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Like I couldn't feel any worse

O2girlO2girl member
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My RE called with the karyotype of my two LOs I lost.....
Perfectly normal girls.......

So what the fuck is wrong with my uterus? Why is it killing my babies? This is the worst feeling in the world..... How does someone get over this???
Me: 38
DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant

DH: 34
MFI due to Testicular Cancer

Married March 2012 <3
IVF w/ICSI #1
10 little polar bears
FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN :(
FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
Beta 1= 276
Beta 2= 662
4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
5/3/14 ~ D&C
FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y



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Re: Like I couldn&#039;t feel any worse

  • jennadesignsjennadesigns member
    I'm so sorry. I imagine it might be somewhat easier for closure purposes if there was an explanation as to why the losses occurred. Not having that makes for a difficult time processing what happened. I'm still fresh from my loss and if there's anything I've realized it's that as much as I want answers for what happened, I will likely never get them. For me, not knowing is the worst. I makes me feel powerless, which is I'm sure how you feel. It's like if you knew what caused it you could (perhaps) plan differently or your mind tells you that you could have done something to avoid it even though that's likely not the case.

    I don't know how one gets through something like this. Slowly. One day at a time. What has your RE told you about future pregnancies?

    Hugs. Lots of them.
    BFP 3/30/13, MMC and D&C 4/19/13
    BFP 4/8/14, MMC 5/5/14, D&C 5/9/14
    BFP 8/26/14 Due date 5/8/15

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  • tlc35tlc35 member
    I have no advice, just sending hugs your way.
    Me: 37                                               
    DH: 45
    BFP #1 3/19/14  EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
    BFP #2  12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
    Saw heartbeat 12/29.  Please be a rainbow.
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