TTC After a Loss

~~Bible Study Check In~~

Welcome to the Bible Study Check-In. This check-in currently runs 2 times a week on Mondays and Thursdays. Mondays are our in-depth study.  Thursdays are our check-in day. If you cannot get int touch with your prayer partner please PM@MrsG80inTN @megrae12 and we will assign you a new one. 

This is a list of the current prayer partners. Please respond to your prayer partner's post and/or communicate via PM:

@polevautRN & @megrae12

@EKGibs & @skategirl128

@MrsG80inTN & @MoreThanSparrows08 

@graceanne927 & @mcnsher0627


Good morning, loves! I hope everyone had a good Easter! We are on week four of our study with GMG. Let's dive in and see what they have to say.

1. GMG talks about how  we need to have Faith and Action in our lives. They talk about how we need faith to believe that Jesus was resurrected and that He died for us. They tell us that faith in all of this should move us to action. What I want to know is how has your faith moved to action? How has your faith shaped your life? What parts of your life are you still holding on to? 

2. The next step is taking action. GMG gives us a good challenge this week. They ask us how we should think about our sin, how we should look for joy of the Lord in everyday life, etc. I want to take that further. How should we find join in the TTCAL process? How are we taking action in our lives with our walk with Christ? 

3. My challenge to you this week is to take action. Do something to minister to someone this week. This can be as simple as showing kindness to that person that is jumping on your last nerve or as big as donating money to missions. I want us to be a light to others. 

4. Prayers

5. Praises 

Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
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DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
All Welcome


Re: ~~Bible Study Check In~~

  • Hi!!

    1. *****living child nentioned****** I have moved into action by making an effort to include God in my interactions with DS. It has been eye opening to me to do it because he asks some of the simplest questions that make me need to think differently. The faith of a child is precious and it's heartening to think that we all have once had unfettered imaginations and beliefs. I hope for us all to find that again!

    2. I have recently been reading up on women if the Bible who have struggled with fertility. Sarah, Hannah and Elizabeth all believed that God was strong enough to overcome physiology. They prayed fervently and in the case of Hannah, she promised God that she would give her not-conceived son back to His service... And she did (Samuel). God has a purpose for us on this earth and asking for a child for my purposes is different than when you fully commit your life to His service. If we are truly His, having a child needs to fit into that worldview. It's not my child, but His. Sorry if that's not clear... Or eloquent!

    3. I will pray and look for these chances.

    4. Prayers for continued healing in my heart. I've been so angry and anxious at the drop of a hat. It's because I haven't confronted my emotions from the loss, I think. Please pray for my DH who has taken the brunt of my misdirected anger. He is a sweet man and doesn't deserve that. Please pray for our family (extended). The story is complicated, but basically my grandma is putting a huge guilt trip on my Dad and her immaturity in general has created a chasm in our family. This is deep-seeded and has been going on for decades.

    5. Praises - HE IS RISEN! Ultimately our woes are nothing because we have redemption if we can believe and stand firm. (((Hugs)))

    @MrsG80inTN‌ - I ran across this website. I hope a verse speaks to you. They helped me through some negativity and racing thoughts this week. I've been praying for you and hope you are finding that God loves us unconditionally.

    https://www.womensbiblecafe.com/2012/02/50-scripture-verses-on-worrying/


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    PG#1 - 3rd cycle BFP. Team Green. HELLP syndrome @ 34 weeks.
    Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.

    PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
    Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
    3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
    D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix

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  • 1. GMG talks about how we need to have Faith and Action in our lives. They talk about how we need faith to believe that Jesus was resurrected and that He died for us. They tell us that faith in all of this should move us to action. What I want to know is how has your faith moved to action? How has your faith shaped your life? What parts of your life are you still holding on to?

    My faith is the most important thing in my life. When I first became a Christian at the age of 11, I was like a little evangelist! I would preach to all the kids in my neighborhood. Prayed with a few who accepted Jesus as their Savior, which was awesome! I don't mind talking about my faith with others, but I wish I was more "on fire" like I was when I was a new Christian, if that makes sense. I need to join one of the ministries at my church!

