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TTC After a Loss
LundleBean
member
It's been a while since I have actively posted (although I have lurked a few boards in my posting-absence). I never actually gave a full intro before.
XP: Intro: Loss & IF (Long)
LundleBean
member
**BFP and subsequent loss mentioned; possible TMI warning; long
Most of my details are in my signature, but basically, DH and I are both 30, started dating at 13 and married at 23. We started TTC July 2009, saw an RE Sept. 2010, and I was DX both tubes dilated.
With me working retail and DH working fast food, we had to wait until one of us finished school and got a better job before any of our 'next steps' could be taken. In January 2013, I had both tubes removed so that we would have a better chance at IVF. Last June, we had an IVF transfer of 2 embryos, but neither of them took and no embryos made it to freeze. The same week of my BFN, a close family member passed away and it took me a couple of months to get myself back together to discuss trying again. We started IVF all over again and transferred 2 embryos this past November. One of those embryos attached, and I had the first BFP of my life, but tried to remain cautiously happy because I am a pessimist and I knew that there were so many hurdles, still. We told family at about 8 wks, but waited to tell everyone else until about 15 1/2 wks. The week before my 20 wk. appt., DH and I had agreed on a name (if she was proven to be a girl) and a color for the nursery. The day before my 20 wk appt., I was talking with friends about my nerves and that the chances of loss were too high for me not to be afraid of the worst (although I had no signs/symptoms of anything being wrong).
On March 18th, at my 20 wk. appt. we found out that our baby had passed away about 3 weeks prior. We attempted a D & E twice (I wanted delivery to be a positive event, not linked to our loss), but my cervix had not opened up enough for the procedure, so I had to deliver.
I'm still struggling very hard with all of this, but need to start trying again. I am waiting for my F/U with my OB and trying to get up the nerve to call my RE. (Although I have been lurking 'new' boards since my loss, it has taken me this long to post).
I hope I can rejoin TB communities and that I can be of help to someone else. Thank you, ladies.
ETA: Correcting terminology
Siggy Warning BFP/Loss Mentioned
Me: 30, DH 30 Started TTC 7/2009
9/2010 SA=Normal 9/10 HSG Dx Both tubes dilated; Rx bilateral salpingectomy & IVF; 9/2010-12/2012 Financial break
1/2013 Bilateral Salpingectomy 5/2013 Recent SA shows borderline morphology
5/2013 IVF w/ ICSI #1 6/25/13 ER=11R 9M 9F 6/28/13 3dt of 2 embies (8B & 6A-); no frosties: BFN
9/2010 SA=Normal 9/10 HSG Dx Both tubes dilated; Rx bilateral salpingectomy & IVF; 9/2010-12/2012 Financial break
1/2013 Bilateral Salpingectomy 5/2013 Recent SA shows borderline morphology
5/2013 IVF w/ ICSI #1 6/25/13 ER=11R 9M 9F 6/28/13 3dt of 2 embies (8B & 6A-); no frosties: BFN
10/2013 IVF w/ ICSI #2 11/12/13 ER= 9R 6M 6F 11/15/13 3dt of 2 embies (8A & 8A) 3 frosties (2 day-5, 1 day-6)
11/22/13 (7dp3dt) +hpt 11/26/13 (11dp3dt) BFP Beta=141 11/28/13 Beta 2= 372 EDD 8/5/2014
3/20/14 Fetal Demise 20 wks F/L 17 wks D&E attempted 3/21/14 & 3/22/14 Born Still 3/23/14 I love you B.T.
"Sometimes you try your hardest, but things don't work out the way you want them to." –Nani (Lilo & Stitch)“All I can say is, it's a sort of kinship, as though there is a family tree of grief. On this branch, the lost children, on this the suicided parents, here the beloved mentally ill siblings. When something terrible happens, you discover all of the sudden that you have a new set of relatives, people with whom you can speak in the shorthand of cousins.” ― Elizabeth McCracken
8/2014 FET 8/7/14 Transferred 1 5-day blast (4AA): BFN
TTCAL September Siggy Challenge: Animals in Clothing
Will add soon
**All AL/AIF Welcome**
This discussion has been closed.
Re: XP: Intro: Loss & IF (Long)
DH: 45
BFP #1 3/19/14 EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
BFP #2 12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
Saw heartbeat 12/29. Please be a rainbow.
All welcome
US (with RE) 3/24/2014 (two healthy HB), US (with OB) 3/31/2014 (three healthy heartbeats)
BFP#2: 10/22/14 | (beta #1 75, beta # 2 219) | EDD 7/3/15 ~*Please be our RAINBOW*~
TTC since April 2012
BFP #1, 10/03/2012 - EDD 6/15/2013 - MMC 11/15/2012 - D&C 01/04/2013
BFP #2, 04/06/2013 - EDD 12/17/2013 - MC 04/19/2013
6/12/2013 Diagnosed with Balanced Translocation (12 & 16)
IVF #1 with PGS: 10/2013: Canceled 9/27/2013 for issues with genetic lab
IVF #1.5 with PGS: 11/16/2013: Canceled. 11 eggs retrieved, 9 mature & 9 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos
IVF #2: 1/22/14: Canceled. 16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 7 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos
IVF #3 with PGS: 5/10/2014: Switched to FET in July. 10 eggs retrieved, 9 mature, 8 fertilized, 2 healthy embryos!
FET #1: 7/31/2014: Transferred 2 nearly perfect (6AA, 6BA) healthy embryos- BFFN
Laproscopy: 10/2014: Healthy uterus
IVF #4: 12/8/2014: Canceled. 17 eggs retrieved, 15 mature, 10 fertilized, all unhealthy embryos
Everyone welcome on my posts
TTC #1 since January 2013
BFP #1: April 5, 2013; EDD December 11, 2013; Missed M/C May 15, 2013
BFP #2: February 17, 2014; EDD October 30, 2014; M/C March 15, 2014
BFP #3: August 1, 2014; EDD April 14, 2015 - Praying for our RAINBOW!
Me (30) DH (31) Married 5/13, TTC since 2/13
BFP # 3, EDD 2/21/15 * please be our rainbow*BFP #1 Blighted Ovum resulting in D&C on 11/1/13
BFP #2 Ectopic Pg, lap surgery on 3/12/14, R tube removed
EDD 5/2/14, NMC 9/11/13
EDD 10/15/14, CP 2/8/14
IF Diagnosis: PCOS, MFI
Current Cycle: 5 mg Femara/1000mg Metformin + TI = BFP, EDD 4/23/15 Please be our RAINBOW
**ALL AL/IF Welcome**
My Chart
TTC #3 since June 2013
BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14
IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
My Ovulation Chart
BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
One quick thing - you don't have to put a warning on this board when you discuss your BFP or pregnancy from the loss - only for others' and for living children. Be sure to read on the blog and lurk some to see how that works. Thanks for the sensitivity (we have just had a lot of warnings out of control here in the last month or so).
PG#1 - 3rd cycle BFP. Team Green. HELLP syndrome @ 34 weeks.
Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.
PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix
All Welcome
Chart
Me: 34, DH: 32
TTC Since September 2012
Dx-PCOS, Anovulation, highly irregular cycles
March 2013 Comid 50 mg+ TI #1: BFN
April 2013 Clomid mg + TI #2: BFN
IVM#1 Aug 2012: BFN
20 FEB 2014: CP
IUI #1 Clomid 100mg 24 FEB 2014: BFN
IUI #2 Clomid 100mg 21 MAR 2014: BFN
IUI#3 Follistim & trigger 21 May 2014: BFN
IVF #1 Follistim & Menopur: 14R, 9M, 7F, transfered 2 day 3 8 cell embies
Beta #1: 7/30: 41 Beta #2 8/1: 96 Beta #3 8/4: 796 EDD:4/9/15
All Welcome9/2010 SA=Normal 9/10 HSG Dx Both tubes dilated; Rx bilateral salpingectomy & IVF; 9/2010-12/2012 Financial break
1/2013 Bilateral Salpingectomy 5/2013 Recent SA shows borderline morphology
5/2013 IVF w/ ICSI #1 6/25/13 ER=11R 9M 9F 6/28/13 3dt of 2 embies (8B & 6A-); no frosties: BFN