I don't even know how to begin this post. As some of you may recollect I had some complications in my colon. Surgery was a major risk and I was hoping to go try alternative treatment.
Well here I am across the globe in India where we were to begin my treatment today. The Dr ordered an MRI to better understand what's going on and the results were very disappointing. He found two major abcesses which make even alternative treatment in India very complex. I don't want to dwell into more details here but I'm heartbroken, guilty and very very upset. I was desperate for treatment as the pain had been excruciating. I decided to fly down here after my surgeon in NY strongly recommended it as well. I mostly feel guilty as I did not want LO to be away from his home for so long. Initially we expected 6 weeks of treatment time but now we may have to delay for god knows how long.
I know I can vaccinate him here and he will be fine in the grand scheme of things but I just feel so heartbroken and guilty of putting my baby through adjusting with do many things because of my health. Sorry ladies but I really need T&Ps that this is not what it seems and I am able to heal soon. I need to heal for the sake of my child but it just seems to get worse and worse.
Re: Heartbroken and need T&Ps (sorry long)
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That sounds so painful. You are being so brave. Please don't feel guilty.
I hope, while more complicated than anticipated, whatever treatment route you're taking that you get relief soon.
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You're a great mama because you are doing everything you can to get well. Sending you lots of healing thoughts.
Thank you for your T&Ps. LOs enjoying the Mumbai heat so I'll look at him and feel happy. Things could have been much much worse but they are not.