Im not sure where this belongs but I'm having a very rough time this week recovering from a loss Monday and hitting the EDD from my first pregnancy tomorrow. It's too much for one week. I just don't understand and I'm hoping to find out more at my appointment tomorrow. I had normal beta levels and 2 ultrasounds that showed everything on track and even a heartbeat at 6w3d last month. It's just a little unnerving and I'm not even sure where to start or where to go. I suspected Saturday morning things weren't looking good, but I never expected to wake up hemorrhaging very early Monday morning. Even though I had great care with this loss (they hospital and doctors office have both called to check on me yesterday) and things were taken care of fast enough to avoid a blood transfusion or oxygen, I wonder if I should be happy with the kids I have and call it quits. I don't know if it's worth risking my life to risk another ectopic rupture (I spent 2 nights in the hospital with that loss on oxygen) or having another complicated loss...I do want to see my kids grow up. It's frustrating. Plus I think my ODS needs me a lot. Sorry for the rambling.
TTC January 2010
BFP #1 10-11-10 ectopic discovered 10-22-10,
10-23-10 methotrexate & emergency surgery, lost right tube BFP #2
12-1-10 Found to be tissue dropped from salingectomy or missed heterotopic
pregnancy from BFP #1 BFP #3 1-30-11 DS arrived on due date 10-10-11 BFP
#4 Surprise 9-3-12 EDD 5-9-13 DS2 arrived 5-5-13 BFP #5 5-14-14 Emergency D&C 6-16-14 9 weeks