My BFF and I went to see Maleficent at the drive-in last night. Great movie, beautiful night, but we had to keep the windows closed in her car because the parents on both sides of us were chain smoking the whole night. I mean, really? I understand that it's an outdoor venue. And I even get wanting to smoke and can tolerate some second hand for a few minutes while someone gets their fix if I have to. I try not to be judgy about vices (that's a long discussion for another day). I get it. But there was at least one cigarette burning on each side of us the entire 90 minute movie. Have SOME self control. Oh well, it was that or dealing with obnoxious teens at the inside movie theater. Smoke is the lesser of two annoyances.
@annibes I walked past some smokers over the weekend and choked, I can't handle it. I used to be around smoke a lot, and would get sick, now I can't at all, I'd of have to of left- give me teenagers I can rip into anyday!
Side eying- all the sadness and bad luck lately. Here is to a fresh week and some positive events (and maybe even a test or two)
January 2007- Stop BCP! Let's DO this! June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS! January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world! November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs) April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs. FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP BABY BOYVINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you! Conception: Potato Love!
I love DH. But major side eye for being a true male this weekend. Its his friends bachelor party and he's been out every single night, after spraying massive amounts of cologne on. All to end with a day party at the Hard Rock pool (here in SD, not Vegas), which Im sure is scantily clad with drunken 21 year old girls. Not mad, just highly annoyed. You're 36 sweetie, not 25.
Me: 38 DH: 36
Married: July 21, 2013
TTC#1 (between us): June/July 2013
DX: MFI (low count and motility)
Charting/OPK/CBFM July 2013-present
1st RE Visit: January 2014
Cycling:
March 2014- 75iu follistim + trigger + progesterone + IUI = BFN and OHSS
(8 million post wash 47% motility, 18mm/17mm/16mm/16mm/14mm follies)
April/May 2014- Benched due to cysts/enlarged ovaries
@annibes, that is exactly why DH won't go to the drive in with me during warmer months. He only wants to go when it's cold and we will leave the windows up anyway.
My side-eye is for one of my really good friends who I think is making a questionable decision. She and her husband live out here in CA where his family is and they rent a home from his parents (something I didn't think they should do in the first place, but whatev). Well, she's so sick of being under his parents thumb that they have just decided to move to North Carolina where her dad and stepmom live and… get this! Are going to move in with them! Hello! If you don't want to be living under scrutiny of your in-laws, moving in with your parents is only trading one problem for another! I love them and their three sweet boys, and will miss them dearly, but I just don't think this is the best decision for them. Whatever, I guess I'm mostly upset because she's leaving and I'll miss my friend. But, seriously?
FTR, I have been nothing but supportive to her face. I've only mentioned my concern to DH and you guys, so I'm not being a completely terrible friend.
Happily Mrs. C
start ttc #1 in Jan 2009
dx PCOS in May 2010, begin metformin
Two failed clomid cycles (made lining too thin)
Started acupuncture while saving for IVF in Sept 2011
Add herbal infusions to the mix in Dec 2011
Hoping holistic approach works!!!
BFP on April 2012 at 11dpo
Meepy Man born on Jan 2013 - Hip Hip Hurray!
Ready to start ttc #2 April 2013, but plan to be an extended BF'er
Back on metformin Aug 2013
Restart herbal infusions Sept 2013 - currently drinking nettle, oatstraw,and red raspberry leaf
DS weaned in April 2014
Taking a break from herbs and just riding the healthy train.
Planning medicated cycle end of summer. FX I get KU before then!!!
I'm side eyeing my friend who announced her pg at 10 wks to me in a group email. And then when I got the guts to tell her nicely that I was hurt by how nonchalant she did it esp knowing all my IF issues of late she basically told me she had done research how to tell me and sorry she apparently picked the wrong way. Like it's my fault I'm being sensitive.
I'm probably being sensitive. But whatever. I'm allowed to be bitch.
BFP #4 2/18/14. EDD 10/30/14... Ruptured ectopic with L tube removed & D&C 3/7/14.
BFP #5 7/27/14. EDD 4/9/15... m/c @ 5w4d.
IVF #1 Oct 2014 - antagonist protocol: 9R, 7M, 5F. 3dt of 3 Grade 2 embies. BFN.
