I don't know where to begin. I joined this group having no idea what I would get from it. It turns out that I got most of my "normalcy" during the pregnancy from you ladies and my involvement here. Even on the hard days I could come here and just forget that my outcome would be different from yours, we were all just pregnant women coming together to share our experiences.
After I learned about Madeleine's diagnosis I almost backed out, suddenly feeling like my pregnancy didn't count, but you all made me feel the exact opposite. So much so that it actually became easier for me to express myself (in the small doses that I could) with you rather than the people I saw on a daily basis.
I haven't read them all yet because I am saving them for the tough days ahead during my time off. But your kind words have been helping me through this loss, you are all truly amazing women and I have no doubt you are all going to be amazing mommies to these precious July babies. I continue to check back to see who has been given their gifts, and it's exciting to see the birth thread growing.
@jensavicci you are amazing for establishing the stay positive thread for me. You are so selfless and I'll never know how to repay you. Those words are carrying me through this.
I wanted nothing more than to have the chance to see my baby girl. I can't believe I had 4 days, that I got to bring her home, I got to feed her, burp her, bathe her, change her tiny diaper, hold her, rock her to sleep, and kiss her beautiful face. I never dreamed I would get to do all of that with her.
It was such a gift from her and I can't help but think she wanted all of those experiences with me just as badly as I wanted to have that with her.
People have asked with hesitation if we are going to try again. DH and I have been grieving since February, and we waited for months for the inevitable, but our waiting is over. We are absolutely going to try again, as soon as I get the okay from my midwife. Madeleine will always be our perfect angel, and we look forward to telling our future children all about her.
Thanks again for being there for me this whole time. I will probably pop in from time to time to read your birth stories, there are so many of you who I'm especially excited to read about. I love you ladies! I hope to see some of you in a future bmb.
Re: SS/AW Overwhelmed- thank you July '14
Much love to you and I pray that your next miracle is on the way. XOXOXO
I still remember your kind words for me when I posted about my husband leaving for deployment- it meant so much to me. I've seen you leave such words for others time and time again.
No matter what was going on, I was always amazed by the support and care that you would offer, regardless of what you were going through. You are a very unique and special woman.
I hope the hard days become less and less for you, and if there's ever a day where you need an extra encouraging word- tell us! Know that we have soooo many for you and that you deserve them all!
I know you and I are practically strangers, at least outside of this little community of July moms-to-be, but I truly believe your story and strength will stay with me for years to come. I wish you and your husband all the best, especially during this time of healing. Many prayers and well wishes for your future, and the beautiful experiences yet to come.
Hugs, love and always positivity!
I'm so thankful for those 4 precious days with Madeline. It makes my heart happy how she needed her mama as much as you needed her! I also am very happy for you as you know you want to try for a sibling for Madeline. All of your other babies will have big shoes to fill :-)
God bless you and your strength.
You are such an inspiration - I've thought about you a lot in the last few weeks and wish nothing but the very best for you and your family. Thank you for the updates and God bless you and your family on the next chapters in your lives. What a beautiful baby girl you brought into this world and what a beautiful mommy you are. Thanks for sharing it with us Bora.