Trouble TTC

Crying over a blood draw

I have been fine since I tested this weekend and got a BFN. I still had to go for my Beta today. I was handling it pretty well until I get called back to get my blood drawn. It's such a joke that I had to come here today, and then the lab tech told me good luck.

I don't know how all of you ladies have gotten through more than one month if this process. I admire you, honestly. I'm only on my first month of medicated cycle, and I'm already a crazy mess.

Sorry, I just needed to get that out. I need to try not to let this ruin my whole day.

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Me: 30, PCOS-non IR, Annovulatory; DH: 31, SA normal :)
Testing Completed! HSG Clear, Ovarian Reserve score 17, Elevated Testosterone, everything else normal so far
 Clomid 150mg + HCG + IUI #1 May/June 2014 (BFN)
Clomid 150 mg + HCG + IUI #2 July 2014 (BFN)
Femara 2.5mg + Estrace + HCG + IUI #3 Cancelled d/t no response
Moving on to IVF with ICSI after break to lose weight.
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My Ovulation Chart

Re: Crying over a blood draw

  • It does suck.  I also hate when someone tells you to stay positive or good luck when you KNOW this cycle is over.  Why would it be helpful to remain positive when all logical evidence tells you that there is no reason to hope?!?

    My tech tried to give me that speech after my failed IVF and the minute she started I just started shaking my head, "no."  She eventually quieted down.
    Me: 34 | He: 40
    TTC since 08/2012
    DX: DOR




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  • The "what if" feeling is so cruel - which is exactly what you probably have getting a beta draw after a BFN pregnancy test.  Sorry you're going through this ((((HUGS)))) My doctor doesn't ask me to come in for a blood draw unless I get a +HPT at 14 DP IUI.  Still, every 2WW at 10 DPO I'm like "Okay, it's negative but it's still early!"  Then I say the same thing at 11 DPO.  And then 12 DPO.  And then 13 DPO.  Then finally at 14 DPO I give up.  This whole process just sucks.

    Wish I had words that were more comforting, but I can at least tell you I feel your pain.  Try to do something nice for yourself!

  • I'm so sorry, that's such a painful time. :(

    I'm not sure if Clomid works this way but...on Letrozole, it's required to have a blood negative test before starting the medication even if I have a full-on period and negative HPT. (I have to call for the result before taking the first pill on CD3.) So in that sense, I can escape the icky feeling of a blood draw for no reason.


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    Me (29), DH (30) TTC actively 54 55+ cycles | All BFNs
    MFI (low everything) | Endo Stage 1 & Stenotic Cervix (treated) | PCO
    Married - July 2008 | Started TTC - Jan 2009RE Visit #1 - Mar 2014 
    IUI #1 ICI #1 - June | IUI #1.1 Laparoscopy - Aug
    IUIs #1.2, 2, 3 - Sept, Oct, Nov (Letrozole) - BFNs 
    IUI #4 - Dec (Bravelle) | IUI #5 - Dec/Jan (Bravelle) - 5 follies + TI - BFNs
    IUI #5.1 - Jan (Bravelle) Cancelled 
    Planning to start IVF in March!
    ***All Welcome***
  • Clomid is the devil. I felt horrible on it. Migraines, mood swings, hot flashes, etc. After one cycle, I told my RE I want to use something else. I'll take on some freelance work to pay for it if I need to.

    I deal with the disappointment from one cycle by planning the next and looking forward to continuing toward a solution.


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    Me: 29; DH: 53
    TTC since February 2013 --- mild thin PCOS (or not, depending on which RE you ask), MFI

    TI#1: BFN (April 2014; Clomid 50mg x5 days, Estrace x5 days, Clomid 50 mg x4 days)
    IUI#1: c/p (May 2014; Letrozole 2.5 mg x5 days, Estrace x5 days, Bravelle 75 IU x10 days)
    IUI#2: abandoned... O'd early & DH hormone issues (June 2014; Letrozole 2.5 mg x5 days, Bravelle 75 IU x2 days)
    IUI#2.1: BFN (July 2014; Letrozole 2.5 mg x5 days, Bravelle 75 IU x4 days)