IVF #2 Jan 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle. Converted to IUI #1. BFFN
IVF #2.1 March 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle.
BFP #6 (SUPRISE!) 3/19/15. EDD 11/30/15... CP at 4w2d.
IUI #2: Clomid + Follistim = 3 follies. BFN.
IVF #2.2 May 2015 - horrible response to micro lupron flare protocol: 3R, 3M, 3F. 3dt of 2 Grade 3 embies. BFFN.
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are
overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you."
-lastsliverofhope
I am side eyeing this month. I am in my due date month and THREE other people were due near me, and the births have begun.
Granted, I am extremely happy for them all, I mean, no one deserves a baby less than I do because I can't get KTFU... My friend had a really rough pregnancy and I am just thankful her son is healthy and that she is healthy and everything went ok, she had an emergency C-section last night due to her placenta being bad... He is 3 weeks early, but strong and healthy! My BEST friend's wife is due any time now too, and then my sister in law at the end of the month...
I am really excited, its just hard for me to process. Since I should be having my boys this month too, but I am never going to hold them, see them, hear them... I have been "ok" until I realized how close I am to what "should have been."
On a bitchier note, I am side eying a girl I have known for YEARS and years and we used to be really close, until she blatantly told me ON FB in front of the whole world, that my loss isn't anywhere near as significant as someone who has had a still birth. Which was just a low blow. To some my loss may not matter. But it hurt me deeper than I have EVER been hurt, and her comment, twisted that dagger just a bit more...
sorry this turned into a rant! but thanks for reading if you made it this far
@SassFrass eff her and delete her. Any loss is heartbreaking- how date she try to compare it so openly and horribly.
January 2007- Stop BCP! Let's DO this! June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS! January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world! November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs) April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs. FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP BABY BOYVINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you! Conception: Potato Love!
I was FURIOUS! It all started because I posted something from Return to Zero, and she was all, I have to disagree would you have rather gone full term and delivered a stillborn... bitch, either way my baby died! f*ck you! I was and still am pissed and hurt by her comments. Then she apologized via text, and THEN posted on her wall STILL trying to prove me wrong!
Photo her text and post it under her contradictory comment followed by comment "unfriended, don't need this shit" @SassFrass
January 2007- Stop BCP! Let's DO this! June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS! January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world! November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs) April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs. FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP BABY BOYVINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you! Conception: Potato Love!
I deleted her! plus/and/also, went to look for that post, and now its magically gone, along with her comments she made on my original post, and it was before I unfriended her so she got rid of her looking like a dick! some people!
Vag punch. You're better off without her, hopefully her jackassery is just a memory
January 2007- Stop BCP! Let's DO this! June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS! January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world! November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs) April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs. FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP BABY BOYVINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you! Conception: Potato Love!
Re: Side Eye Weekend
Side eying- all the sadness and bad luck lately. Here is to a fresh week and some positive events (and maybe even a test or two)
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception:
I'm probably being sensitive. But whatever. I'm allowed to be bitch.
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you." -lastsliverofhope
Granted, I am extremely happy for them all, I mean, no one deserves a baby less than I do because I can't get KTFU... My friend had a really rough pregnancy and I am just thankful her son is healthy and that she is healthy and everything went ok, she had an emergency C-section last night due to her placenta being bad... He is 3 weeks early, but strong and healthy! My BEST friend's wife is due any time now too, and then my sister in law at the end of the month...
I am really excited, its just hard for me to process. Since I should be having my boys this month too, but I am never going to hold them, see them, hear them... I have been "ok" until I realized how close I am to what "should have been."
On a bitchier note, I am side eying a girl I have known for YEARS and years and we used to be really close, until she blatantly told me ON FB in front of the whole world, that my loss isn't anywhere near as significant as someone who has had a still birth. Which was just a low blow. To some my loss may not matter. But it hurt me deeper than I have EVER been hurt, and her comment, twisted that dagger just a bit more...
sorry this turned into a rant! but thanks for reading if you made it this far
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception:
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception:
June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS.
November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS! February 2011- lost twin. BS.
SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
BABY BOY VINCENT!
We can't wait to meet you!
Conception: