April 2014 Moms

I'm having a rough day

Today was my 3rd day back to work. I did fine the first 2 days. But today I have been on the verge of tears a lot.

I live close to work so I have been going home on my lunch break to pump and I get to see my LO because he is being watched at our house while im at work. Well today he happened to be crying when I opened the door so I went over and took him into my arms and as soon as he opened his eyes while crying and saw me he started smiling. He was really content and just kept smiling. He started to get a little fussy so I swaddled him and he fell asleep in my arms. I put him in his RNP and left him with my MIL and went back to work. I started to feel really guilty. He was so happy to see me... He fell asleep in my arms and he was going to wake up and I wouldn't be there. I feel like I am going to miss so much but I can't afford to stay home. Ugh... Rough day.


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BFP 8/9/2013
EDD for our baby boy 4/14/2014
Eli Thomas born 4/22/2014

Re: I'm having a rough day

  • I'm sorry you had a rough day! Think of it this way...do you ever remember your parents leaving you and going to work? Your LO won't remember you leaving, but will remember fun times when you're home!

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  • I like the way @nicole mackenzie‌ said it. He will get more used to your MIL and will calm for them more easily, but right now you know him best and were able to calm him down. It is so nice to have those moments during the day - I work almost an hour from home so I will never see my LO during the work day.

    It can be really hard at first. I cried a lot when I was going back to work after having my DS. Before I had him, I never would have thought I'd have a hard time with it. But I did and one of my friends told me to give it two months so I did and now here I am 8.5 years later and I am so glad I kept working. My DS has never resented me for working and respects that I have a career. He thinks it's cool that I have an office and that my company makes tools that he sees in the store.

    It does get better. There will be rough patches but if you were SAH there would be rough patches with that as well. They would just be different.

     

  • Thanks everyone. I never thought I would have this much trouble either and i was fine until today. I guess I am just extra hormonal today. You guys are right though... I am extremely fortunate to get to see him on my lunch break and not have to have him in daycare.


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    BFP 8/9/2013
    EDD for our baby boy 4/14/2014
    Eli Thomas born 4/22/2014

  • I had this exact same moment today. It is so painful. It does get better, but seriously...so hard. I am also day 3 back at work.
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    Lots of hugs-that is rough :(
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  • The first week was rough for me but do know that it gets better. And I'm sure that you're exhausted too, which doesn't help either. I've been back at work for 3 weeks and being away from DS is hard but that just makes the time spent together on the weekends that much sweeter.

    It was during my first week of work that I realized that I might be suffering from PPD. I saw the doc and she gave me zoloft and that really has helped me, especially with anxiety. Life is much smoother now and we are getting into a routine, which also helps to make life easier too.
  • I just want to say thanks again for all of the kind words. I am feeling more upbeat today. I was at the point yesterday where I was ready to quit my job and we would have to "make it work". But I realize that it is in the best interest of my DS that I continue to work so we can live comfortable and be able to provide for him. I just needed to be talked down. I have a decent full time job and DS gets to be with people who love him while I am at work so why would I change that?


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    BFP 8/9/2013
    EDD for our baby boy 4/14/2014
    Eli Thomas born 4/22/2014

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