    Moving on to IVF. (Why we're moving on to IVF)

    IVF#1 (w/ICSI): BCP 9/9-9/23. Gonal-F, Ganirelix, Low-dose HCG (antagonist protocol). 41R/35M/32F... 2 transferred on 10/14, 14 frosties! On cabergoline to help avoid OHSS. BFN, possibly because of 90% drop in estrogen and progesterone a few days after ET.
    FET#1: Transferring 2 on January 8. BFP! beta#1 (1/17): 408, beta#2 (1/20): 1310, first u/s scheduled 2/5

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  • I'm sorry too.  The "pointless beta" is a real heart wrencher. Just start thinking about next cycle and stay positive. Big internet HUG

    ME:      36, on BC since 1996,  irregular periods.   HUBS:      37, healthy

    2001—meet.  2005—marry.  2006—Furbaby is born. 

    On BC till end of 2009.  2010 NTNP.   

    New Year’s Eve 2010—BFP?! January 13, 2011—early loss, HCG peaked at 324, no D&C needed.

    +++++

    Feb 2011-Nov 2012—NTNP 

    Dec 2012 --present (TTC 20 months) Not even a hint of a BFP

    Me:  BW, U/S, HSG, HSN normal.  AMH 2.33.  Hubs: SA normal 

    +++++

    April 2014--IUI #1 Clomid 100 4-8 Follistim 150 9-14, 5 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 5/5 1100, BFN 

    May 2014 ---IUI#2 Clomid 100 3-7 Follistim 150 8-13, 3 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 6/6 547, BFN

    June 2014--IUI#3 Follistim 150/225 3-15, 3-5 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 7/11 1450, BFN

    July 2014--IUI#4 Follistim 225 2-12, 3 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 8/12 841, BFN

    Breaking till after Christmas, then IVF...taking 4000 mgs daily Inositol and Melatonin 3mg


  • Thanks ladies. I really appreciate it.

    I've been distracting myself by purging old undies, socks, clothes, organizing my scary over crowded closet, and I just bought a ton of cute new undies to replace the ones I threw out.

    I just want AF to show up so I feel like I'm really moving forward.

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    Me: 30, PCOS-non IR, Annovulatory; DH: 31, SA normal :)
    Testing Completed! HSG Clear, Ovarian Reserve score 17, Elevated Testosterone, everything else normal so far
     Clomid 150mg + HCG + IUI #1 May/June 2014 (BFN)
    Clomid 150 mg + HCG + IUI #2 July 2014 (BFN)
    Femara 2.5mg + Estrace + HCG + IUI #3 Cancelled d/t no response
    Moving on to IVF with ICSI after break to lose weight.
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    My Ovulation Chart
  • I'm really sorry that you're having a tough day :( maybe treat yourself to a yummy dessert or nice pedi, take care of you!

    Trying to have baby #1 since April 2013

    DH SA March,May 2014 - Low motility and shape issues. On vitamins per RE to help

    Me testing April 3, 2014 - FSH and LH good, HSG showed blocked right tube

    April 29, 2014 - First RE appt., right tube needs to be removed and possibly left also if

    it's bad too. RE suggests going straight to IVF

    June 4, 2014 - LAP/HSC and unexpected endo. removed but tubes got to stay!

    June 13, 2014 - Post-Op appointment. We decide where to go next since main issue

    is MFI influenced. Trying naturally until decision... Repeat SA  in September. Aiming for IUI #1 November 2014.

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  • Sorry this was such a hard experience for you. So much of this process is so awful. Hugs.

    Official diagnosis: Unexplained IF. I am 32. I have low ovarian reserve (low AMH), and poor egg quality. I've also been diagnosed with mild glandular developmental arrest (lining problems, detected with EFT).

    We are using open ID donor sperm. IUIs #1-7=BFN. IVF September 2014 antagonist protocol, 8R,5M,3F, 5 day transfer of 1 morula = BFN. IVF#2 planned for January 2015 (antagonist protocol + HGH).

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