Hello

I got a BFP on Friday at 10 dpo and I was really excited but now my apprehension is taking over. We've been TFAS since October (we have a wonderful DD); I got pregnant in December but miscarried at 6 weeks in January. I don't have a "feeling" that this pregnancy is going to be any different (a few friends that have gotten pregnant after a MC said they just "knew it was going to be fine"). I'm just really nervous and am trying not to get my hopes up in case I have another loss, which makes me feel like I'm kinda expecting to have one? I hate not being more positive and I don't know if it's common to feel this way...to add to my apprehension I've been POAS since Friday (wondfos) and the line is still pretty faint and not getting any darker. I know I just need to stop testing, but the same thing happened with my loss in January. The lines just never got dark and I tried to dismiss it as the tests being wonky, but then I ended up having a miscarriage.
I hope I get to stick around and everything is ok--my first appointment is July 20th, which seems so far away--just wanted to introduce myself and "meet" other ladies with similar experiences

Re: Nervous intro
Married DH 3/14/09
TTC Since Jan 2011
Diagnosed with PCOS Jan 2013
BFP#1 June 2013/ EDD 2/23/2013 Blighted Ovum confirmed July 18, 2013
took Cytotec July 20, 2013
BFP #2 12/28/2013 EDD 9/11/2014 Its A Girl!!! Rebecca Ann!
Rebecca Ann born 8/31/2014 6lb 1oz 19 inches long 8:55am!!!!
BFP #2: EDD 9/3/13~~Slow HB at 1st U/S~~MMC -Loss on 2/13/13
BFP #2 11/3/10; BO at u/s 10w6d 12/16/10; Natural MC 1/7/11; D&C 4/21/11
BFP #3 10/27/11 Please stick, LO!! 2/6/12 It's a Girl! Alexis Grace born 6/29/12
BFP#4 4/27/14 Stick, stick, stick!! 8/11/14 It's a Boy! Evan Wesley born 1/8/15
"Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting. That is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow, that is patience." Let it Be (blog) ♥ My BFP Charts
This time I'm not leaving without you.
BFP #2 5/7/13 EDD 1/14/2014 Ectopic discovered 5/21/13, lost left tube
Referred to RE, blood work done August 2013, AMH 0.27, all else normal, HSG clear
Lots of love from a fellow (hopeful) second-time mom xox
BFP #2: m/c at 7w, February, 2014
BFP #3: It's a BOY! Please be our rainbow! Due February, 2015
*everyone always welcome*
DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS 6/2010
BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014
My chart here All ALers welcome!
DX: Septate Uterus. Septum resection 6/4/13