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mangomimosa
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Hi! I'm new & I have a complex ;p
mangomimosa
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Hi all! My hubby & I have been married for a little over a year. We spent the first year of our marriage adjusting to a new city & new jobs, and now that we're settled, we're super excited to start TTC! Can't believe this time has come...we've been planning on it for almost 3 years now!
So, I have a weird complex about babies/motherhood. I work in women's health & I spent years studying midwifery. I chose this field because I love helping other women. I was always paranoid people would think I was fascinated by pregnancy/reproductive health because I had babies on the brain, and I wanted to be taken seriously. So, I built up some pretty high walls around the part of the brain that goes mushy around babies. I even worked in postpartum/newborn nursery for a few years, and I was mostly **meh** about the babies. I very rarely held/cuddled them, and felt pretty ridiculous when I did. I think the #1 thing I said in the nursery was "I don't want to want one!"
Now that it's actually our time to start a family... I'm excited -- like, really, freaking excited... but also partially mortified that I'm excited. I don't like talking about it & at the same time, I want to talk about nothing else. I've avoided this area of my brain, or tried to, for so long, that allowing myself to think about babies/motherhood feels awkward (and also kind of awesome!). I want to be excited and proud of my pregnancy... I'm a little worried I'm going to be shy and embarrassed. Has anyone else felt like this?
Anyway... CD 11 here--and so the fun part begins! Good luck to everyone!!
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Re: Hi! I'm new & I have a complex ;p
If you want to be excited, be excited! I will say that I've been trying 18 months and I've never been all 'babiez squee! omg ovaries exploding/baby fever!!' Not ever. I want to start a family with my husband, I want to be a mother, but it's never been a baby crazy thing. And, trust me, I'll be bursting with joy when I get pregnant, I haven't a doubt. It's okay to be awkward for a bit, you've been a long time coming to this and I'm sure it's built up a lot. It doesn't make you any less of an awesome professional to want kids of your own. Have fun with it.
Good luck to you!
Me-31, H-27
**Loss 1-Cycle 7(June 2013) at 5w6d-CP**Loss 2-Cycle 11(October 2013) at 5w4d-CP**
**Loss 3-Cycle 14 (January-February 2014)-M/C dx 2/10, EP dx 2/24, MTX 2/25**
Beta Hell--hCG finally down to 0 - 6/20/14
SA normal. Genetic testing normal. Hormonal testing normal.
HSG 6/30/14 - found blocked left tube and 2 'bubbles' on uterine wall.
Hysteroscopy/Lap--8/4/14 - Tubes unblocked. Polyps removed from uterine wall. Septum removed.
9/30/14--Off the bench! Unmedicated TI through December 2014
BFP 12/14/14!!! Beta #1, 12/16: 990 Beta #2, 12/18: Over 2000! Beta #3, 12/22: over 8000!
U/S #1, 12/23: gestational sac, possible heartbeat
U/S #2, 12/30: HEARTBEAT! 128bpm, measuring right on at 7w EDD: 8/19/2015
U/S #3, 1/9: BPM in the 180s, IT'S HAPPENING!!!
Proudly on the dark side
TTC #1 since 08/2013
BFP#1: 1/6/2014 EDD: 9/17/2014 Natural MC: 1/17/2014 (5w3d)
BFP #2: 6/7/2014 EDD: 2/18/2015 Natural MC 6/19/2014 (5w)
BFP #3: 10/22/14 EDD: 7/1/2015
*Taking Progesterone supplements* Beta 1: 777, Beta 2: 2589 *GROW BABY!*
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BFP#1 7/13/11 EDD 3/16/12 DS born 3/16/12
BFP#2 5/16/14 EDD 1/23/15 CP 5/21/14
BFP#3 6/25/14 EDD 3/2/15
~Santa Claus is Coming to Town~
Me: 31 DH: 29
DX (me): Inborn error of metabolism - protein restriction, metabolic formula & weekly blood tests
DNA Results (7/1): DH is NOT a carrier for my genetic disorder!
7/3: Metabolic clinic gave the green light to TTC - holy crap!
Btw... a mango mimosa sounds like the most amazing things ever... I could use one right now.
BFP 12/9/14 EDD 8/18/15
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