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TTC After a Loss
rslh10
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**living child mentioned** Lengthy Intro for a super lurker
rslh10
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Hi Everyone!
I've been a part of the knot/nest/bump for nearly 10 years, always lurking and finally posting a little when I had my DS in 2011. I have since erased that account and have chose to start a new one due to privacy issues I had with it. I'll start with my introduction.
I'm 28, have a healthy 3 year old DS who came 6 weeks early by emergency c-section due to preeclampsia. He was a little jaundice but otherwise healthy as a horse weighing in at 6.9oz. Fast forward to August of last year, DH and I decided that we wanted to start trying for a second child. Each month would go by and I would get a BFN, but end up with bad clots around AF time, but this never happened to me before having my son. We tried for 6 months before I told DH that I knew in my heart something was wrong because we had zero problems getting pregnant before. I made an appointment with my OB, who dismissed me and said that she doesn't do blood work until couples have been trying for a year and a half, and then proceeded to tell me that I should just "relax", and just "let it happen"... If I had one more person tell me that I was going to scream. I knew something wasn't right. t went home and told DH what the OB said, and told him I was seeking a second opinion. I made an appointment with a Nurse Practitioner and I finally felt like someone was listening to me. She drew blood at my first appointment after I told her about the clots, cramping, and a little bit of hair loss I was having. When my blood work came back I was absolutely floored when she told me she ran a test called AMH, and that mine was pretty low for my age. It came back at .58, when it should be 2.5-3. She said that she couldn't tell me the quality of my eggs, but that I had very low egg reserve, and she recommended we didn't waste any cycles and start trying with medication asap. She set me up on Clomid and a trigger for the following cycle. I was monitored via U/S and everything looked, so she gave me the go ahead to trigger and get busy. DH and I didn't feel like it was the cycle because a lot of issues had come up during our bd time and we only could get 2 times in, all before O though.
On May 2nd (12 dpo) I tested and got a BFN. I thought I was out this cycle, and got bummed. The next day I noticed a few of the symptoms ( frequent urination, tender nipples) and thought ah what the hell...Tested at 7pm on 13 dpo and got a very very faint positive on a dollar general test. A FRER didn't even pick it up. The next day I kept testing and it got darker, but barely. I had my hcg drawn and it was low from the beginning. 14 dpo was 29, 16 dpo was 55, and 21 dpo was 277 and my Dr said she didn't want to run any more hcg and would just see me May 20th for a 6 week ultrasound. We were happy, but I felt concerned even with my Dr and DH trying to convince me that it was all going to be okay because the #'s were doubling like they should be. Friday the 16th I had some brown blood while wiping and freaked out. I called the on call physician who told me to head to the ER if it increased or didn't subside within an hour. The bleeding stopped all together about 45 minutes later. Sunday night I started cramping at about 5pm. When my DH came home from work at 10, I got out of bed to use the restroom and put my progesterone in, and as I wiped it was bright red. I started to cry immediately and told him we needed to go to the ER.
When we arrived they checked my hcg, did a pelvic exam, and tried to cheer me up. My HCG had gone down to 234. I don't think it ever went up past my last weeks hcg draw of 277 to be honest. The ER Dr said that my cervix was still closed, so that was a good sign, but that she wanted to send me to a bigger hospital because she wanted to rule out an ectopic pregnancy. 4 hours later DH and I were sitting in another ER waiting room, where we waited for almost 1.5 hours for the ultrasound tech to be called in. When she finished the U/S, The ER Dr came in and stated that I had no baby or sac in my uterus, there was fluid in my pelvic area, and that he didn't see anything in my tubes but, they couldn't rule out an ectopic. I felt like they had no idea what was happening with me. I felt like I had no concrete answer about what was going on. They contacted my Dr's physician on call who advised a methotrexate shot be given. No one expects to have an ectopic pregnancy, so I hadn't done much research on the shot or ectopics in general. I feel like the whole thing was very rushed, even thought it was a 12 hour process. I understand that if it was ectopic that it is an urgent situation but I still feel confused about it all. To make matters worse, I went to my Dr the next morning and she didn't even know I had been in the ER all night and was floored when I told her that I was given the MTX shot. She kept saying she didn't think it was an ectopic, and that I probably just had a miscarriage at the first hospital. I am just confused, sad, upset and don't feel like I have a solid answer as to what happened. I'm sure that's a normal feeling but it sucks.
