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Can I Blame Hormones??

I have a 16 month old DS and I don't remember (seriously - at all) being like this with him. I am totally irrational and get so upset so easily, I feel like I am losing my mind and I am definitely not my usual strong confident, self-assured woman. I am only 16 weeks and feel pretty good physically so I don't know what is going on, maybe it is just stress? Sorry for the bit of rambling but I have pretty much been crying since Sunday when Easter pictures did not go my way at all (I didn't get a single pic of my DS dressed up or with me and DH). Usually I would blow this type of thing off, but I can't shake it and I feel everything else is just cascading. Anyone else struggling with keep their emotions in check this early?
Me: 37 DH: 40 TTC since 9/09
#1 BFP 1/10/11; missed m/c discovered 7w5d
IF Dx: Endo, hetero MTHFR mutation, poor morphology
#1 IUI: 1/18/12 = BFN
#1 IVF/ICSI 4/2/12 = 2 x 7-cell and 1 x 5-cell transferred (3dt) = BFP!!
H was born at 41w2d on 12/29/12 - be still my heart!
#2 IVF/ICSI 1/19/14 = 2 x 8 cells transferred (3dt) = BFP!! EDD 10/09/14
M&W born at 37 weeks on 9/18/14 - I am the momma of 3 boys!!!

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Re: Can I Blame Hormones??

  • I imagine that having a 16 month old while expecting twins might make this PG a little more straining than your PG with him! I do have random bouts of being overemotional and I try to talk myself down, but it doesn't work. On Sunday I kept crying over a situation and kept telling myself to get it together because it wasn't that big of a deal but that only made me cry harder. lol It seems to come and go though, so thankfully I'm not always on the verge of tears. Hope you move out of this phase soon!!

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  • Me!  But I'm blaming poor sleep and general fatigue for mine.  I had a bit of a crying fit this morning because (and I kid you not):  "I don't mind the babies being there, and it's really good that they keep growing, but I just feel so SORRY for myself!"  

    My poor partner must feel like I've lost my marbles and she's going to have to take care of 3 babies!
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  • Yeah, hormones are tough. I'm usually pretty strong and assertive and I don't complain. But since having to go on bedrest at 26 weeks (I'm 30+4 today) it's been harder to keep it together. When I woke up this morning, my pelvis hurt so bad it felt like the babies were going to fall out, and I just laid on the bed and cried. DH came and rubbed my back and told me it was ok to cry and that I was still tough and brave and that he didn't know anyone else who could do this. It helps to have a supportive husband, but sometimes the overwhelmingness of the whole situation gets to me. Like I know I'm only 30 weeks and they're too small to come now. But I hurt so bad all the time that I can't take it anymore, then I feel bad for thinking that because I don't want them in the NICU, but once they're ready and they come home, how am I going to do this? Then I cry.
  • I had a really hard time with keeping my mood in check right around where you are now.  I'm usually a laid back and level headed person, but I had a hard time keeping myself from getting really angry over nothing.  I know it was totally hormones and it has gotten better.  Hormones are no joke!
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    Thanks ladies, I hope it passes soon. I hate being like this and not being myself. That is the hardest part, feeling like I have been taken over by some crazy loon!
    @Turkygurl‌ you have every right to feel that way! I can't imagine how hard that is for you. Huge (((hugs))). I hope the time passes quickly!
    Me: 37 DH: 40 TTC since 9/09
    #1 BFP 1/10/11; missed m/c discovered 7w5d
    IF Dx: Endo, hetero MTHFR mutation, poor morphology
    #1 IUI: 1/18/12 = BFN
    #1 IVF/ICSI 4/2/12 = 2 x 7-cell and 1 x 5-cell transferred (3dt) = BFP!!
    H was born at 41w2d on 12/29/12 - be still my heart!
    #2 IVF/ICSI 1/19/14 = 2 x 8 cells transferred (3dt) = BFP!! EDD 10/09/14
    M&W born at 37 weeks on 9/18/14 - I am the momma of 3 boys!!!

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  • I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. I've struggled with bad anxiety since 17 weeks with bleeding and off and on bedrest due to placenta previa. Last week I ended up making the decision to start Zoloft because my anxiety was so bad I was having a hard time eating and sleeping (I have a history of bad anxiety but it's been under control with therapy alone until recently). I just wanted to share this with you, in case it's something you want to talk over with your OB or a psychiatrist. They can help you weigh the risks and benefits for you and your babies.
    Me - 35. DH - 40. TTC #1 since 9/2010. 
    IUI #1-2 BFN
    IUI #3 BFP = C/P
    IUI #4-6 BFNs
    IVF #1 Lupron and Gonal F: 29R 29M 28F
    2 blastocysts transferred 12/14/13
    Beta at 9dp5dt = 285; Beta at 12dp5dt = 925
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