This has not been a good week. I'm considering making an appointment with my OB to talk to her about the way I've been feeling and see it she suggests changing the dosage of my meds. I just feel really defeated lately. LO is not sleeping well so I feel like I'm doing something wrong, and DH and I are going through a definite rough patch. I'm not sure if I should just wait it out and hope things get better, or go talk to someone. Hope everyone else had a better than normal week!
Today is my first day back to work and the anxiety of pumping at work is terrible...I'm currently pumping at work now got here waaaay early so I could but I'm sooo nauseous. Other than that I've been pretty good.
Just got my dosage increased. My anxiety is really bad lately. Its like every time LO does something new or different I'm worried if its normal or not (scrunching his legs, sticking his tongue out) I even took him to the doctor for peace of mind because i felt like he seemed uncomfortable. The doc wrote a script for zantac. I really hope the increase kicks in soon so I can be more relaxed.
Finally called this morning to make an appointment. I thought I could white knuckle through this but it's getting worse. I cry at least once a day, but the worst part is the rage I feel at the tiniest things. I get so angry that I literally feel my hands begin to tighten up. It's hard to explain, but it scares me. I don't even know if being angry is a depression thing, but I need to figure it out. It's amazing how just calling and making an appointment made me feel a little better. I've been saying "I'll call tomorrow" for about a month now.
I used to get ridiculously mad. Like scream at the top of my lungs and clench my fists . I went on meds several years ago and don't do that anymore.
My hormones have been all over the place the last few weeks. I keep getting my period/having bleeding every week or two, despite my BCP. It is really messing me up and making me feel anxious and depressed. I really hope this new pill helps. My PMS is insane too and I'm getting it all the time now...
I came home in the morning to find DH and LO sleeping together on the couch and Sprout on the TV. It was adorable. DH said things went MUCH better, they both got some sleep, the teething gel was a hit, and so apparently was a frozen paci (which surprised me because LO doesn't like cold things or pacis). I think it was a huge help knowing she was teething, because when DH gets frustrated it's like a vicious cycle for the two of them.
Thanks again everyone for all your suggestions and helping to keep me from freaking out. You really are like my second family.
@Caitlinh27 talking to someone always helps me when things are rough, even if it's just to vent or sound out my feelings. Sorry you are going through a rough time. As you might have seen, my LO just had a very fussy spell and we figured out she is teething. But before that, DH was going crazy feeling like he couldn't do anything right. This too shall pass. You are being a great mom for doing the best for your LO! GL with DH.
@starskit1283 are you nauseous from the anxiety? Is it something particular about pumping at work that bothers you? Its tough when you first go back
Had a therapy session yesterday, my 1st in 2 weeks. It was good to talk through stuff, but the anxiety is nearly constant. I think I just need to bite the bullet, call my OB and and make an appt to tell her how I'm feeling. I know there are options if you are BFing, but I'm still nervous abut potentially taking meds while breast feeding. Can anyone calm my fears about this with your experience?
Had a therapy session yesterday, my 1st in 2 weeks. It was good to talk through stuff, but the anxiety is nearly constant. I think I just need to bite the bullet, call my OB and and make an appt to tell her how I'm feeling. I know there are options if you are BFing, but I'm still nervous abut potentially taking meds while breast feeding. Can anyone calm my fears about this with your experience?
Do some research on particular meds. I am on effexor and wellbutrin daily. I have been through my whole pregnancy and the entire time bfing. LO has reflux, but is on zantac. Don't even know if that is related, I think it has more to do with her being a c-section baby. Other than that she's a perfectly happy healthy baby. I discussed before TTC with my psychiatrist about my meds. He says that the amount that actually gets passed through the breast milk is so small it's almost insignificant. Definitely worth it for me. I don't know what I'd do without my meds. GL!
Re: Depression/Anxiety Check-In *4/4/14*
Hope everyone else had a better than normal week!
I came home in the morning to find DH and LO sleeping together on the couch and Sprout on the TV. It was adorable. DH said things went MUCH better, they both got some sleep, the teething gel was a hit, and so apparently was a frozen paci (which surprised me because LO doesn't like cold things or pacis). I think it was a huge help knowing she was teething, because when DH gets frustrated it's like a vicious cycle for the two of them.
Thanks again everyone for all your suggestions and helping to keep me from freaking out. You really are like my second family.
Sorry you are going through a rough time. As you might have seen, my LO just had a very fussy spell and we figured out she is teething. But before that, DH was going crazy feeling like he couldn't do anything right. This too shall pass. You are being a great mom for doing the best for your LO! GL with DH.
@starskit1283 are you nauseous from the anxiety? Is it something particular about pumping at work that bothers you? Its tough when you first go back