Today's PgAL Brain Freakout

Izzy0927 · June 2014

So after my ultrasound yesterday I talked to one of the providers abut my symptoms and she said that they should be reassuring to me. Now since I've gotten home, I feel like my symptoms have been fading. My boobs don't hurt quite as much today, I don't feel as queasy, and I'm no longer constipated. I can't help but feel like it's all over. I don't know if it's all in my head or what. The aftermath of this loss is the hardest thing I've ever experienced- I can't even trust my own brain anymore.

Has anyone else experienced this?

creativesoul83 · June 2014

Yes, it is the worst. I poked squeezed pushed on my boobs daily until I realized that symptom was gone. I have also not really been constipated mainly because they put me on thyroid meds. Symptoms truly come and go.I bought a doppler to reassure me every other day there is a heartbeat in there.

It sucks having pgal brain. until I hold this baby turn will I know this is happening. (((hhugs))) >:D< It sounds like ultrasound looked good but the brain is strong and can mess with you. It is hard to stay positive. I know but stress isn't good so we have to hold our heads up and keep going til they give us a reason not to.

kateitho · June 2014

I'll be honest.... I ordered a case of HPTs from dollartree.com and peed on one almost every day until I could hear my LO on my Doppler. PgAL brain is soooooo hard! We all find our way of coping, and I hope you find a less crazy way than I did.

taberbtb · June 2014

PGAL brain just flat out sucks and unfortunately it just something we AL are stuck struggling with. I just constantly remind myself that today I pregnant until somebody tells me otherwise. I can only hope that this LO is going to be my rainbow but I can't predict what will happen so I want to enjoy every minute I have him/her for as long as that may be and I cross everything that this will be my take home baby.

fallfever · June 2014

I have been so sick since 5.5 weeks but I still have moments where I will feel totally normal-symptom free. Then it comes back. Hang in there. I'd be lying if I said I didn't freak out each time my symptoms seemed to fade. PgAL brain is so crappy.

Izzy0927 · June 2014

Thanks for all your wise and comforting words. It is such a comfort to know there are people who understand. I'll be eagerly awaiting the moment that breast pain comes back- words I never thought I'd say!

I'm heading to a Red Sox game now, which I thought about not going to. But I'm thinking it might be the best way to get out of my brain for a little while. Just gotta keep busy and distract myself I think.

jess123456 · June 2014

Hugs to you. I promise you that symptoms do come and go. I remember when I vomited for the first time this pregnancy I was very excited (such a sick and twisted brain but I think it's common in being PGAL) and then I didn't for a while and then it came back. It's hard being pregnant after loss but please know that you aren't alone. Have a blast at the game.

mmsweeney1 · June 2014

I think you're right about distracting yourself and keeping busy. It's way easier said than done but you can't torture yourself with worry. Sorry pgal brain is being rough on you!

FishyMom · June 2014

I am so sorry you are dealing with this. I completely understand. Know that symptoms can come and go and the PGAL brain makes that fact so much worse. I completely love having nausea in the first tri because of that reason and hated when it went away. Hang in there, I'll send some t&p's your way. Hope you had fun at the Sox game!

arschm02 · June 2014

@Izzy0927 our dates of BFPs and MMC are almost exactly the same (off by about 2 weeks). I completely understand where you're coming from. I have been hyper vigilant about my symptoms since I got my BFP. Then they'll go away for a few hours and then come back. But the second they disappear I'm in freak out mode again. Unfortunately POAS doesn't give me any reassurance as I got positives long after my baby died and two weeks after my d&c. I just try to remember that each pregnancy is different and my symptoms will be different as well. They'll come and go and I try to calm myself down and have some faith when they are no longer there. Here's to hoping those horribly annoying pregnancy symptoms return to you for the next 8 months.

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