I don't know why but I'm not feeling good about this cycle. Felt much more positive last cycle when I didn't even know if I ovulated or if timing was good. I feel like I should relax more but can't stop thinking about TFAS. I feel terrible because I know people in real life struggling for #1. I think a combination if DD growing up and knowing she took 2 years is getting me a bit down. Was hoping for two more but am 32. Would be happy with another and then if baby number three comes along naturally would be happy but don't think we will use assistance for number 3. But first need to TTC #2. Also knowing that others in family are TTC and waiting for announcement. I should not feel like this. I should be happy that I have DD already (I am ecstatic) but also longing for another baby. I know this us a jumble of words so sorry just needed a place to vent. I need to mentally prepare myself for another long TTC journey and in meantime not obsess and concentrate on DD. Thanks for letting me vent. Welcome any words of advice encouragement or shunning for posting this. Hopefully I will feel better once I can confirm I am actually ovulating again while weaning. But then I'm scared that I won't get pregnant and will be disappointed. Until now I can always say well maybe I'm not pregnant because I am not ovulating yet. Ok will stop now. Thanks again for this venting and jumble of words.
me = 32 DH = 33
TFAS
BFP2 august 2014 ended in m/c .... Gone but not forgotten....forever in my heart!
Slight MFI low count, morph, mobility
Re: Feeling down
me = 32 DH = 33
TFAS
BFP2 august 2014 ended in m/c .... Gone but not forgotten....forever in my heart!Slight MFI low count, morph, mobility
That's very true. I'm just not sure how long each will take.
me = 32 DH = 33
TFAS
BFP2 august 2014 ended in m/c .... Gone but not forgotten....forever in my heart!Slight MFI low count, morph, mobility
***TW***
1/14 - 2/17 - BFN's
Rx: Unexplained infertility - All tests normal and/or good
3/17: IUI #1 - BFP EDD: 12/7/17
Remember to validate your feelings. It's okay to be sad about your daughter growing up. It's okay to want another without taking away from the gratitude you have for her. You can feel both. You can also be concerned about your own struggles without taking away from the fact that others are struggling too. Your fears and struggles are just as real.
I hope you get some answers one way or another soon. It's hard to be in limbo.
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M/MC at 9w4d 5/23/12.
DS1- 8/2013
DS2- 11/2015 (Second round IUI)
DD- 9/2017
Baby #4 Due 5/10/20 TEAM GREEN
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@NachoBelley...I was just trying to be funny which didn't translate well this time. A fail on my part. Where is that Homer Simpson backing into a hedge gif when you need it?
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Haha My sarcasm/wit skills fall drastically after 11pm. If I have to think about it too hard I probably shouldn't post!
Haha My sarcasm/wit skills fall drastically after 11pm. If I have to think about it too hard I probably shouldn't post!
maybe we should start "italicizing" for sarcasm font...
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Me thinks this would be a good idea.
me = 32 DH = 33
TFAS
BFP2 august 2014 ended in m/c .... Gone but not forgotten....forever in my heart!Slight MFI low count, morph, mobility
Team Purple!!!!
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PCOS | Anovulatory | Metformin + Letrozole
After four months in 2013, we got pregnant with DD2 who we lost this January. Three days before my birthday and exactly five months until my EDD. So I've waited for this baby for much longer than I anticipated. I've learned a lot in the process. It's frustrating, annoying, and gives me a lot of anxiety. At the end of the day, I have to remember I can give it my best shot each month, but it's really out of my control. That is what keeps me going. In the meantime, I find joy knowing I can still drink alcohol.
ETA: DD1 will be 7 in november. I used to joke how our kids would be 10 years apart. It's becoming a reality.