Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss
1SummerBlessing
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INTRO Miscarried..Now the expected date of delivery is here!!
1SummerBlessing
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After many years of trying and then giving up but praying it happens..it does, and when we least expect it. I find out I'm about 6wks pregnant. 2wks later we learn that there are two babies. I'm scared, shocked, and excited. I suffer from fibroids so I immediately express my concern to my OB. I feel like my concerns were not taking seriously. I was sent to a specialist due to my OB not being able to hear a heart beat. At that time, I was then able to get the 1st clear sono of them and hear the heart beats. I'm was so excited that I wanted to tell the world but I've always heard ppl say wait until after the 1st trimester. Well unfortunately, I only made it 13wks and 2days. I then miscarried. The next morning I was scheduled for a D&C. I felt less then a woman. I was still bleeding and in pain after 6/7 days and thought it was my cycle. I called my OB office and the nurse said that was more then likely just that. It's been 11 days since the D&C and my pain has escalated beyond belief, I am being rushed back to the hospital. I thought my fibroids had been causing the pain..but that was NOT the case. My OB didn't do a complete D&C!! I had to now have an emergency D&C due to his negligence. The emotional side of this was such a dark place that I was numb. I became very depressed and totally disconnected from the world. It took/takes a lot of praying to start to get me back on track. I encourage ppl all of the time but I had to learn how to encourage myself...and praying is the only way I learned how. Now, my expected due date is 1wk away and my emotions are running all over the place. All I can do is think about what I would/should be doing at this point. My babe wants to try again but my mind is playing tricks with me. I feel like I would be replacing my babies and now if I do get pregnant..what if it's only one baby? I keep praying for strength, peace of mind, and understanding but how do you forgive yourself when your the cause of the continuous stress?
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Re: INTRO Miscarried..Now the expected date of delivery is here!!
DH: 45
BFP #1 3/19/14 EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
BFP #2 12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
Saw heartbeat 12/29. Please be a rainbow.
All welcome
Me: 34; DH: 38; SD: 9
TTC #1 since November 2013
BFP #1: 2/4/14--EDD 10/14/14--CP 2/8/14
BFP #2: 3/1/14--EDD 11/15/14--MMC at 12w6d (baby stopped developing at 11w4d)
D&C 5/13/14; Retained Tissue Found: Cytotec 5/30/14; 2nd D&C 6/20/14
BFP #3: 12/13/14--EDD 8/27/15--MMC at 7 weeks (no fetal pole and measuring 1 1/2 weeks behind)--Cytotec 1/9/15
January 2015: Off to RE for RPL testing
My emotions run all over the place. I'll have a few good days, than am miserable for a day. Weird things remind/upset me. I just try to take it one day at a time. ((Hugs))
BFP #1 March 24, 2010; missed m/c May 26, 2010 @ 12w 4d; D&E May 28, 2010
BFP #2 Oct 20, 2010; My little boy was born on July 5, 2011
BFP #3 April 30, 2013; Chemical Pg May 5, 2013
BFP #4 Aug 22, 2013; It's a boy. Loss discovered at 24 weeks on Jan 15, 2014 (cause CMV virus)
BFP #5 April 6, 2014; missed m/c May 15, 2014 @ 9 weeks; Misoprostol May 15, 2014; D&C May June 3, 2014