    ****DS mentioned***

    My faith shapes my life in every aspect because it is the center of me and DH's life. Every decision we make (big or small), we make prayerfully. The way we are bringing up DS is centered around our faith. It's just what we are and always will be about.

    I feel like I'm still holding on to hurt from my past when I was a rebellious teenager who just graduated high school. I was hanging out with the wrong kids and making dumb, wreckless decisions. Sometimes, I can't even believe I survived and I definitely thank God for protecting me. I just need to let go of that hurt and know that God has already forgiven me!

    2. The next step is taking action. GMG gives us a good challenge this week. They ask us how we should think about our sin, how we should look for joy of the Lord in everyday life, etc. I want to take that further. How should we find join in the TTCAL process? How are we taking action in our lives with our walk with Christ?

    I find joy in the TTCAL process by trusting in God's plan for my life. The God we serve is so powerful and totally in control of it all. He has got a plan for our lives and although it may be difficult to understand sometimes, it is far better than our own plans. I also find joy in the intimate times with DH because God created us to procreate and to be one with one another!

    3. My challenge to you this week is to take action. Do something to minister to someone this week. This can be as simple as showing kindness to that person that is jumping on your last nerve or as big as donating money to missions. I want us to be a light to others.

    I like this. Challenge accepted :)

    4. Prayers Pray for me during this 2WW. Trying to keep busy to keep my mind off of it. Also, pray that I get to start my new position soon. My new nurse manager says my old nurse manager isn't ready to let me go yet! Well, I hope she lets me go soon because I'm ready! :)

    5. Praises I got the postpartum RN job! (see above) and I ovulated. Woohoo!

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    BFP #1 8.6.2011 EDD 4.7.2012 DS1 born 3.30.2012

    BFP #2 1.21.2014 EDD 10.1.2014 natural m/c 1.30.2014
    BFP #3 4.30.2014 EDD 1.10.2015 DS2 born 12.31.2014
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  • @polevaultRN‌ - God loves you wholly and completely! My former pastor once preached a series on how Biblical heroes - God's most announced ones - were flawed people yet He still used them for great things. You can't change the past but you can focus on incorporating Him into your life as you are doing. The cool thing about our God is that we don't have to do anything to be worthy of his love other than to openly and boldly accept it!

    Also - hoping you find something to distract yourself from your 2ww like this cute little guy!

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    PG#1 - 3rd cycle BFP. Team Green. HELLP syndrome @ 34 weeks.
    Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.

    PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
    Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
    3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
    D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix

    All Welcome

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    Dx Grave's Disease
    BFP#1 May 2013 (CP)
    BFP#2 October 2013 (MMC, 12 weeks) 
  • @AggieBeth06 thank you so much for the kind words and encouragement. I needed that! And what a cute picture, too :) Praying for your DH and for healing for you! I'm sorry about what's going on with your extended family. Praying for a change of heart for your grandma!

    @mcnsher0627 I love listening to Christian music first thing in the morning. Always helps to clear any negativity and get a great start to the day. Praying for your DH's fever to break...poor guy. Tylenol (unless he has an allergy) and lots of fluids! :) And that your brother finds employment.

    @hayleyclaire of course! Feel free to jump in :)

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    BFP #2 1.21.2014 EDD 10.1.2014 natural m/c 1.30.2014
    BFP #3 4.30.2014 EDD 1.10.2015 DS2 born 12.31.2014
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  • 1. GMG talks about how  we need to have Faith and Action in our lives. They talk about how we need faith to believe that Jesus was resurrected and that He died for us. They tell us that faith in all of this should move us to action. What I want to know is how has your faith moved to action? How has your faith shaped your life? What parts of your life are you still holding on to? I am shaped by faith in a lot of ways. Every morning, I wake up and thank my God for the day. I thank Him for allowing me to live. It seems simple, but it's important for me to do this. I put on my armor every day to prepare myself, not only to live for Him but when I encounter satan as well. It shapes me int that I am trying to always be ready and sensitive to Him. 

