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Late Term and Child Loss
lexusolsen
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Today
lexusolsen
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Today is Ben's due date.
Our lives are so different than we thought they would be when we first found out we were pregnant. There won't be any shared birthday parties for our two children. No superheroes mixed in with the princess toys. No best buddy pictures with my nephew in the matching baseball outfits my parents bought for their grandsons. No hope that he will marry my bff's dd and officially make us family.
We will never know if his brown, curly hair would have stuck or what color his eyes were. At twenty-seven weeks he was already thirteen and three-quarters inches long and two pounds four ounces.
I will never get my chance at a vbac or have another worry-free pregnancy.
No matter how much time passes, no matter how many other children we go on to have, there will always be a piece of our hearts, a piece of our family, that is missing. The place where Baby Ben should be.
Our lives are so different than we thought they would be when we first found out we were pregnant. There won't be any shared birthday parties for our two children. No superheroes mixed in with the princess toys. No best buddy pictures with my nephew in the matching baseball outfits my parents bought for their grandsons. No hope that he will marry my bff's dd and officially make us family.
We will never know if his brown, curly hair would have stuck or what color his eyes were. At twenty-seven weeks he was already thirteen and three-quarters inches long and two pounds four ounces.
I will never get my chance at a vbac or have another worry-free pregnancy.
No matter how much time passes, no matter how many other children we go on to have, there will always be a piece of our hearts, a piece of our family, that is missing. The place where Baby Ben should be.
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BFP# 1 7/7/12 Beautiful DD born still at 36 weeks 5 days on 3/2/13
Diagnosed with PCOS in 2005. Started Metformin July 2013
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I'm so sorry for your loss and such a tough day. It's not bad enough that we have to experience the loss when it happens but then over and over again afterwards. I hope you have the support you need today- big hugs to you.
BFP #1- 4/2011; DD Brynn born 12/2011
BFP #2- 7/13; EDD- 4/2/14; Lost DS at 20 weeks (11/16/13) due to cord accident
BFP #3- 3/14; EDD- 11/28/14; Lost DD at 15 weeks (6/7/14)- cause unknown
To my angels- I held you every second of your lives and I'll love you every second of mine.
Asher born February 5, 2011.
Baby #2 born sleeping at 20 weeks. May 6, 2014.
first son stillborn 7/20/13 at 39 weeks due to Acute Fatty Liver of Pregnancy
It's a girl! Baby Anna was born August 3, 2014!
Thinking of you and baby Ben today. One of the hardest things about pregnancy loss is the loss of the future. So no matter how many years go by, we never get over it because we're mourning not seeing them go to kindergarten, or graduate high school, have babies of their own. Our rainbow looks a lot like our angel...same facial features, so I always look at her and wonder if this is how our angel would have looked at this age. It sucks, hugs mama.
My Pregnancy/Parenting BLOG TTC since 5/2011, BFP #1 12/3/11, M/C 12/7/11 @ 4wks 2d. Began seeing RE Sep 2012. October 2012 Metformin 1500 mg= ovulation on CD34 BFP#2 11/14/12 9DPO, EDD 7/26/13, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks, our angel born sleeping 3/24/13 @ 22wks 2d. BFP #3 7/4/13 8DPO EDD 3/22/14, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks. started insulin @16 wks. Our rainbow, born 3/19/14 @ 39wks 6d., we're so in love!
I'm so sorry, I wish none of us had to have "those" days.
But I love the garden, it is beautiful!
I'm late on the post, but I did read this on Ben's due date and thought about you guys. I just couldn't post because I remember all the feelings I had when Devon's due date came, and it was overwhelming for me. Thinking of you guys and your sweet Ben. *hugs*
So sorry for your loss of baby Ben. I wish I could take away your pain. I hope each anniversary is a bit easier for you. I have moments of doubt but I truly believe our babies are with us. Wishing you the comfort you need to get you through each day.