Now I'm wondering how long I should wait to TTC because my Dr told me I can induce AF after my bleeding stops and hcg is 0, and then start the clomid + trigger again after AF stops. I'm not a Dr, but my god that seems like a lot for my body to have to deal with in a very short time period. Do any of you have a similar story? I feel like 100 people are telling me 100 different things, and I'm driving myself crazy googling everything, and randomly crying. I'm sorry this is so long, but it feels SO great to tell my story as it's so fresh and I'm still trying to hash out what the heck happened! Thanks for reading ladies!
Hubs & I -29 • Met 5/18/04 • Married 5/8/10
BFP #1 DS 2/7/11 (Born @ 34 wks via ECS due to Pre-e) TTC #2 since Aug '13
DX Low AMH (.58) March '14 • FSH-7.5 • E2-35.5 (Nov '14)
SA- Great numbers • SIS- Clear (Nov '14)
Cycle 1- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-BFP • EDD 1/12/15
Ectopic @ 5w6d • Methotrexate Shot 5/18/14
Cycle 2,3,4- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-- BFN
Cycle 5- Letrozole CD3-7 & Trigger BFFN
• Everyone Welcome •
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Re: **living child mentioned** Lengthy Intro for a super lurker
TTC #1: February 1, 2014
BFP #1: 2/21/14 EDD: 10/31/14 (my birthday!) MMC: discovered 3/31/14 (blighted ovum) D&C: 4/3/14 at 9w6d
TTC #1 (Round 2): May 16, 2014
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"Everybody wants to be happy. Nobody wants to feel pain but you can't have a rainbow without the rain."
Married April 9, 2011
TTC since October 2011
Me 34, DH 40
IUI #5 w/ Tamoxifen+Ovidrel+Acupuncture Oct 24, 2014-->BFP!!! EDD July 17, 2015. Panorama=low risk...and it's a GIRL!
DD born July 10, 2015
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Trying for baby #2!
IUI #1 w/ Tamoxifen+Ovidrel+Acupuncture July 10, 2017-->BFP!!! EDD Apr 2, 2018. Panorama=low risk...and another GIRL!
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I'm so sorry you have gone through this. (((Hugs)))
PG#1 - 3rd cycle BFP. Team Green. HELLP syndrome @ 34 weeks.
Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.
PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix
All Welcome
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BFP #2 6/12/14, DD born 2/21/15
I have no experience with MTX, but I want to echo what PPs said about finding a doctor/midwife you trust.
Welcome.
Married August 2003
DH: 45
BFP #1 3/19/14 EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
BFP #2 12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
Saw heartbeat 12/29. Please be a rainbow.
All welcome
US (with RE) 3/24/2014 (two healthy HB), US (with OB) 3/31/2014 (three healthy heartbeats)
BFP#2: 10/22/14 | (beta #1 75, beta # 2 219) | EDD 7/3/15 ~*Please be our RAINBOW*~
TTC #3 since June 2013
BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14
IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
PgAL welcome
Married 6/11/2011
Me & Hubby: 34
TTC journey started 12/2012
BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks
BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)
Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.
Also have hypothyroidism
Started TTC again 12/2013
IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN
IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN
Current plan: IVF with PGD. Antagonist - Vivelle Protocal. Stim start 12/1. ER 12/14.
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/502498
BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
Me 34 DH 31, Together since 2003, Married August 20, 2011, TTC since May 2013
BFP #1 August 24, 2013! MMC discovered Oct. 3, 2013, D&C Oct. 4, 2013
BFP #2 December 17, 2013! MMC discovered Jan. 28, 2014, D&C Jan. 30, 2014
Testing done: male with complete Trisomy 16, not hereditary. Tested me for clotting disorders, all normal.
Feb. 2014 all clear again to TTC! Will start progesterone supplementation with the next BFP just in case. Oct. 2014 more testing just because, thyroid and autoimmune panels = normal. Diagnostic U/S = no abnormalities. Will keep trying for 3-6 more months, doctor still optimistic!
BFP #3 December 11, 2014! Beta #1 14DPO = 122.4 Beta #2 17DPO = 296.8 Please stick little one and be our Rainbow!
Perfect little heartbeat of 156 seen 1/7/15
***Everybody Welcomed***
EDD 8/21/2015 Team Green!
August 2015 Siggy Challenge: Favorite mean girl from a movie or show: Kathy Bates in "Misery"Sorry for your loss, I don't have any any advise with this but welcome.
BFP: 04/03/2014 EDD: 12/15/2014 HB: 04/30/14 (75bpm) MC: 5/2/2014 (natural)
TTC #3 since June 2013
BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14
IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN