'm going through the exact same thing. I had my us Thursday and LO measured between 5-6 weeks. I should have been closer to 8 weeks. They told me to come back in 10-14 days. Well now bleeding has started, barely, just when I wipe. My MW still thinks it might be ok, she says to wait and see and do nothing for the next few days. She is bumping my us up to this week.... but I don't think there is much point.

    BFP #1 05/03/12 DD: 12/18/12
    BFP #2 05/26/14 MMC: 6/26/14 D&C: 7/18/14
    BFP #3 10/09/14 MC 10/24/14


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