Hi all! When we first started this board, there were things I knew we'd put out there for people to get ideas and learn from. So, I wanted to share the letter I sent to our egg donor this weekend telling her we are pregnant (again). She and I exchanged a few letters around our fresh transfer over a year ago, and I know she was informed of our loss because they did some testing on her as a result. My RE said she was sure our ED would LOVE to hear from us and I wanted to share...So, I hope this isn't an overshare to post it for you all to read! But consider it a little bit of an overall update for you all too! Because we're anonymous, I am J1 and my wifey is J2.
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Hi!! It's been a long time! J1 here . I'm writing with the awesome news that I'm pregnant again, largely thanks to you!
As
you know, last year in mid-march we lost our baby boy at 16 weeks. The
reason was a total fluke - a blood clot in the umbilical cord. It was
very sad and a hard thing, but we were glad to learn he was healthy, and
we could try again soon. After some minor complications from the
D&E to remove him, we finally tried again in July. It was a chemical
pregnancy. In September, we got a total negative. Our 'last chance
embie' was put in almost a year to the day from your egg retrieval on
December 2nd. I'll admit I had little hope and felt like we were just
going through the motions... We'd reserved your last batch of frozen
eggs, I was already looking at new sperm donors and trying to figure out
where to find the money for another cycle. Generally I am not a
pessimist but it had been a long, rough year on my body, mind and spirit
for sure. And what do you know...we got a positive test a few days
later!
Then the real hard part started. I think when you lose a baby,
there is a piece of grief you can't really unlock until you're pregnant
again. That first while was hard - I didn't want to be a ball of worry
an anxiety but it was really hard to ignore those feelings. I took it
one day at a time, and J2 was super calm and reassuring at every turn
which helped. I found a lovely counselor who specialized in infertility
and loss, which helped too. This pregnancy was very different than the
first, as they say happens but it is true! I was really nauseated this
time around, which was oddly reassuring (though not much fun) - and that
helped remind me baby was still doing ok. Getting past our loss date
milestone was HUGE! I woke up that day, checked the heartbeat with my
at-home doppler, and thought "wow, this baby might really be born!"
followed by "holy crap we have a lot to do!"
So I'll be 1/2 way (20 weeks) in a week and a half (day after
J2's bday!) and we found out this baby is a GIRL! I have to admit to
being pretty happy about that. I have 3 sisters and J has 1, and we're
both women...somehow it just feels so right to have a little girl!
Plus, I wished this pregnancy to be different than the last, and it's
nice to feel like this isn't a 'replacement' of our first baby. He gets
to be our boy forever.
One piece of news we got that wasn't great is that baby S (we
named the baby already and we LOVE her name!) has an extra sex
chromosome, it's called Trisomy X. This is not the worst news - believe
me - but it was a bit of a bummer. It happens in about 1 in 1000 girls
(I don't know how we keep getting these odds...our loss was a 1 in 1000
too). Now if you google this is could freak you out as it did me! But,
after several conversations with our RE, as well as a fantastic
consultation with a medical geneticist/pediatrician at Children's, we
feel very reassured. Primarily, she will be a little extra tall, like 3"
more than she otherwise would have been...which does scare us a little
with your height and our male donor was 5'11... and she could have some
delays in terms of when she walks/talks, as well as a potential for some
learning disabilities/challenges, and an IQ that is slightly lower
(10-15 points) than it otherwise would have been. Another helpful stat
is that 90% of females with this are never diagnosed - meaning the
impact is light to none - which is a reassuring set of odds.
While we all want a 'perfect child' the whole process of
digesting S's diagnosis has reminded me that no one is perfect. We feel
so grateful she landed with us, because we will be all over it -
ensuring she is assessed and that any delays or challenges are addressed
quickly with appropriate therapy and/or interventions. The good news is
prenatally diagnosed girls generally land within 'normal' ranges for
just about everything. It does make us a little sad that she may
struggle to do things that she sees her peers having an easier time
with, but we hope to help her find where she shines and foster those
skills and interests so she always has a place where she can feel good
about herself!
