Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss
bralex2007
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Intro and my story
bralex2007
member
Hi, I'm new to the board and wanted to first off thank all of you brave ladies. I have been lurking on here since I started bleeding on Saturday. Reading some of your stories really helped me emotionally prepare for my own miscarriage. So, here's my story.
On Saturday afternoon I was going about my day and felt a little...wet. I figured it was just discharge, but when I went to the bathroom I discovered red blood. I immediately broke down and started crying, as I knew something just wasn't right. I opted not to go to the ER because I figured there was nothing they could do to help, and waited until Monday to call my MW. I continued to bleed all weekend, and it just kept increasing. I also had some very light cramping and lower back pain, but barely even painful. The wait until Monday was horrific. I called my MW first thing Monday morning and got an appointment for later that day. Sitting in the waiting room surrounded by a bunch of healthy pregnant women was really hard. When my ultrasound started I could tell the baby had grew from the last time we saw it at 6 weeks, and I just started to cry on the table. I couldn't see a heartbeat and the tech confirmed that there was none. The baby was measuring 8 weeks, and I should have been almost 9. I realized later that I really wanted the picture of the ultrasound. At my next appointment I plan to ask if they have it in my chart, and if I can get a copy of it.
We were moved to another room where my MW talked to us about our options. I had already pretty much decided I wanted to try to pass the baby naturally, but in that moment I really understood why some people choose a D&C. We went home and I just cried. That night the cramping increased. I woke up at about 4:30am Tuesday from cramping. It felt like bad menstrual cramps, but nothing too painful. I could even feel that my cervix was dilating, and I sat on the toilet pretty much the whole time, as I just had the feeling that I couldn't get up. I woke up my husband for support and he sat with me. I bled a lot, and passed a tiny bit of tissue. I had something similar to the urge to push, that was just my body getting ready I believe. I also felt like pooping (and did--twice). Then, as that urge increased, I passed the sac and baby very suddenly (at about 5:30am). I literally gasped I was so surprised. The cramping immediately stopped and I started to feel better.
Yesterday I felt strangely relieved. I was so worried about waiting for a long time to miscarry naturally, that I was almost happy to just have the whole ordeal over with. It was the first time since Saturday that I was really able to get off my couch and do anything. Today has been hard again. I realized it was the first day that I'm not pregnant at all. It is also the ten year anniversary of my moms death. The whole thing just sucks. I have another ultrasound Friday to confirm that I passed everything.
Thank you for letting me tell my story--it helps just to write it down.
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Re: Intro and my story
BFP #1 3/19/14 • EDD 11/26/14 • MC 4/26/14 at 9w3d • BFP #2 10/10/14 • EDD 6/20/15
MC 4/23/2014
BFP 8/1/2014, expecting our rainbow on 4/12/2015
My Ovulation Chart
DH: 45
BFP #1 3/19/14 EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
BFP #2 12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
Saw heartbeat 12/29. Please be a rainbow.
All welcome