I'm on leave for another few weeks, but need to work this Friday just for the day. My mom and dad are taking LO, and my mom will also be our childcare 3 days a week once I go back full time.
The past few days, LO has been a whole new level of fussy, to the point where I brought her to the doc today because I was worried something was wrong with her ears since she's been screaming so bad whenever she's been put down. She's ok, though the pedi said she might have a little bit of reflux going on and keep an eye on it. Car rides sometimes help, as does wearing her in the Moby, but neither of those are sure things either.
I'm so afraid to leave her Friday and that she's just going to scream the whole time, and have my mom regret offering to watch her for us. And my dad is going to be alone with her for a couple hours and I don't know how comfortable he'll be trying to soothe my inconsolable child. If I was leaving her with DC providers I guess it would be one thing since they're professionals I'm paying for a service, but since it's family I'm having incredible guilt about the situation. Not to mention that she'll be getting bottles all day so she won't even have the nursing to soothe her.
Any advice? Should I have my mom try the carrier tomorrow and see if she wants it for Friday? I know it's going to happen and there's nothing I can do about it, but I'm totally dreading the whole thing. Help!
Re: Officially freaking out about leaving LO
Also, Friday is a long time away. Your LO could be a totally different baby by then!
It's hard to leave LO. I did it for the first time today. It'll be fine (though there was no convincing me of that at 8am!), and I'll be hoping all goes smoothly!
Thanks for talking me down, ladies. I know you're right, I'm just feeling a little frayed after a long day and overwhelmed with the thought of passing it off to someone else. But tomorrow could be totally different, and Friday is a world away in baby land... it's like 5% of her life away!
Of course I also feel a little ridiculous because she was perfect at the doctor and happily hung out in the bouncy while we had dinner. Granted, she then screamed a bunch for MH while I took a shower to relax and collect myself... is it bad that I felt oddly vindicated by that?
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