I have been scheduled for growth ultrasounds because of a cord abnormality and they want to make sure the baby is getting the nutrients she needs to grow. Well our first scan was 3 weeks ago at 27 weeks. The tech told me she estimated 2 lbs 2 oz, which was "a little below normal." But yesterday my doctor clarified that she is actually only in the 14th percentile and at the 10th percentile they diagnose IUGR. I have another scan on Tuesday, so I am just hoping she has made some progress or at least stayed the same!
As I get to the end of this pregnancy, with timing similar to my loss last year, I feel really scared. I have this feeling like she could die at any moment in there. When I wake up at night, I can't go back to sleep for hours because I have to obsessively monitor every movement and make sure she is still alive. It is so hard!
I also wonder - will I even be able to relax when she is here? I can imagine myself hovering over her crib making sure she is breathing. I hope when she is born safely I will feel better....When will it ever end?
Thanks for listening!
**Update**
Well our official ultrasound isn't until tomorrow morning, but I spent Sunday night and today in L&D and we got a couple ultrasounds which confirm she is just over 3 lbs - still around 15th or 16th percentile. She's looking good!
Unfortunately, on Sunday night I went in with contractions every 1-2 minutes. The good news is baby's heartrate was awesome through them all and they were able to stop contractions with magnesium sulfate. I'm dilated 2 cm and hoping to stay that was for a few weeks. Our first "goal" is 34 weeks now, but hopefully closer to 37. Yikes!
first son stillborn 7/20/13 at 39 weeks due to Acute Fatty Liver of Pregnancy
It's a girl! Baby Anna was born August 3, 2014!
Re: more fear and worry... *Updated*
US (with RE) 3/24/2014 (two healthy HB), US (with OB) 3/31/2014 (three healthy heartbeats)
BFP#2: 10/22/14 | (beta #1 75, beta # 2 219) | EDD 7/3/15 ~*Please be our RAINBOW*~
January PAL siggie challenge; Good advice:
Our neighbors just had a little guy early due to IUGR/small gestational age and he is a little cutie! I guess I will have to think positively and look forward to meeting this little lady sooner than 10 weeks from now.
first son stillborn 7/20/13 at 39 weeks due to Acute Fatty Liver of Pregnancy
It's a girl! Baby Anna was born August 3, 2014!
The first couple weeks were really hard, LO slept in her crib from day one for a variety of reasons (as opposed to being in our room) and I absolutely dreaded bed time. I hated leaving her for the night, terrified she would quit breathing. I could barely sleep, I'd constantly wake up and check the monitor, sometimes just staring at it, waiting to see her move and if she didn't I'd get up and check on her.
Things got better though, by about 3-4 weeks I started to relax more. I could sleep better at night. She's almost three months now and things are much better. I still worry but I think it's mostly a normal amount. I look forward to bed time so I can have some quiet me time. Good luck, and many T&Ps for the rest of your pregnancy.
My Pregnancy/Parenting BLOG TTC since 5/2011, BFP #1 12/3/11, M/C 12/7/11 @ 4wks 2d. Began seeing RE Sep 2012. October 2012 Metformin 1500 mg= ovulation on CD34 BFP#2 11/14/12 9DPO, EDD 7/26/13, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks, our angel born sleeping 3/24/13 @ 22wks 2d. BFP #3 7/4/13 8DPO EDD 3/22/14, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks. started insulin @16 wks. Our rainbow, born 3/19/14 @ 39wks 6d., we're so in love!
BFP#1: 2/2/13 ~ exact m/c date unknown but around 3/20 at 10 weeks ~ diagnosed with PMP ~ D&C on 4/5 ~ TTA for at least 1 year due to PMP ~ cleared to TTC 1/14
BFP#2: 2/7/14 ~ m/c 2/20/14 ~ possibly due to chemical pregnancy ~ TG no D&C is needed
Surprise BFP#3: 4/4/14 ~ super duper extra happy (and nervous) about this one - EDD 12/9/14!!!
John Joseph was born on 12/12/14 at 7 lbs. 11 oz. He is the most beautiful rainbow baby we could have wished for!
first son stillborn 7/20/13 at 39 weeks due to Acute Fatty Liver of Pregnancy
It's a girl! Baby Anna was born August 3, 2014!