As far as her treatment goes, our appointment at Children's was
fantastic - the dr. recommended simply letting our pediatrician drive
S's plan if needed. The difference will be if she tests in a way that
shows a delay or a borderline result, we will get a referral and start
therapy vs. taking a 'wait and see' approach. We felt good about this
plan! We do not want to spend all of our time looking for potential
issues, we just want to love her and parent her, and while we'll keep an
eye out, we don't want to be obsessive 'helicopter moms' about it. If
you're interested, this link is probably the best for honest info on
this trisomy - noting that it really speaks to the 10% of diagnosed
females, more outliers than the norm: https://www.genetic.org/Knowledge/WhatareXamp;YChromosomeVariations/TellmeaboutTrisomyX.aspx .
Regardless of this news, we are over the moon for our baby
girl! And I must admit, I think about you at some point just about every
day because of the amazing gift you've given me and J2. We are so
incredibly grateful and happy that we are getting to have a baby from
your eggs. I've never taken down the card that you sent that says
"Believe" on it since the day it arrived! We are going to frame it in
S's nursery, and are making her a book with info about you and her male
donor too so she is never surprised by how she came about and that it's a
natural part of her self-understanding.
We both hope you are doing well and we will for sure keep you
posted (if that's ok . We always love to hear from you, but no
pressure on that - we just wanted to share the happy news since you are a
big part of it!
J1
Lil'mamaz was born on Aug 21, 2014! She's PERFECT!
It's been a long road to here... Me (43) and J (45) - same sex couple. And we don't feel 40+! June'12 - First RE Visit Sept. '12 - Tubes removed Dec. '12 - Donor Egg/Donor Sperm IVF Cycle - 4 good embies! Dec. '12 - Fresh transfer, BFP! EDD 8/29/13 Mar. '13 - Missed m/c at 16w1d, baby boy stopped growing at 15w4d Loss due to umbilical cord clot...baby was perfect. Jul '13 - FET#1 - c/p Sept. '13 - FET#2 - BFN Dec.' 2, 2013 - FET#3 with our last chance embie - BFP!!! Dec' 26, 2013 - hb!! EDD 8/20/14 with a baby girl! Little S was born on 8/21/14 - 8lb, 14 oz and 20 inches long. We live in Seattle and used SRM for our donor egg IVF cycle
Awww, I just love that you wrote this. So happy for you and YW and little S.
************ Signature/Ticker Warning ************ Me (32) DH (36) - Finding our way to baby #1 Me: POF/DOR - AMH <0.16, heterozygous c677t MTHFR, insulin resistant and gluten intolerant DH: Severe MFI 12/2/11 - IUI #1- BFN 8/1/12 - IVF #1 - Zero response from max stims (600iu intramuscularly) My ovaries are just for decoration
12/6/12 - Adopted five embryos that had been frozen for over ten years! 2/11/13 - DEmbryo FET #1 Thawed four, sadly two didn't survive. Transferred two beautiful blasts. 2/16/13 - First BFP of my life @ 6dp5dt! EDD 10/30/13 3/27/13 - After beta and u/s hell, no heartbeat ever detected. D&C at 9w1d. 6/5/13 - Adopted four new embryos that had been frozen for seven years! 9/12/13 - DEmbryo FET #2. Thawed and transferred two beautiful blasts 9/17/13 - BFP @ 5dp6dt! EDD 05/31/14 9/29/13 - m/c @ 5w1d.
11/19/13 - DEmbryo FET #3. Thawed and transferred one blast from each batch. Wow! 11/23/13 - BFP @ 4dp6dt! EDD 8/7/13 Beta #1 @ 13dp6dt - 522 Beta #2 @ 16dp6dt - 1373 6w5d ultrasound showed one perfect baby with a beautiful heartbeat of 134bpm!
Snowflake baby is a girl! Our beautiful Snowflake girl arrived on July 22, 2014! My embryo adoption blog: Wishing on a Snowflake
TTC with DOR, low morphology, fertilization issues
IVF#1 Oct 2009 (CCRM) - BFN
IVF#2 March 2010 - Poor response/cancelled
DE IVF#1 Aug 2010 - BFN
DE IVF#2 Dec 2010 - Transferred 1, 2 frozen - BFP!
TTC#2 FET Jan 2013 - Transferred 1 - BFP!
Loved reading this!!! Thanks for sharing @2MamazinSeattle! I'm sure your donor will be very happy and touched to hear about this pregnancy!