    2. The next step is taking action. GMG gives us a good challenge this week. They ask us how we should think about our sin, how we should look for joy of the Lord in everyday life, etc. I want to take that further. How should we find join in the TTCAL process? How are we taking action in our lives with our walk with Christ? I find joy in this TTCAL process in that it has opened up communication b/w H and I. I am not one to show or express how I am feeling, this has sort of forced me too. I, mean, how can I not express how losing my child has killed me? I thank God for allowing me the opportunity to open up to H. It's hard and some days are much worse than others, but I am moving on and going forward. That is so much farther than I thought I would be 7 months ago. 

    3. My challenge to you this week is to take action. Do something to minister to someone this week. This can be as simple as showing kindness to that person that is jumping on your last nerve or as big as donating money to missions. I want us to be a light to others. I am always looking for a way to minister, and I hope I do a good job. 

    4. Prayers I am nearing the end of my 2ww. I have been pretty good this whole cycle except yesterday and today. I am testing tomorrow, so I am a nervous, hot mess. Please pray for peace no matter what the outcome tomorrow. 

    5. Praises I am a better person and Christian b/c of you ladies. Thank you for challenging me in my walk with Christ. Thank you for pushing me to think and to pray and to see Him in everything. 


    @AggieBeth06 Thank you for that insight on the women in Bible who struggled with IF. I had forgotten about Hannah. She is an inspiration for us and it's important, like you said to give back to God. You are full of insight and amazing encouragement for us all. Thank you.

    @polevaultRN Yay on the job!! I hope you can start soon!! I love how supportive of your family you are. Keep at it and support them with love and challenge them in Christ. Thank you for your encouragement and your acceptance. How can I pray for you this week?

    @mcnsher0627 You are amazing! I love that you heard His call and moved. That shows incredible strength and a strong faith. Keep building that. I am glad that out of tragedy, something beautiful has grown in your relationship with your H. It's important you stay focused on that. Lots of love!

    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
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    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • Hello Everyone!  :)


    1. GMG talks about how  we need to have Faith and Action in our lives. They talk about how we need faith to believe that Jesus was resurrected and that He died for us. They tell us that faith in all of this should move us to action. What I want to know is how has your faith moved to action? How has your faith shaped your life? What parts of your life are you still holding on to?   I walked into church this past Sunday w/ a heavy heart; I had rec'd a bfn that morning and though I didn't want it to break my spirit; the disappointment and sadness was literally seeping out of me. There I was... stuck in my grief.  But I was reminded during the service Easter Sunday that God knows me...inside and out...my hurting heart is not unknown to Him.  When Jesus said to Mary Magdalene at the empty tomb - why are you crying?  He already knew why!  And He knows why we cry too.  What breaks us.  If you put yourself in Mary Magadalene's place - there she was consumed by her grief too - put your name in her place.  "Grace why are you crying?  Tell me."  Mary wasn't anyone super important, she wasn't a celebrity of the times, she was just a common woman who loved Jesus.  Hearing that on Sunday made me realize that maybe I haven't fully trusted Jesus w/ my burdens.  I don't have to be this super spiritual hero...I can come into His presence and just be me....which is sometimes someone who is fearful of the future...someone whose spirit is crushed w/ disappointment....someone who is just weak .... and you know what ...I believe it's ok.  It was a revelation to me this Sunday that God wants to be present in my grief.  I don't have to push it aside as if to win God's favor.   2. The next step is taking action. GMG gives us a good challenge this week. They ask us how we should think about our sin, how we should look for joy of the Lord in everyday life, etc. I want to take that further. How should we find join in the TTCAL process? How are we taking action in our lives with our walk with Christ?  We can find joy in our TTCAL journey by finding restoration in His love.  I personally am trying to not let my grief overwhelm me - by waking up each day truly thankful for all the blessings that I have - and walking confidently and courageously into the future knowing He's w/ me.  That even in my brokenness He would find me useful.  In whatever capacity I can be.  That's sincerely my prayer.   I also don't want my desire for another child to take away the joys that I have in my life.  I want to appreciate the gifts in my life to the fullest and I can't do that when I am consumed by something that I don't have.  3. My challenge to you this week is to take action. Do something to minister to someone this week. This can be as simple as showing kindness to that person that is jumping on your last nerve or as big as donating money to missions. I want us to be a light to others. Love this and I will be praying about this daily.4. Prayers  DH passed on job offer last week he rec'd last week.  We are praying for God to help guide him as he starts looking for other opportunities.   5. Praises  Easter always brings me so much peace.  I'm so thankful for the hope that is found in the resurrection...even in times of grief, fear, anxiety and doubts...we have HOPE b/c we're a child of the risen King!  @AggieBeth06 - Thank you for the reminder of having a child like faith - it is beautiful to see that and if only we could condition our hearts to be like that again!  I'll be praying for you and your husband...i think the ones we are closest to sometimes get the brunt of our hurt.  Take some intentional steps to purposefully show your love to him this week :)

    @polevaultRN Congrats on the O!  Praying for you during the 2WW and of course hoping for the best!!

