Can I have an AW vent?

ShadowsRainFalls · April 2014

Thanks. This is long. Feel free to not read it. I just need to type this somewhere to someone, and not be one of those vaguebooking people.

I'm not having a good day. I know it's that i'm crazy hormonal and pregnant, and that I am reacting (or overreacting) to things irrationally, but it's still hard, yo.

I am staying over at my parents (since monday) because DH went to Seattle to work for a week. We are driving up tomorrow to stay until Sun morning. I miss him. He knows I hate when he travels and leaves me and DS, but I also know he likes it. He needs a break from us sometimes. I'm clingy. He hasn't called me once. He hasn't texted me to tell me he loves me or anything (unless I text him). I know he's having a good time...I just get sad that he likes being away from us so much and doesn't seem to miss us.

This morning I went to get dressed. I put on a stretchy comfortable dress with some maternity spanxs (shorts) underneath. The dress barely went on. My hips are growing, my belly is growing, my ass is growing. I thought...eh..maybe it's just me and it looks "maternity cute". I went out and asked my Mom what she thought. She told me it was def. too tight. I tried not to take it to heart, b/c I really don't mind getting bigger if it's for baby, but dude...it fit like a month ago.

I put on a cute new shirt and some capris and a sweater (my HDBD photo clothes). All I could think ALL day is that my boobs are ENORMOUS. How can they possibly be this big. I don't care if they are big normally. (normally a DDD)..but now, I just fall out of all my bras and shirts. I have been to 3 stores to try on bras and none of them fit me. NONE of them. NONE OF THE BRAS IN ANY OF THE STORES FIT ME. As I type this, my boobs are hanging all out. I feel like my nipples could almost be spilling out right now. Damn you boobs. I hate you right now. I hate you so much.

I realized today I don't have a rain parka for DS, and we are going to Seattle tomorrow. His 2 sweatshirts aren't going to keep him dry, and we plan on walking outside a lot. I went to Target with my Mom. It was raining, so I proceeded to put my rain/winterish coat on. It BARELY zips over my hips and my stomach. I am waddling around (but no..not cute pregnancy waddle) feeling uncomfortable, but not wanting to unzip it and get my boobs that are hanging out everywhere all soaking wet in the rain. Target had no rain jackets for kids. Off to babies r us we go. They carried NO jackets at all. Off to REI we go. REI carried 2 kids rain jackets over 60 dollars each. Off to JC Penny we went. No jackets for kids. None. What!? My feet hurt, I am frustrated, wet, and feeling huge. We walked half the mall and got to H&M. They had ONE rain coat in his size for 25 dollars. Fine. Sold. Home we went.

DH is texting me about his awesome dinner and drinks and how he is having fun. I was chasing my wild toddler who wanted my mom, not me.

Can I sleep forever now? Please? I'm done.

Why did I get pregnant again?

ShadowsRainFalls · April 2014

@Ptarma Seriously. I am in Oregon. Who doesn't sell rain jacket's in Oregon during the RAINY SEASON!?

tamarar5 · April 2014

What a day!

I'm so sorry! I totally get you on the rain jacket too. I've been trying to find them for my kids but no one carries them big enough for DD1 (size 7/8) and small enough for DS (size 18/24 months 2t comes down to the ground) So frustrating and annoying!

poofwok · April 2014

I'm sorry you had a bad day

(((hugs))) hopefully things look up soon!

ShadowsRainFalls · April 2014

@mheister314 and @ginny5683 People don't usually cover up in Oregon..but since he is a toddler and it's supposed to rain a LOT...and we're walking lot's in Seattle, I figured he should be dry. Me on the other hand? Meh.

shaylagirl · April 2014

I'm so super sorry you've had a craptastic time.

That's awful!!

DH is travelling for work quite a bit. This past week he's been gone, but he split it up; 3 days on a motorcycle trip with his guy friends, home for Sunday night (late), then gone again Monday for work.

Mine is also crappy about texting or calling when he's out of town. It ticks me off. Really? Are you having THAT much fun you can't fire off a fast text? Or, worse, you don't even call me in the evening? Jerkface.

It sucks. Thankfully I don't have a toddler to deal with, but my 12 year old SS has had baseball stuff every.damn.night since DH went out of town on Monday. Game/Practice/Game. It ticks me off that the league does that to kids (especially since we've got standardized testing, and he had 2 days back-to-back of that). So, it means the 16 year old has been wrangled into getting him to games and practices, and I've been having to go get him. It's just a pain in the butt. MUCH easier when DH is home since his schedule allows him to get home in time to take him, he coaches, so he brings him home.

Thankfully he gets home tonight so I can turn baseball duties back over to him. Ugh.

Hopefully things get better for you!!!