Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss

I feel like...

I feel like I was in the game a few days ago and could participate in anything, but now, after the miscarriage I feel like the other kids took the ball and went home and I'm just sitting on the sidewalk waiting all alone. I don't even feel like I belong anywhere.

I look at other tickers and messages and think that will never be me. I'll never have to sign up for a class or order furniture or even hear a heartbeat. 

We are traveling by train tonight to visit my husband's brother and sister in law and their 3 kids and their friends who have little kids/toddlers/babies.

I can barely get the energy to type right now, let alone socialize with anyone.

 

Re: I feel like...

  • I am sorry for your loss and for the way you are feeling right now.   You are not alone - this sounds a lot like how I felt a few weeks ago.  {{hugs}} and I wish you strength in the next few days.
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  • ((hugs)) it's so hard. give yourself permission to excuse yourself from the visit if you need to.
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  • I am sorry.

    But believe me, you are not alone.  I only lost Harpie 5 weeks ago & all the girls I was pregnant with are having their big u/s, showing off their bumps in front of Christmas trees, & starting their nurseries.  I am so happy for them, but I hate not being a part of it.  5 weeks hasn't been enough time for me to wrap my head around it yet.

  • I wrote last night about how alone I feel and how scared I am about my dream of having children.  I am sorry that you are feeling similar.  It is sad and scary.  I am just trying to move forward through it.  GL and I hope the visit goes well.  Make time for yourself if you need it.
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  • I am so sorry!  I know exactly how you feel.  I was supposed to have my u/s at 8 this morning.  It sucks and I don't feel like I will ever get the experience of being pregnant and actually carrying the baby to term.

    We are going to a friends house tonight for dinner who has a newborn and I know it will be so hard then in a few weeks we are going to visit my brother in law and his wife who is 22 weeks along.  It's so hard to feel the way I do but I don't know how to feel any different right now. 

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