    @mcnsher0627  I tend to keep it on the christian radio station also :)   If fact the other day I realized that one of my favorite quotes I pinned on pinterest is actually a song by Lauren Story - Blessings.  I'm sure you've all heard it but it's the song that asks what if your blessings come through raindrops...what if your healing comes through tears...what if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know you are near....what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?  Of course I was a crying disgusting mess when that song was through but I love the message of that song.  I hope by listening you find that God speaks to you through the songs and messages that are played.   Praying for you!  






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    BFP #1  6/14/2011 EDD 2/22/2012  DD 2/2/2012
    BFP #2 1/19/2014 EDD 9/27/2014 CP 1/24/2014






  • @megrae12Thanks for the check in!  How is your Mom doing?

    I love that you start your day purposefully putting on your armor and readying yourself for the day.  Preparing your heart and most importantly staying grateful.  I think that is so key.  I'm so glad you and your husband can verbally communicate the pain and suffering of losing a child together.  This is something my husband has great difficulty with, esp in the beginning; I found his aloofness brutal but later discovered that he was hurting too.  He just can't talk about it.  I know that it must be a great comfort for you both to just talk about it and together heal.  I'll be praying for you tomorrow while you test...peace of Jesus be w/ you...no matter what...hoping for the best!  HUGS!
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    My Ovulation Chart

    BFP #1  6/14/2011 EDD 2/22/2012  DD 2/2/2012
    BFP #2 1/19/2014 EDD 9/27/2014 CP 1/24/2014






  • @graceanne927 Thanks for asking about mom, she is doing pretty good. She got out of the hospital Sunday. I understand where your H is coming from. I come from a family that doesnt communicate feeling very well, and that had transferred to my marriage. I am slowly learning that emotions are not weakness and crying is ok. It's very slow, though. H still gets upset with me about bottling up but I have that writing helps me. If he has a hard time talking, perhaps, he can get down what he feels on paper? I write H letters when the emotion is to much, this way I dont have talk and I can gather and organize my thoughts more efficiently. ((Hugs)) love and thanks for your encouragement and support. You are amazing!! I will be praying for you and healing of your heart. 
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
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    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • @megrae12 I am thinking about you today and just praying that God gives you a peace about everything. I'll be thinking about you tomorrow! ((Hugs)) I just started my 2WW and not feeling terribly crazy yet, but I'm sure I'll get there, so keep me in prayer, too ;)

    @graceanne927 I'm sorry about your BFN, hun ((Hugs)) Praying for you and your DH in his job search. I love Easter, too. Such a beautiful reminder of the unconditional love that Christ has for us and how blessed we are!

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    BFP #1 8.6.2011 EDD 4.7.2012 DS1 born 3.30.2012

    BFP #2 1.21.2014 EDD 10.1.2014 natural m/c 1.30.2014
    BFP #3 4.30.2014 EDD 1.10.2015 DS2 born 12.31.2014
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  • 1. GMG talks about how  we need to have Faith and Action in our lives. They talk about how we need faith to believe that Jesus was resurrected and that He died for us. They tell us that faith in all of this should move us to action. What I want to know is how has your faith moved to action? How has your faith shaped your life? What parts of your life are you still holding on to? 

    My life is definitely different because of faith. I really try to make my decisions through the lens of my faith. I am not the most outspoken person in the world and could probably speak up more. 

    2. The next step is taking action. GMG gives us a good challenge this week. They ask us how we should think about our sin, how we should look for joy of the Lord in everyday life, etc. I want to take that further. How should we find join in the TTCAL process? How are we taking action in our lives with our walk with Christ? 

    I don't know if I am at the point where I am finding joy in the TTCAL process. I am benched for an indeterminate amount of time, so that is not helping. I am glad we conceived even if we don't have our babies, because I believe that we will know them in heaven. I like to think that I have a certain degree of control in my life, but the TTC process has really shown me that we don't really have much control and I just need to take things with God one day at a time. 


    3. My challenge to you this week is to take action. Do something to minister to someone this week. This can be as simple as showing kindness to that person that is jumping on your last nerve or as big as donating money to missions. I want us to be a light to others. 

    I think I might do something nice for my pregnant SIL and/or my pregnant friend. I don't want to be bitter. 

    4. Prayers

    I have a iodine uptake test tomorrow. The doctor's are going to use it to determine how to treat my hyperthyroidism. I had a cousin who's test was inconclusive. I could use prayers that this would go well and that my doctor would have a good idea what to do next. 

    5. Praises 

    Pregnancy mentioned (not mine)



    My SIL had some potentially scary news last week. Her bloodwork came back suggesting that one or both of her twins might have spina bifida. When she had an ultrasound to check, they found triplets and no spina bifida. I am very thankful that my nieces are healthy. 

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    BFP#1 May 2013 (CP)
    BFP#2 October 2013 (MMC, 12 weeks) 
  • @hayleyclaire I'll be praying for your test tomorrow! I hope you get some answers. And praise God about your SIL. What a scary moment that must've been!

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    BFP #2 1.21.2014 EDD 10.1.2014 natural m/c 1.30.2014
    BFP #3 4.30.2014 EDD 1.10.2015 DS2 born 12.31.2014
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  • Hey ladies - just wanted to pop in and let you know I'm thinking of you and praying for each of you.  Sorry I haven't gotten to comment this week yet, but I haven't been able to read the study and I'm a little swamped at work so I've just been in here very spotty... 


    @AggieBeth06 - thank you for the link - I'm going to check it out!!!!!  Praying for your heart and for your family as well.

    @PolevaultRN – you and I may have very similar pasts and I understand needing to accept God’s forgiveness and let go… I have to remember the verse in Isaiah – 43:18 (I think) where he talks about not dwelling on the past because God is doing a new thing!  I also have to remember the verse in Deuteronomy that says “You have circled this mountain long enough, now turn north”… Congrats on the job and ovulating J  hope the 2WW is kind to you.

    @mcnsher0627 – thanks for the verses sweet friend!  I’m glad you’ve been seeing a strengthening in your relationship with DH.  Christian radio helps me focus on Him as well.  Prayers for your brother and for your DH’s fever!

    @HayleyClaire – Please jump on in!!!!!!!

    @megrae12 – praying for you today and for your sanity no matter what the stick tells you… I’m glad you and DH are communicating.

    @Graceanne927 – What an awesome thought that he knows what we are crying about…I love what the verses you are pointing out tell us about relationship with God… he knows why we are crying, but we need to talk to him about it too… I too love the song Blessings J


    Me 35 / DH 36
    TTC since 09/2009
    Hashimoto's diagnosis 11/2011 / Endometriosis removal surgery 04/2013
    Other diagnosis: 1 mutation - PAI-1 gene
    BFP#1 9/27/2013  /  EDD 6/4/14  /  MC 10/17/2013
    BFP#2 3/4/14  /  EDD 11/13/14  /  CP
    BFP#3 6/7/14  / EDD 2/16/15  /  CP
    BFP #4 11/7/2014 / EDD 7/17/15  /  CP
    Current  Plan: Waiting to change RE... Appt on 1/16
    RXs: Metformin, Levothyroxin, Baby Aspirin, CoQ10, Vitamin D, Folic Acid, Pre-natal. Progesterone post O.

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    ***Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

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  • @MrsG80inTN Thank you for those verses, hun! I appreciate it :) I know whatcha mean about being busy at work! Hang in there. Prayin for ya

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    BFP #1 8.6.2011 EDD 4.7.2012 DS1 born 3.30.2012

    BFP #2 1.21.2014 EDD 10.1.2014 natural m/c 1.30.2014
    BFP #3 4.30.2014 EDD 1.10.2015 DS2 born 12.31.2014
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