Depression/ Anxiety Check-In *5/23/14*

Re: Depression/ Anxiety Check-In *5/23/14*

• notthecheat member

  May 2014

  A little down this week. I am an introverted homebody and I hate that about myself. Combined with chronic fatigue and a full time job, I feel like the most boring mom ever and I wish I could give my little girl so much more. MIL is the opposite of me and when she watches Michelle she has been taking her lots of different places and doing so many different things. I am so glad Michelle gets to experience all that, but it makes me feel like a terrible mom. Michelle has also learned to start crying really loud really quickly whenever she needs something, and even though she is OK, just hearing that awful cry makes my heart just break. I wish I had more energy and had more time to spend with her.

  

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• notthecheat member

  May 2014

  @Soozerella‌ I'm sorry about the therapy I feel like mental health treatment is always a lot harder to get that it should be.
  
  The second part of your post pretty much describes me too. It sucks I'm sorry

  

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• NicoleStephane member

  May 2014

  I'm sorry you ladies are going through this, too.  I wouldn't wish depression and/or anxiety on anyone. My anxiety has been horrible lately; I can't sit still, and sometimes feel hopeless; like I will never feel better.  I feel bad for my DD because she wants me alllll the time, and most of it I feel debilitated.   

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• fauxvegan member

  May 2014

  @sventurarn‌ it's okay if you like to stay home with LO. She just needs you to play with her, love on her, and talk to her. If you really want to do something else just plan it well ahead of time as it can be difficult to get out of the house with baby. @Soozerella‌ I'm sorry your therapist isn't available to you until July. I hope someone cancels so you can get in sooner.

  
  

  
  

  
  

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• fauxvegan member

  May 2014

  @emilysalley‌ glad things are going well! Taking baby breaks are very helpful! @NicoleStephane‌ sorry about what you're going through. I hope you are getting the help you need to overcome the anxiety.

  
  

  
  

  
  

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• readyornot12345 member

  May 2014

  I am so tired of feeling depresses and anxious. I have seen a dr and therapist and both have told me I just have anxiety and not post partum. Years ago I tried various meds and nothing worked and I got better over time. This time seems worse and I don't know what to do since my body doesn't do well on meds. I'm just so tired of feeling doom and like my life is over and everyday lately has been a struggle.

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• Ashncal2012 member

  May 2014

  I've never posted in this thread and haven't been an active poster on the bump, but I'd like to join this check in from now on if that's ok?
  
   I have two sons, DS1 is almost 2 and DS2 was born on December 19th. I had undiagnosed PPD with DS1 and have had PP anxiety this time, which I'm just realizing may need medication.
  
  I just want to say that I can empathize with the thoughts of doom and day dreaming, and it just feels so damn lonely. I feel like a jerk even saying that because logically I know I'm blessed to have my little boys. 
  Anyway, I hope I'm not intruding, and I'm glad I'm not the only one in this boat.
  
  xo
  

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• readyornot12345 member

  May 2014

  Of course you are not intruding! I am sorry you are having a hard time as well. Since this seems so common after having a baby it makes me think it has to be a hormonal thing where exerything gets thrown out of wack. Hopefully once hormones settle down we will all feel better or whatever else we need to do to get there, therapy, meds, exercise, vitamins, or just plain old time.

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• notthecheat member

  May 2014

  riv06marce said:

  @emilysalley‌ glad things are going well! Taking baby breaks are very helpful!
  
  @NicoleStephane‌ sorry about what you're going through. I hope you are getting the help you need to overcome the anxiety.

  This. @riv06marce‌ you always say what I'm thinking! How are you doing? Things still looking up?
  

  

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• notthecheat member

  May 2014

  @mrssturm45‌ YGEM glad things are still good with H!
  
  @cepayseur‌ I'm sorry things are so stressful. Is there any way you can afford a night off with just your H? Just to relax and enjoy the moment, you don't even have to talk about things if it will lead to arguing. It is important to spend quality time together! Im sure its difficult tho. My H and I are super busy and I feel disconnected too, even though we're getting along.

  

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• notthecheat member

  May 2014

  @Heaven802002‌ hang in there! My experience with antidepressants has been that they take a loooong time to start working, and it was some trial and error to get the right meds and dose. I wish there was a better way.
  
  @readyornot12345‌ I'm sorry you're not getting helpful treatment. If you're telling the Dr. how you feel and they're dismissing you or not trying to help you should look for another one who can. No one should have to feel like that.

  

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• notthecheat member

  May 2014

  @Ashncal2012‌ Welcome! That's exactly what I was feeling too before I got treatment. I felt horrible all the time and sad and worthless, and I felt like I didn't even deserve to feel so bad because I had such a great life and so many things to be grateful for and happy about. So for awhile I felt like I shouldn't deserve to get treatment if I didn't deserve to be upset. I let it get to the breaking point before I did something. I now think this is a common thing for people with anxiety and depression. You have to realize it is a medical condition that warrants treatment. You're not a jerk, because you ARE thankful for what you have! You can be grateful and still depressed/anxious all the time. You owe it to yourself and your loved ones to get the help you need. It sounds so cliche but realizing you have a condition IS half the battle, and now you are able to do something about it.
  
  I hope you are able to bring this to the attention of your Dr. and that he or she can get you started on the appropriate treatment. It is not an easy journey, but it is worth it. YOU are worth it!

  

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• NicoleStephane member

  May 2014

  sventurarn  I have regular appointments with my therapist and psychiatrist; I am hoping between the two, they can figure something out with my meds.  Been feeling a little better this past week.  I hope you, and the rest of you girlies, are feeling good!!!!
  

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• NicoleStephane member

  May 2014

   @emilysalley‌, Yep, on Celexa and Abilify (that was just added).  I have my two Drs. that I see about every other week, but it's basically a "feel sorry for myself" hour-long appointment.  

  
  

  @mrssturm45‌ Anxiety is the worst!  And it's so frustrating because DH doesn't really understand it.  He sympathizes and tries to help more with DD.
  

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• fauxvegan member

  May 2014

  sventurarn said:

  @emilysalley‌ glad things are going well! Taking baby breaks are very helpful! @NicoleStephane‌ sorry about what you're going through. I hope you are getting the help you need to overcome the anxiety.

  This. @riv06marce‌ you always say what I'm thinking! How are you doing? Things still looking up?

  
  Haha! I guess great minds think alike I've been doing a lot better. My decision to stay completely out of my parents' business has truly made a difference. I ignore what my mom tells me about my dad and I am treating them as just my parents, not as a couple. It also helps that I am completely focusing on my girls. DH helps too; he is an amazing man. Thank you for asking!

  
  

  
  

  
  

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