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June 2013 Moms
LaBellaVida
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2 BFP *UPDATE*
LaBellaVida
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I really don't know how to feel right now. All I can keeping thinking is I'm not ready for another baby.
I have been overly tired for the last few weeks, and a little ill to my stomach. Smells are starting to get to me, but nothing crazy. I decided to buy a test and I peed on it, but nothing happened. I thought I saw a negative sign, but it was strange nothing happened. Then it dawned on me. ...I had bad aim apparently. I came home last night and was feeling a little nauseous so I decided to test on the same stick. Before I could even pull my pants up, clear as day, dark blue line showed up, positive.
I thought, well I'll test in the morning because maybe that test was wrong because I already tried to pee on it.
Here it is now, I wake up having to pee and I decide to test, again before I can even finish, positive.
I have no idea how far along I am. Last period I had was in January, but prior to that it was Aug. I think the last time we DTD was in April up until recently.... like last week.
I feel scared. I've never experienced a toddler and a baby. I feel like I've cheated Owen, and now I'm gonna have to split my time between him and a new born, and he won't even understand. I'm enjoying him so much, and I'm scared that being sick, pregnant and having a new baby will take up too much of my time, and I'll no longer be able to enjoy him like I feel I should. This will likely be my last pregnancy, and baby and I want to enjoy it, and feel over the moon about it, and I don't.
I know in time I'll be excited, and I'll love my baby, and look back on this and probably regret these feelings.
Anyway- I'm not ready to tell family.
Sorry so long. I'd gif, but I'm mobile.
**UPDATE**
I went in yesterday to get my Hcg levels done. The whole time I was sorta hoping that the test I took were wrong. The Ob nurse called me to inform me that my levels were high enough to get an ultra sound done, she said they were over 132,000. They scheduled an appt for this morning to get am ultrasound, sure enough there is a baby in there. Baby measures 8 weeks 1 day. 169 bpm, and I'm due Jan 26.
I've been able to process this a little bit, and I know I'll be fine. I can feel myself getting excited over this new squish as I'm no longer feeling devastated.
Guess I'll go intro on the January board.
Here's a picture!
I have been overly tired for the last few weeks, and a little ill to my stomach. Smells are starting to get to me, but nothing crazy. I decided to buy a test and I peed on it, but nothing happened. I thought I saw a negative sign, but it was strange nothing happened. Then it dawned on me. ...I had bad aim apparently. I came home last night and was feeling a little nauseous so I decided to test on the same stick. Before I could even pull my pants up, clear as day, dark blue line showed up, positive.
I thought, well I'll test in the morning because maybe that test was wrong because I already tried to pee on it.
Here it is now, I wake up having to pee and I decide to test, again before I can even finish, positive.
I have no idea how far along I am. Last period I had was in January, but prior to that it was Aug. I think the last time we DTD was in April up until recently.... like last week.
I feel scared. I've never experienced a toddler and a baby. I feel like I've cheated Owen, and now I'm gonna have to split my time between him and a new born, and he won't even understand. I'm enjoying him so much, and I'm scared that being sick, pregnant and having a new baby will take up too much of my time, and I'll no longer be able to enjoy him like I feel I should. This will likely be my last pregnancy, and baby and I want to enjoy it, and feel over the moon about it, and I don't.
I know in time I'll be excited, and I'll love my baby, and look back on this and probably regret these feelings.
Anyway- I'm not ready to tell family.
Sorry so long. I'd gif, but I'm mobile.
**UPDATE**
I went in yesterday to get my Hcg levels done. The whole time I was sorta hoping that the test I took were wrong. The Ob nurse called me to inform me that my levels were high enough to get an ultra sound done, she said they were over 132,000. They scheduled an appt for this morning to get am ultrasound, sure enough there is a baby in there. Baby measures 8 weeks 1 day. 169 bpm, and I'm due Jan 26.
I've been able to process this a little bit, and I know I'll be fine. I can feel myself getting excited over this new squish as I'm no longer feeling devastated.
Guess I'll go intro on the January board.
Here's a picture!
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Re: 2 BFP *UPDATE*
Before we had LO I was really torn. I knew I wanted to start my family, but our life situation didn't seem right for it (living in an apartment, still paying off student loans, I couldn't stand my job). I was talking about it to my favorite aunt, and what she said has really stuck with me. "There's never going to be a perfect time to have a baby, but life will be so much more perfect when they are here. "
Hugs sweetie, don't ever feel guilty for feeling your feelings
#Bodymber14 #Bodygate #itsMillerTime
Bradley 05-04-11 & Tyler 06-18-13
K- born 7/5/2011
G- born 6/24/2013
This will be my 4th. I've got older kids, ages 14 and 7 (8 by the time this lo comes) then I have Owen, who will be 19 months older then this lo, if I'm already 2+ months along.
I've never taken care of a toddler and a baby. I've never had 2 in diapers. I've never been at home all day taking care of 2 that need all my attention, my older ones are out with friends or playing with each other. It's all uncharted territory in a sense. Financially I'm kinda thankful, I have everything I'll need basically, aside from a new car seat, and a bigger stroller.
I had a ugly cry this morning, and I do feel a
little better after it. I an weaning Owen from nursing now, and I was really looking forward for the next year to work on myself and get back into shape.
In time I know these will be guilty feelings, it's just a shock is all.
Thanks for all your encouraging words.
my read shelf:
DS born 6/2013
#Bodymber14 #Bodygate #itsMillerTime
Bradley 05-04-11 & Tyler 06-18-13
I'm not new. I just hate The Bump.
BTW, when I take at home pregnancy tests, I pee in a Dixie cup so I don't worry about if I hit the stick I cannot see. For what it's worth.
Happy birthday to your lo come Sunday!