Me: AMA, DOR, undetectable AMH, carrier of SMA, MTHFR homozygous C677T, high cytokines, low IGg B cells, Factor XIII V34l mutation, High Anti-Phosphatidylethanolmine, borderline hypothyroid and mildly insulin resistant.
MH: No known issues, aside from MTHFR.
Recommendations from RI: LIT, Humira, IVIG, Lovenox, Baby Aspirin, Folic Acid, Low-dose synthroid and Metformin.
Currently taking: Pre-Natal vitamins, Foltanx, Low-dose synthroid and Metformin.
When cycling also taking: Baby Aspirin, Lovenox, Humira and IVIG.
TTC since 7/11/09..with medical intervention starting in 2010, including 4 failed IVF's and 6 failed IUI's...only "success" was a chemical pregnancy in 11/2012 (credited to use of DE).
FET #1 (11th cycle) on 8/23/13 = BFN.
FET #2 (12th cycle) Transfer of last two (day 6) donor egg blasts on 1/22/14 = BFP, EDD = 10/10/14 (please stick little BOY!)
Re: My letter to my donor! (kind of an overall update, too)
************ Signature/Ticker Warning ************
Me (32) DH (36) - Finding our way to baby #1
Me: POF/DOR - AMH <0.16, heterozygous c677t MTHFR, insulin resistant and gluten intolerant
DH: Severe MFI
12/2/11 - IUI #1- BFN
8/1/12 - IVF #1 - Zero response from max stims (600iu intramuscularly)
My ovaries are just for decoration
12/6/12 - Adopted five embryos that had been frozen for over ten years!
2/11/13 - DEmbryo FET #1 Thawed four, sadly two didn't survive. Transferred two beautiful blasts.
2/16/13 - First BFP of my life @ 6dp5dt! EDD 10/30/13
3/27/13 - After beta and u/s hell, no heartbeat ever detected. D&C at 9w1d.
6/5/13 - Adopted four new embryos that had been frozen for seven years!
9/12/13 - DEmbryo FET #2. Thawed and transferred two beautiful blasts
9/17/13 - BFP @ 5dp6dt! EDD 05/31/14
9/29/13 - m/c @ 5w1d.
11/19/13 - DEmbryo FET #3. Thawed and transferred one blast from each batch. Wow!
11/23/13 - BFP @ 4dp6dt! EDD 8/7/13
Beta #1 @ 13dp6dt - 522 Beta #2 @ 16dp6dt - 1373
6w5d ultrasound showed one perfect baby with a beautiful heartbeat of 134bpm!
Snowflake baby is a girl!
Our beautiful Snowflake girl arrived on July 22, 2014!
My embryo adoption blog: Wishing on a Snowflake
IVF#1 Oct 2009 (CCRM) - BFN
IVF#2 March 2010 - Poor response/cancelled
DE IVF#1 Aug 2010 - BFN
DE IVF#2 Dec 2010 - Transferred 1, 2 frozen - BFP!
TTC#2 FET Jan 2013 - Transferred 1 - BFP!
Me: AMA, DOR, undetectable AMH, carrier of SMA, MTHFR homozygous C677T, high cytokines, low IGg B cells, Factor XIII V34l mutation, High Anti-Phosphatidylethanolmine, borderline hypothyroid and mildly insulin resistant.
MH: No known issues, aside from MTHFR.
Recommendations from RI: LIT, Humira, IVIG, Lovenox, Baby Aspirin, Folic Acid, Low-dose synthroid and Metformin.
Currently taking: Pre-Natal vitamins, Foltanx, Low-dose synthroid and Metformin.
When cycling also taking: Baby Aspirin, Lovenox, Humira and IVIG.
TTC since 7/11/09..with medical intervention starting in 2010, including 4 failed IVF's and 6 failed IUI's...only "success" was a chemical pregnancy in 11/2012 (credited to use of DE).
FET #1 (11th cycle) on 8/23/13 = BFN.
FET #2 (12th cycle) Transfer of last two (day 6) donor egg blasts on 1/22/14 = BFP, EDD = 10/10/14 (please stick little BOY!)
My favorite breed:
***PAIF/SAIF always welcome***
April 2013 DE IVF= BFN
September 2013 DE IVF (Fingers Crossed) = BFFFN! again...
October 2013 FET of our last 2 = Beta Hellzz for 6-7 Weeks. M/C
Me: 33 (Mosaic Turner's Syndrome/POF)