After last week's "love yourself lovefest," were you any more forgiving of yourself or proud of something you did? I hope so

This week there's no rhyme or reason.
P is for pride: what makes you feel proud? (In a good way, not like too much pride and you have egg on or face)
M is for mantra: what saying/phrase/lyric(s) help you get through tough times?
S is for surprise: what is something your LO(s) does that makes you stop and do a double-take??
Me: 36, DH: 36
DH's SA = normal
1 tube only wonder
AFC 3-5, AMH 0.30
BFP #1 3/29/11. EDD 12/4/11... Missed m/c 5/9/11. Cytotec fail. D&C 5/17/11.
BFP #2 7/5/11. EDD 3/14/12... Our rainbow Kellen born 3/14/12 via c/s.
BFP #3 5/30/13. EDD 2/8/14... 6wk u/s HB 126. 8wk u/s lost HB. D&C 7/12/13.
BFP #4 2/18/14. EDD 10/30/14... Ruptured ectopic with L tube removed & D&C 3/7/14.
BFP #5 7/27/14. EDD 4/9/15... m/c @ 5w4d.
IVF #1 Oct 2014 - antagonist protocol: 9R, 7M, 5F. 3dt of 3 Grade 2 embies. BFN.
IVF #2 Jan 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle. Converted to IUI #1. BFFN
IVF #2.1 March 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle.
BFP #6 (SUPRISE!) 3/19/15. EDD 11/30/15... CP at 4w2d.
IUI #2: Clomid + Follistim = 3 follies. BFN.
IVF #2.2 May 2015 - horrible response to micro lupron flare protocol: 3R, 3M, 3F. 3dt of 2 Grade 3 embies. BFFN.
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (
@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.

"You are
overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you."
-lastsliverofhope
all AL welcome. TTC #2 for 43 44 months.
Re: PMS Thursday
M- our high school football coach used to have us all repeat this everyday "I am Somebody. I will strive, and I will persevere, and I will win, because I am somebody!" It might sound cheesed, but I think too often we think "this won't work, I suck," that just saying this out loud, even as he challenged us to have this be our first words in the morning- can change your whole outlook on the day. Start of me being a morning person, 18 years ago!
S- DD will pick up her small table (about 18 inches high 2ft wide) and raise it above her chest to bring it in main part of living room yelling "OH BOY OH BOY! PLAYDOUGH!!!" Sets everything up lol. Pic doesn't do it justice, I barely caught her lol
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception:
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you." -lastsliverofhope
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you." -lastsliverofhope
M: "you have to have dirt days in order to get your flowers " Sometimes I still struggle with this when I'm feeling really down and out but it rings true to me. I don't understand why some of this shit happens but I have to believe it's for a greater reward.
S: Earthquake Kellen makes me do a double take every damn day. One day he's ripping furniture off the wall, the next he's relocated the coffee table into the kitchen. And then he's putting his whole arm through the screen door like its Saran Wrap or something. This kid leaves havoc in his wake. I am screwed.
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you." -lastsliverofhope
M- living everyday to the fullest....oh and Everyday I'm Hustlin'
S- DD does so well at cheer. Flying in stunts and being on the verge of getting her back handspring. DH's is when he cooks.
Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017
Spontaneous pregnancy #1
DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
Also, to make you smile I'll share this w you, sometimes dd will take off her shirt and pull her pants up as far as they go. Inevitably she will pretend she is mad (she likes playing emotions) and walk around yelling "Baby Mad!" With fists clinched, she is like a combo of baby hulk and this:
m.youtube.com/watch?v=hmNsvKznMg0
She looks like a little wrestler lmao
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception:
I am so proud of my little family. DH and I have a wonderful relationship and I think we are damn good parents. That is a lot more than I can say for a lot of people I know / am related to.
M is for mantra:
All bodies are good bodies
There is more to my life than this and I am more than this (this usually being infertility)
S is for surprise: Yesterday she saw the "day moon" out in the morning when she was "helping" me hang laundry. She asked me what it was doing. I told her it was hanging out until it was time for it to go to the other side of the world. She said "Can I ride it? Oh! Wait! I need a ticket!" she then proceeded to go pick a blade of grass and say "OK, here's my ticket. Mommy, will you hold me up so I can climb on?"
Also, the kid eats everything that's not nailed down. She's been like that for as long as she's been eating food but I never cease to be amazed at how much she can put away. She moves so much though she's still only in about the 5-10% of weight.
I'm seriously considering entering her in some sort of toddler competitive eating competition.
Momarazzi007 Maybe we should put them in a show together. The strongest baby in the world and the baby who can eat 4 times here weight in scrambled eggs.
TTC #2 since 1/1/13
Spontaneous pregnancy #1
DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception:
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you." -lastsliverofhope
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception: