I have been fine since I tested this weekend and got a BFN. I still had to go for my Beta today. I was handling it pretty well until I get called back to get my blood drawn. It's such a joke that I had to come here today, and then the lab tech told me good luck.
I don't know how all of you ladies have gotten through more than one month if this process. I admire you, honestly. I'm only on my first month of medicated cycle, and I'm already a crazy mess.
Sorry, I just needed to get that out. I need to try not to let this ruin my whole day.
Me: 30, PCOS-non IR, Annovulatory; DH: 31, SA normal

Testing Completed! HSG Clear, Ovarian Reserve score 17, Elevated Testosterone, everything else normal so far
Clomid 150mg + HCG + IUI #1 May/June 2014 (BFN)
Clomid 150 mg + HCG + IUI #2 July 2014 (BFN)
Femara 2.5mg + Estrace + HCG + IUI #3 Cancelled d/t no response
Moving on to IVF with ICSI after break to lose weight.
My Ovulation Chart
Re: Crying over a blood draw
My tech tried to give me that speech after my failed IVF and the minute she started I just started shaking my head, "no." She eventually quieted down.
TTC since 08/2012
DX: DOR
The "what if" feeling is so cruel - which is exactly what you probably have getting a beta draw after a BFN pregnancy test. Sorry you're going through this ((((HUGS)))) My doctor doesn't ask me to come in for a blood draw unless I get a +HPT at 14 DP IUI. Still, every 2WW at 10 DPO I'm like "Okay, it's negative but it's still early!" Then I say the same thing at 11 DPO. And then 12 DPO. And then 13 DPO. Then finally at 14 DPO I give up. This whole process just sucks.
Wish I had words that were more comforting, but I can at least tell you I feel your pain. Try to do something nice for yourself!
ME: 36, on BC since 1996, irregular periods. HUBS: 37, healthy
2001—meet. 2005—marry. 2006—Furbaby is born.
On BC till end of 2009. 2010 NTNP.
New Year’s Eve 2010—BFP?! January 13, 2011—early loss, HCG peaked at 324, no D&C needed.
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Feb 2011-Nov 2012—NTNP
Dec 2012 --present (TTC 20 months) Not even a hint of a BFP
Me: BW, U/S, HSG, HSN normal. AMH 2.33. Hubs: SA normal
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April 2014--IUI #1 Clomid 100 4-8 Follistim 150 9-14, 5 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 5/5 1100, BFN
May 2014 ---IUI#2 Clomid 100 3-7 Follistim 150 8-13, 3 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 6/6 547, BFN
June 2014--IUI#3 Follistim 150/225 3-15, 3-5 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 7/11 1450, BFN
July 2014--IUI#4 Follistim 225 2-12, 3 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 8/12 841, BFN
Breaking till after Christmas, then IVF...taking 4000 mgs daily Inositol and Melatonin 3mg
I've been distracting myself by purging old undies, socks, clothes, organizing my scary over crowded closet, and I just bought a ton of cute new undies to replace the ones I threw out.
I just want AF to show up so I feel like I'm really moving forward.
Trying to have baby #1 since April 2013
DH SA March,May 2014 - Low motility and shape issues. On vitamins per RE to help
Me testing April 3, 2014 - FSH and LH good, HSG showed blocked right tube
April 29, 2014 - First RE appt., right tube needs to be removed and possibly left also if
it's bad too. RE suggests going straight to IVF
June 4, 2014 - LAP/HSC and unexpected endo. removed but tubes got to stay!
June 13, 2014 - Post-Op appointment. We decide where to go next since main issue
is MFI influenced. Trying naturally until decision... Repeat SA in September. Aiming for IUI #1 November 2014.
Official diagnosis: Unexplained IF. I am 32. I have low ovarian reserve (low AMH), and poor egg quality. I've also been diagnosed with mild glandular developmental arrest (lining problems, detected with EFT).
We are using open ID donor sperm. IUIs #1-7=BFN. IVF September 2014 antagonist protocol, 8R,5M,3F, 5 day transfer of 1 morula = BFN. IVF#2 planned for January 2015 (antagonist protocol + HGH).