1st Trimester

I Don't Want To Blame The Hormones

So I am not going to. I was being a bitch on the forums, and I want to apologize to everyone who has seen what I wrote. I realize now that it came off as pretentious. I am sorry. I don't want to blame hormones. I think I'm going to blame the fact that I quit smoking and drinking coffee, cold turkey, and the fact that I am in a fog of fatigue so I cannot focus or do anything I usually do, like work on my freaking dissertation, on my easily irritated demeanor. 

I have been irrationally emotional lately and extremely defensive for no good reason. I've also been easily irritated. I find myself having difficulty controlling how irritated I can become. I am sure this isn't anything uncommon, I just needed to write it somewhere. It's an awfully new feeling. I usually have excellent control on my emotions but as of late, I feel like I'm turning into a rabid ferret. Or maybe it is because my entire life is about to change and I am absolutely terrified of many different things all at once. For a control freak, it's a major slap in the face. I cannot even control my own body right now and our Baby Veliciraptor (that's what she/he looks like to me right now) is already turning into the most important thing in my life right now. Am I going to have to quit my job? Am I going to have to put off my PhD? Am I going to have to extend my graduation deadline? My MIL has already commented on how it would be selfish of me to keep working on my PhD. I don't think it would be. I already changed my field of study to something safer than conflict zones since finding out I was pregnant.

I know that I wouldn't hesitate to put off my school and work, and that I have the support system in place, but the lack of control of things is freaking me out. 

I am, of course, going to build a bridge and get over it. I just wanted to rant, I suppose, a little. 
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Re: I Don't Want To Blame The Hormones

  • I really wouldn't worry - it's just an internet forum. Besides, lots of people are snippy on here, quite often - it's just the way things are.

    You probably will have to delay your PhD a little bit but probably not by much. There's a lot you can work on while at home. You'll just learn to be more efficient I guess :)


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  • ErzeErze member
    Thank you. I think everything is just suddenly becoming very apparent. 
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    I was trying to make the title a little humorous. =P

    Also, I gave! Two cups of coffee a day. I use to drink, like, three pots of coffee before I found out I was pregnant. At least I get to lower my tolerance?
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  • No it's not you. I got attacked for no reason and there are so many posts like this because people on here a just straight up ignorant.. Let it begin!
  • Becj978 said:
    No it's not you. I got attacked for no reason and there are so many posts like this because people on here a just straight up ignorant.. Let it begin!
    People on here are actually quite knowledgeable and experienced...but you have to be willing to see the limits of your own expertise and listen. Not liking the answer or how it is delivered doesn't negate the facts. I've been fairly patient and cordial with you despite that crazy show, but you're really (immaturely) asking for a showdown by calling people out over nothing.
    J13 May Siggy Challenge: People lacking in common sense raise my blood pressure.
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  • Blah blah blah.. It's all the same people making fun of woman trying to get answers. And yes I am cause thats what you bitches do. You go from post to post attacking people for you're own entertainment. Pathetic ass bitches
  • Bitch* is the correct word for you all. It must suck to be so miserable ;) after all the cursing I've come across and you guys are gonna complain about "bitch" gimme a break!
  • @Kjkarats03 you don't see a problem with people posting threads like this? You guys are causing so many people to leave. Thugging behind their computers is ridiculous. If everyone wants to make fun of people for asking questions, I call every single one of them out if I have to. You guys do it don't ya?
  • Becj978 said:
    @Kjkarats03 you don't see a problem with people posting threads like this? You guys are causing so many people to leave. Thugging behind their computers is ridiculous. If everyone wants to make fun of people for asking questions, I call every single one of them out if I have to. You guys do it don't ya?
    What I see a problem with is hijacking multiple threads, making them about yourself, in an effort to shame people for telling you the truth. Snark and sarcasm happen both in real life and online and yes, sometimes the line gets crossed or it's hard to tell intent and tone. However, you're way too invested in being upset over stuff that really shouldn't have this much of an effect on you. I, along with many other regulars, call it as I see it. That includes when things cross that line into unacceptable behavior. I'm not afraid to tell people if they've crossed that line. So far you've done nothing but ignore good advice, get upset that people called you on some silly stuff, and start bashing everyone you can. 

    Take @wickedsugar's advice from your BOTB thread and log off for the night, calm down, and visit it in the morning if you desire. That's what a rational, mature, adult would do.
    J13 May Siggy Challenge: People lacking in common sense raise my blood pressure.
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    edited June 2014
    Meep. Holy beard of Odin. That escalated quickly. In other news, I slept very well? How is everybody else this morning?
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  • ErzeErze member
    edited June 2014
    She's the one that posted the so-called academic report on morning sickness and miscarriage. I didn't like her when I saw that. Who freaking does that? 

    Edit: Ah. She said she's a psychologist which, based on her posts, I am going to infer that she got her B.S. in psychology, which is why she decided to judge the entire community based on socio-economic status. 
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